just now i was browsing thru a fren's blog.. saw her did a reflection of the past yr.. den it struck me.. maybe i shld do the same.. moreover i had a very interesting yr.. i doubt anyone can ever experience wat i experience wat i went thru...

at the beginning of the year.. i was still serving my NS.. with a slight hope of becoming a regular.. while i still go back to tj for vball often.. got to know rach, zz & eil... all of them turned out to be very nice gals...

saw them thru the a div compeitions... both teams were knocked out of placings... i was rather harsh during the team talks after the matches.. i may be just overly concerned for them... but i think i really want them to do well.. & they were capable... felt kindda sad for them too... i took part in the interformation volleyball representing RSAF.. din really have the chance to perform.. tot i can really show my abilities next yr.. but sadly.. no chance liaozZ...

in middle of the yr.. my dreams of getting a study award from the RSAF vaporises.. the final results were out 2 months later.. i was told to leave... ORD lohzZ...

i joined the tj vball team on their trip to thailand... it was really a wonderful feeling.. it has been a long time since i had been on a trip with so many frens... PS, Weijie, Marc were there too... become closer with many of the juniors... bought lots of stuff... ates lots of food... feels re-attached to the team... got myself a mei.. esther, she's really nice.. great big heart and big appetite too... no regrets with this mei...

after ORD... i helped out at the osim triathalon.. first time doing such stuff.. although it says volunteer... but i was actually paid.. and the money wasnt bad.. haha.. got more den 200bucks.. jut for doing some dum stuff... idiot-proof.. but wat i really hate was still that idiotic dr-dunno-wat.. i never seen anyone as idiot as him... totally unacceptable.. made a few frens though...

i worked at Great Eastern for 2 months.. it was really a torture to work there... job wasnt tough but just too boring... only den i realised why those working there are all aunties... although after a month.. a familiar face join me there.. but she was a perm staff.. haha.. but guess wat.. shld could take it either.. she's planning to leave by end of this yr too.. hahaa... yah.. boring job... but at least got a little income...

somewhere in september, i got myself another mei.. alison, she e cutest gal i ever came across... she has a spiky attitude... her words can sometimes poke you right at where it hurts most.. but u'll never be able to be angry with her... best of all... she has a bottomless-pit for a stomach... never stops getting hungry... all in all... she just makes me wanna care for her.. so pple out there.. dun bully my mei k!!

at the end of the stint at GE... i went for another holiday... this time to taiwan/hongkong.. together with my airforce khakis.. it was a really interesting trip... 1st time going there.. after seeing so much of it on tv.. experiencing it was really great.. the food, the ppl, the scenery, the shopping.... everything was just wonderful...

ever since coming back from taiwan.. i hadnt had much to do... just din little things here and there to keep myself busy... started to drain out my savings... vball camp was fun... made a few trips to jb with fung.. fung is seriously addicted to jb shopping.. blame me for introducing him the stall at holiday plaza.. hahaa.. sux for failing my driving test.. stupid yellow box.. still cant get over it... stupid yellow box... gonna retake on 20th JAN.. hope the new yr brings me new luck...

think one of the most interesting character i got to know this yr is actually tan lisi... she's a very good badminton player.. national standard.. kena trashed by her.. cant get over that too.. gonna beat her some day... hahaa... the challenge is on!! she has a contagious and neverending laughter... and a very innocent gal... i can never forget the suppers with her & hay.. and the late nites...

this yr i finally meet up with my 12/00 classmates.. it has been a few yrs since i saw them... so it was really not a bad experience... not really close to them... but okay lar... fren are frens still... :)

i cant possibly end the year without saying anything about my wonderful dear dear... coming to 5yrs very soon... the good thing is that everyday seems like we just got together... there were ups and downs.. but luckily everything eventually turned out just fine...

HAPPY NEW 2005 !!

i finally finished fixing my cabinet and my fan.. now my room is really all done up.. yeah.. some unpacking later in the day and i'm all ready to receive the new yr... actually i think i kindda messed up with my cabinet.. it kindda looks like the leaning tower of pisa... but it's okay.. at least it's standing.. hahaa.. later gonna go teach my that irritating cousin tuition... sianzZ.. still dunno how much her father wanna pay... duhzZ...

finally.. the war is over... i wouldnt say i won... in fact.. i think i'm on the losing end... cos i promised to do quite a few things... change some other things... well.. at least i got her back.. that is the most impt thing... had dinner with her... welcome back dear!!!!

only just got home not long ago... went to watch movie with hay, lisi and esther... kungfu hustle... i was stil feeling down... so lisi asked if i wana go out... felt kindda better after the laff... a total crap show... 100% entertainment.. 0% quality... that's the kind of show kungfu hustle is..

i miss her voice... i miss her touches... i miss her hugs... i miss her whinnings... i miss her smile... i miss her kisses... i miss her massage... i miss her scratching... i miss her lying on my shoulders...

i miss singing for her... i miss having heart cramps... i miss cooking for her... i miss holding her hands... i miss biting her... i miss lying on her lap... i miss lifting her off the ground and swing her around... i miss waking up and she appears beside me 1st thing in the morning... i miss kissing her non-stop...

i dun wanna be like this.....

i've never been able gain the upper hand in arguments... why because i dun think as much.. consequences seldom seem more impt den achieve my aim... but wat have been saying has always been the truth... i've been true about everything.. my feelings for everyone... i have no regrets... i dunno i how i can win this war.. it just seems as if i dun have a long term aim... dunno wat i am aiming for... to tell u the truth... i can only say this again... i dunno.. u will never know wat will happen in the future... wat else can i say?? u say i dun think about us? i only have 1 simple thing in my mind... i want us to be us... rich or poor... troubled or peaceful.. just be together.. that's all... i know u have expectations... i dunno if i can meet ur expectations... but i only know i'll love u... that's all...

camp's over.. overalll wasnt bad.. but participants too many.. organisin com a little too small.. kindda uncontrollable... nonetheless.. there were a bunch who more supportive & co-operative.. my greatest comfort is to be among frens i guess... although i dun think anyone knows the situation i'm in nor do i see anyone i can confide in... how am i gonna solve this problem... this war has to stop somewhere, somehow...

how does it feel without her?? i dunno... i just go all out doing watever i have.. i easily forget things... it may not be the best thing to do.. but it wasnt me who started the war... i'm now in sch.. joining them for the sports camp.. got to know a few ppl.. had some fun... handball.. basketball and stuff... yah.. not bad lar...

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the cold war has begun.. i hate it.. dun like the feeling at all.. but it is time to think over these 4 yrs wat have we achieved... wat we are hoping for... seriously i dun have the slightest idea will this cold war ever end... or will it just develop into armaggedon... i just think she has changed, i've lost my importance or at least i dun feel it anymore... i seem redundant...

i'm just gonna let her cool off... cos i think wat i want is obvious.. and it hasnt changed over the years... i'm sure of that... i believe her aim hasnt changed either.. but her methods have changed and her priorities took a serious reshuffling... it all just piss me off.. i am DAMN PISSED!!!!!

it has not been the best christmas day of my life.. not at all... woke up late in the afternoon.. yanli was beside me when i woke up.. but she was too tired and just wanted to sleep.. i felt kindda sianzZ... went to ikea with mummy to buy my final cabinet... den dinner at kenny rogers den watch "meet the focker" funny show.. good to watch... all this while yanli was with me.. but all this while i was damn pissed with her... why?? cos she promised to spend the nite with me.. but when we went out she said she's going home... the reason she gave.. pure lameness... i put on a f**ked up face all the while, and all she could do was try to smile at me.. i think it was nothing more den a pathetic attempt... i just cannot accept it... my whole day is just spoilt... yes, i'm possessive.. this i admit.. but i am pretty certain i'm not over possessive... all i want is someone to accompany me... she promised me a few days back, she would spend the nite with me... yet after spending the eve with her clique... came to my place in the afternoon... slept... finally only to say she wants to go home... go then!!!!! dun let me have false hopes!!!

Only just got home a while ago... this year was a little different from previous yrs... usually i would just spend the nite over at someone's place till the next day.. this yr there was a xmas gathering at my new place.. my grandparents, my aunts & uncles, and many many cousins were all here... the place was basically in a mess while me & my sis was frantically trying to whipp up lasagne & baked rice... we made enough to feed everyone.. but there was lots more food around the house... so just imagine wat kind of scene it was... a truely chaotic one!!

i also made baked chicken which was for another gathering with yanli's clique... with potato, cheese, onion & more cheese... hehee... anyone interested in the recipe?? can call me.. hahaa.. it was quite well received at the gathering, the tray was cleared in mins... there was also bbq.. it was quite a disaster at first.. cos the fire was too strong and it burnt through the aluminium tray... and most of the food was burnt... the satay was weird.. the meat just wun stay on the sticks... so i took out all the sticks and made it into a huge satay patty and bbq'ed that... tasted not bad actually...the highlight was actually the dessert.. chococolate fondue... thick creamy melted cadbury chocolate... with lots of juicy cut fruits... just dip it in... out it comes with a thick coat of chocolate.. the taste was simply... heavenly.. hahaa

i had to leave yanli's clique early cos me going to watch movie at tiong bahru with lisi and her fren, christabel... a very interesting gal... we watched "Phantom Of The Opera", it was a rather tragic story... the phantom had a very bad childhood... and all he was asking for was love... but because he wasnt really loved before, he lacks the ability to show kindness, killing was rather simple for him too... rather overpossessive, the love undoubtedly was strong... sad story... besides the story, the singing was also fantastic to my standard... really kept me hype thru-out the show... overall rating 8.5, so love story wannabes out there... go for it...

lisi wanted to go boat quay after the show, thinking that pubs actually open till 5-6am in the morning... NO!! they are all closed by the time we finished our show.. but still we took a walk down to clarke quay.. den to esplanade, marina square finally ending back in tiong bahru again where we had breakfast.. food was suppose to be really good.. but somehow it wasnt that fantastic to my standards.. hahaa.. yah.. so spent about 3-4hrs walking around the southern part of singapore while christabel was like a heritage tour expert, explaining to us every single notable monument we walked pass... interesting rite?? yeap it was... on the way back to tiong bahru, we walked passed md sultan... lisi totally has no idea that such a place existed... so she said next time if i go there, she'll wanna tag along.. oh yah, i have to say this.. lisi look real good last nite... i'm serious.. so any takers for our next outing?? md sultan??

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i think it's been awhile since i had the chance to stay at home the whole day... initially it was fine... just slack do nothing keep lying on the bed.. just waiting for the sun to rise and set.. din wanna go training... let their aeroplane fly... din meet up with wanyang & co also... their aeroplane also fly...

watched "Texas Chainsaw Massacre" just before dinner.. din really make me lose my appetite even though the show was really damn grossed... i was hungry... i ate 6 pc of KFC... & 1 bottle of pepsi... din really feel bloated as expected... just right only... so i think i din over eat rite??

felt kindda sianzZ at the end of the day... dun really know why... this thought came to my mind... wat sort of a girlfriend do i want?? now i have one who really cares about me.. but she is really too nice sometimes... sometimes i would like my gf to be willing to break some rules for me.. dun be afraid of doing some things wrong...
actually i want to be able to play sports with my gf... sometimes when i play badminton.. i see some elder couples play together... i think that feels good.. play some badminton, basketball or even volleyball... not just play.. also to give me some challenge so that i wun be bored... sometimes i really think... how many things are there that i can do with yanli.. not too many though.. but i am will to accept that... all i expect is for her to be more attentive to wat's happening around me.. not that she doesnt care... but recently she's always pre-occupied with other things. that pisses me off... i just wonder... just where do i stand....

this morning i had my 1st tuition with my 13 yr old cousin Wong Jiaqin, she is a terror... told her to prepare her end of yr paper for ne to go over with her... but when i ask her qns about her test.. she everything forget liaozZ.. how she got the ans... everything also say guess one... really die loh... den super talkative... i tell her everything she just nod her head.. must make her write things down... haizZ.. serious case of laziness...

after almost 3hrs of hell... i took cad down to tj for vball... i think i really deteriorating... can only play on gal's net... cant jump any higher... super sad... den somemore nowadays i feel all my joints including knees & elbows like very loose... anytime can break.. can only play according to experience.. which means i have to anticipate where the ball will be well ahead of time... if i made a wrong decision.. that's it... wun be able to fly there also... yah.. that's my deteriorating vball...

went to eat KFC with vball ppl after training... finally get to eat kfc after so long... it's really been a long long time... so it actually tastes quite good.. when i'm done with kfc, i gotta rush home for more food.. gotta cook pasta & 2 sauces for my 12/00 gathering... i think i did quite a good job.. everything was done in slightly more den an hr... best of all the comment was not bad.. anyone wanna order?? hehee...

the gathering was quite fun lor.. haven seen some of them in like... eeehh 3yrs?? took some photos... had some wine and quite a bit of singing... finally left around 3plus... super super shagged now... yawnzZ... dun think i'll be able to make it to training liaozZ... zzzZZZzzZZz....

went to watch blade with hay, wanyang, jass, lisi, ps & rachel... it's basically a show to make wesley snipes look good... but i think he is getting old lar.. dun really look too good liaozZ.. anyway.. the female lead just looks super good... and i finally remember where she's from.. she's the elder sister in the series 7th heaven.. and she's is same age as me... Jessica Biel... hehee..

after the show finished i had to rush to lawyer's office at peninsula plaza... my parents are getting divorced... ppl who know me well shld noe by now... and i'm not sad about it... finally it's going to happen... thank god...

part 3 - ktv at chinatown.. with ps, hay & lisi... yanli too... bad voice today.. kindda sucky.. hahaa.. lisi's still as good... SUN YANZI!! hahaa.. she is good... she seems so focus while singing... which makes the picture look abit funny.. cos normally she's laffing like 90% of the time... hahaa..

tml's gonna busy a busy day.. give tuition in the morning... den go vball.. den go 12/00 xmas gathering.. my 1st gathering with them since i grad... sounds sucky rite?? and i haven got a xmas present... heh...

went to gals training this morn... not really very funny... got this sianzZ sianzZ feeling.. maybe it has to do with my cut on my right middle finger.. never point my middle finger so many times in a day before... hahaa..lunch was really quite ex.. almost 10 bucks for long john silvers... really wanted to eat kfc instead.. think shld have... cos not full...

wanyang, eileen, ps & hay all came t my place to watch dvd... initially we were watching "shaun of the dead" but all too tired to listen to the dum jokes... so we changed to "resident evil 2" instead.. idiot proof show.. killing from start to end that's all.. after the show wanyang and eileen left... lisi came to join us shortly after.. she has compeition at SBH @ 930pm.. we decided to go see her play... we went the SBH about 830pm.. there were lots of interesting matches... Lisi's match somehow got delayed till 1030pm den start... her match VS chinese taipei.. quite disppointing.. but she say is play for fun one, and her partner also 1st time playing on this stage.. that's why like cannot catch up with the pace... realised Lisi's quite a household name there.. a lot of ppl know her... impressive...

i was superman today.. why?? cos i never sleep last nite... was configuring all the files that i copied from kaiyu's comp... so din sleep.. by the time i was done.. it was already time to go for bball... went fengshan to play bball again.. saw my airforce buddy, adrian there. still as rough as ever.. see him for 5mins and he's always all over his opponents.. scary!! vincent join us for bball along with zhangjun & some others... we played aginst these group of ppl who were also there... they are fast... and their shooting was damn accurate... just kept losing to them... quite buay song... wanted to challenge them more.. but we left the place to play else where cos we have too many ppl liaozZ... oh yah.. my shooting was spot on today, felt good...

went to yanli's place after bball... den we took a bus down to ikea.. shopping!! bought 2 new cushions... & some other stuff.. wanted to buy a display cabinet too... but wasnt sure of the size.. now i know there is definitely enough space.. i'll be poping down ikea again some time soon...

my greatest achievement of the day... my room is pracitcally packed and ready liaozZ... most stuff are neat liaozZ.. i combined 2 single mattresses to form my queen size bed... network is up.. time to enjoy!! hahaa... oh yah.. i'm getting more broke den ever... any jobs to intro??

came to kaiyu's place early today at 3pm... suppose to help out with his bbq.. but when i reach here... there's no one!! but his sis & dog.. super irritating dog.. keeps biting me.. although it doesnt hurt at all... but the saliva is super irritating!!! are dogs really men's best fren?? i think the rabbit yesterday much more fun... hahaa... okay.. back to the bbq... not much food to bbq.. cos most of it are cooked... quite a spread actually... got cake also.. i got my hand cut while trying to drag the bbq pit.. newly assembled pit(i did the assembly too)... not too deep lar... maybe abt 1 cm wide... but right at the joint.. so dun think will heal so fast lor... din really eat too much i think... most of the time cooking.. i think that's the best way to lost weight... when i cook i dun like to eat.. cos i want ppl to enjoy wat i cook.. i eat my myself for wat?? haha... i not trying to say i'm a wonderful cook.. but not too bad lar... i'm still in my fren's house, kaiyu's house.. gonna stay here tonight... he drove me home to pick up some stuff and get a quick bath... den later 9am go play basketball @ fengshan cc.. quite a long day.... *yawnzZ*

just got back to old house... spend the evening at esther place.. vball bbq... wasnt really as fun as i expected.. end up i was quite bored... dun really have anyone talking to me... seems to be the case most of the time... so gotta entertain myself most of the time... brought yanli along initially, but she felt left out also.. cos not really anyone to talk to her also... like so sad rite?? i spend most of the time at the bbq pit.. like i always do at bbqs... accompany yanli to the bus-stop after a while... since she was bored, best was for her to go home and rest... no point wasting time... yah.. grateful of her understanding... but in the end i stayed also not much achieved..

initially in esther's place still quite okay.. played her their rabbit... very cute... kept playing with it until it went back into it's cage.. after that i ended up on the mahjong table... played quite well actually... won a bit.. but not playing my money that's why can win... if it were my own money sure lost one.. i'm cursed... after mahjong most pple left... awhile later i realised i was the only left other den lihui.. actually i wanted to stay one... wanted to chat with my mei... but no one else but lihui stayed... didnt seem alrite for me to stay.. so i left...

so now i'm in my oldhouse again... tml gotta pack new house.. den afternoon going kaiyu's place for bbq again.. haha... exciting!! :P

just came back from boat quay... went to a ktv pub there.. drink were okay.. beer & cocktail... songs were quite new but the system hang.. den wasted quite a bit of time there lor... the reason we went there was actually one of my cchs classmates, diane works there... haven seen her for years.. still as lian-ish as ever but much much slimmer.. great to see her... quite a few other classmates came... like a small gathering lor.. best thing was she din really remember who i was until she saw me... tsk tsk tsk.. disappointing... huifen & ruobin was there too.. they having good life, plump liaozZ.. hahaa.. nvm.. they wun see this... overall it was quite fun.. sang a few songs only though... oh yah... realised that diane has a beautiful voice too.. so there are so many singers in my class.. hidden dragon crouching tiger... hahaha...