it's been more den a week since i last blog... haven really been having a lot of thoughts in my mind... suddenly i seem to have quite a few ideas in my head... first was my exam results... seriously i'm quite surprised with my result... i din do exceptionally well... nor did i do very badly to my standards... but considering the amount of effort i put in for the last semester... i believe that this result is pretty much a miracle... i've got a B B+ and 2 B- and pretty respectable CAP of 3.33. yah... i was very surprised...

christmas was nothing really special... just spend some time with dear... think that's the best part of all lor... maybe it may seem selfish if i put it this way, but as long as she's around me... anyone else doesnt really mattered..

very soon new year's coming.. just a few days away... just like X'mas.. i still have not a single clue how to spent it... but i'm quite sure i wanna spent it with her.. hehee...

i have only one hermit crab left... the other one has been murdered too.. same murderer.. guess it's survival of the fittest... so much for hermit crabs being groupies... duhzZ....

it's been a long long time since i blog liaozZ... too lazy to come online recently.. been to only 2 training sessions.. one IVP one sheares... strenuous on my ankle... and so i rest since wednesday again... yah.. din go training.. din go frenly match.. well ankle more impt..

yesterday went to 4E class outing... quite fun.. ordered delivery from 933 golden pillow... alot of ppl came... long long long time no see faces... yah... quite nostalgic.. haha... went bowling after that... my scores quite good also... 165 for the 1st game... haha.. somemore went to cchs to take photos in the middle of the night...

just now went to airforce BOC bbq... also met quite a lot of my old colleagues and mnay also ORD liaozZ.... heard them complain abt a lot of things.. esp how things changed for the worst after we left.. hahaa... life was much better den... haha..

being my usual couch potato again... ask me wat is showing on cable tv everyday... i may be able to answer u quite promptly.. HA.. not very encouraging.. i still haven paxk up my room still looks like a sty.. aarrgghhh.. my whole house looks like a sty..

went back to tj for the gals camp... somehow my rght ankle giving me problem... at first still din think much into it.. but somehow it just got more and more painful... now... it's hurting like mad lar... cant walk also... limping limping... yesterday somemore "gey kiang" go jogging barefoot around the track... things just got worst... booozZ...

it's been awhile... i've been to malaysia over the weekend... the car rally was really quite boring... the only exciting part was the driving... finally i realise how small singapore is and how big malaysia is... and because of it's vastness, i can speed!! the legal speed limit is 110km/h can u believe that? call me sua gu.. but that's super exciting lar.. and the roads there all single lane one... den got alot of benbs and slopes... like initial D.. but this time got too many ppl on the car.. cannot drive crazily.. hahaha... anyway we got 3rd.. won $60 petrol voucher.. so so lame... i also got a taste of malaysia corruption... i was stopped along one of the roads... and booked for speeding.. that was crap lar.. i was travelling well well below the speed limit at the point.. but he insisted i was speeding.. and ask us to pay 300rm initially... but in the end he settled for 100rm.. so so disappointing...

today drove back to hall.. and i moved EVERYTHING back home liaoZZ.. yeah... 1 day gao dim.. by myself... yeah... i'm gonna revamp my room... rearrange everything... make it more working.. now it's only good for sleeping..

yesterday was supposed to go to bbq with tj vball ppl.. BUT!! i went to the wrong coasta sands... i went to the east coast one.. but they were at the pasir ris one.. so too bad lor.. no fate... so me and dear went to east coast waraku to eat.. good and cheap and big portion... shiok.. hehee...

so now.. i'm home... my first sem in NUS is kindda over... this is how i feel about my first term back in sch..

Social -

I had lots of difficulty trying to make frens.. it's may be cos of my course, most pple go lecture and tutorials in grps... so no getting to know of ppl except in CTW class.. CTW more interactive... so gotta know pple from there... think closest are my 2 grpmates... without them... i guess i would be much more helpless with my homework...

in hall, i missed orientation rather on purpose... which i believe is actually my biggest mistake... that made my interaction very hard in future, cos others were already in their own cliques... there i was kindda alone again... luckily i already knew some pple in hall.. but then still i was alone... in my room alone most of the time... breakfast alone... dinner alone... i have not had a single dinner nor breakfast with any of my hall-mates... wat a failure...

Study -

after 3 years of break from studying, being back in school is like a cultural shock... numbers make no sense... equations make no sense... physics make no sense... this term exam is exactly the result of my lost of touch... my expectations are low.. hopes are not high either.. so disappointment shldnt be too great... i hope.. after years of being ahead in the class... i find myself... at the bottom supporting everyone else above me... it sucks...

Volleyball -

volleyball in nus seems recreational for me... tell me to train competitively... i dun think i can do it or want to do it... i just dun have the hunger to train for such a goal... i no long have a direction in volleyball.. i dunno wat i want..

Overall -

i'm now in a state of ZERO motivation for anything and everything.. i have no idea wat i want.. i have no urge to do anything... no drive... no aim... no life... it suxX....

in exactly 2 hrs time.... my last paper for my first term exam will begin... and 2 hrs after that... all will be over... "the rice will be cooked" ; "the chicken will be slaughtered"... muahaha... life will be back to it's sloth-like state... hahahaa... nonono... must not be sloth-like anymore... must change.. make everyday a more meaningful day.... live everyday such that when the day ends, and i look back, i can say i have done something today... yes... that will be it... sleepingis considered something rite?? hahahaaa.....

feel a little better for my statics paper... hahaa.. cos i actually finished the whole paper... yah... it's open book paper... i like open book... hahahaa... cos can finish doing...

so one more paper left.... maths!! only one paper left to do!! yeah...

There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn. Torn.

There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn.

Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

finished my Critical thinking and writing paper liaozZ... now that leaves me with just 2 more paper and my exams will be over... over as in time... as well as over in grades... i foresee myself looking at my first failure in a major exam in my 23 years... i doubt i can imagine how i would be feeling..

spent the weekend rotting... watching movie with dear dear and e rest of it sleeping.. on average i slept 30++ hrs this weekend... whahaa...

harry potter was okay only.. not fantastic... i haven read the book.. but i could tell a lot wasnt in the show.. i guess there's just too much details in the book and the movie seems kindda rush... yah.. that's the feeling it gave me... too many loose ends...

den sunday went to watch sky high... actually tot it would be quite a lame show.. but it turned out fine.. dear thinks its entertaining.. i think it's slightly more entertaining den harry potter.. hahaa.. maybe too much expectations for harry potter...

oh yah.. if u notice the pictures below.. i've got a new phone.. samsung x200... got it at $20 dollars after trade-it.. talk about having hp to the basics... this is it... no camera, no photo ID, no 2nd LCD, no sent items folder... but it's okay... at least it fits my requirement for a phone.. and it looks damn cool... and it's really the lightest phone around now.. whahaaa.... and most impt of all.. CHEAP!!

i got new phone....

Aftermath of 1 paper

whahaa... finished physics liaozZ.... the paper is over.. and 1 down... literally down... fail.. confirm fail... even praying wun help... cos i left too much blank... this is ridiculous... spent the whole week studying it yet this is the result... why?? i'm not dum... but... WHY!!! basically i am gonna fail physics... and all thanks to one word... ENTROPY... people out there who dunno wat that is.. well... people who intend to study physics in UNI... know it.. cause it just made me fail physics for not knowing it... KAOZzZZzz!!! 1 word...

watever it is... it's one paper down... still got 3 more left... disastrous start to uni life... disastrous start to my exams... well.. heck it...

now going out.. gonna go eat.. den watch harry potter with dear dear...

and btw... i dun want and overgrown hermit crab... i prefer them small...

spent the whole day trying to do the stupid statics online tutorial.... just realised that statics shld be the module i'm most afraid off.. why?? cos there's no where for me to practice... even though it's open book, it's unlikely there will be time for me to flip through the pages for a solution... kaozZ.. it sucks... wanted to finish reading up on my physics so that can start on doing past yr paper... but.. haven finish. or rather haven really started lor... duhzZ.... jiayou...

soon.. very soon it will all be over... muahahaa.... i want a pet to play with... my dear dear not fun enough.. hahaa... i want something furry and huggable... non-naggy... can i have garfield?? bboozZ...

finally finished all my maths lectures... task for tml.... start on physics.. my weakest module... and my 1st paper also... hack it DOWN!!! muahahaa...

just came back home after watching movie with dear... watched "a lot like heaven" it's a very nice show... very sweet.. very heartwarming... very nice lar... basically, if u wanna feel good.. go watch the show... although it does have a rather predictable plot... but who could blame them after the rigorous development of the movie industires... writers do run out of ideas.. anyway, this plot does seem like a rip off from a few other classic movies... not that it's bad.. the result was quite pleasant actually... ignoring the fact that it may not be original.. but who cares?? as long as u feel good after the show.. hahaa... so young gals out there, i think this is the show for u now.. hahaa.. well guys.. u know wat to do... bring them to the show lar!! duhzZ..

time to go sleep and tml gotta hit the lectures again...

up! up!! and away!!!

finally i studied... after so many weeks of slacking and rotting.. i am studying finally... still got 5 more hrs of maths lecture to cover... followed by 24 chapters of physics... and 2 books of statics and mechanics... not to forget i have to do sample / pass-yr papers... so much to do... i'm not complaining... i think i might be able to finish with a little luck.. and with more love.. hehee... so yah... thanks dear... hahaa.....

song of my day...

JS - 我比想像中爱你

飞得越远走看不见 你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间那条界线 慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线

你有没有一点想念 我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面 那么地强烈
而这一切好像只是昨天

我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地 我比想像中爱你

浪花掠过沙滩边境(海风就像你的呼吸)
我又看见我们的脚印(那曾是回忆的痕迹)
如果遇见幸福的机率要千万分之一
不顾一切 也要找回你

我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒 还是不可否认地
我比想像中爱你

终于发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒 还是不可否认地
我比想像中爱你

exactly 2 more weeks to my first paper.. whahaaa.... dying dying... i'm so DEAD...

i think i;m gonna waste another week again... 2 hols this week and yet.. it doesnt sound good to me.. cos tues and thurs are my usual self-declared free days... so yah.. like no diff...

it's NOVEMBER!! 16 more days to my first paper... and i still have not started studying.. whahaa... am i god or am i an idiot?? i like this song...


Joan Osbourne - If God was One Of Us

If God had a name, what would it be
And would you call it to his face
If you were faced with him in all his glory
What would you ask if you had just one question

And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home

If God had a face what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like heaven and in jesus and the saints and all the prophets

And yeah yeah god is great yeah yeah god is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
He's trying to make his way home
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if god was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
Just trying to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to heaven all alone
Just trying to make his way home
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

quiz is over and i'm at suntec now.. just now went to eat lunch with dear at shaw towers... at this vegetarian restaurant... the baked rice quite nice... it's all vege... but cant tell one.. haha...

now at suntec mac waiting for dear.. she's gone shopping.. i dun wanna shop... so wait for her here... she say 1 hr will come find me... times up and shes not here yet... women never keep time when they are shopping... sianzZ...

the quiz.. it was not too difficult... i think i knew how to do... although i scribbled alot and cancelled alot too.. so my paper was practically in a mess... luckily they dun mark for tidiness... mine was like shit lar... not too sure if my ans were rite... but i believe wun get zero... not asking for much...

i have a statics and mechanics quiz in 10 hrs time... zZzzZZz.... it has been a relaxing week...

i'm sunburnt again... yesterday play bball and for too long again.. so i'm red again.. and i sprained my ankle... but somehow i play better after getting the sprain.. but now i'm paying the price... cos it hurts now!!! argghh.. cannot go vball training liaozZ...

i feel much better now... mentally... somehow... i've done everything i need to do for today liaozZ.. which is very very rare... it's hasnt happen for yrs.. hahaa... so i'm feeling great.. and dun feel lousy like shit anymore... hahaa... amazing how a change in mindset can happen so spontaneously?? and wat it can do for you?? suddenly tutorials dun look as tough... and brain seem to be working a bit more.. hahaa... just only realised today that this saturday have statics and mechanics quiz.. totally forgot abt it until lecture today... heng i go lecture if not i sure forget.. hahaa...

this section goes out to all the hermit crabbies ard>>
if u dun wanna play with ur crab anymore.. pls give them to me before they die... i wanna have more in my tank... i think my 2 are bored.. hahaa... all they do is climb to the top of a "tree" den fall back down again... hahaa.. so yah.. gimme your crabbies!! hahaa

I've decided, I've choosen my path for the next 6 mths... I choose to stay in sheares for next sem too.. but i have to do the following things which i have not done this sem...

Things to be done...

NEW HAIRCUT, SHORT SHORT HAIR
STUDY!! STUDY ALOT...
PLAY VBALL..
GO JOGGING...
MIX ARD MORE IN HALL...

wish me luck... hehee

it's been sometime since i blog... many a times i wanted to leave something on my blog.. but i've been turning away everytime i come to the new-post webpage... why?? maybe cos i'm feeling guilty that i shld be studying instead of blogging.. dunno leh... whenever i think of that everything which was initially suppose to go onto my blog just disappeared... sianzZ...

life has been boring lately... not the type of lifestyle i want... but.... guess u know wat i wanna say... too lazy... uuurrggghhh...

biggest question in my head now...

SHLD I STAY IN SHEARES FOR ANOTHER SEM OR NOT???

no :
save money
waste money on the meal plans which i seldom eat
dun really interact
not involved in hall activities

yes :
nearer to school
got bed to sleep
got supper
wanna try to make frens

hiyoh... how leh?? stay or dun stay??? gotta make up my mind before 28th oct... aarrgghhh... how?? exams coming soon... duhzZ.....

had my first supper at sheares tonite... the chicken naan is really nice... not exagerating... it's really nice.. i bought 2 chicken naan and 1 cheese fries.. $5++ not too ex lar.. since can really fill my stomach.. hehee... din eat dinner... and vball training only ended almost 11pm... yah... lucky got supper.. hehe..

nothing will be said about school work... cos... it's boring and unentertaining.. and i've not been doing much hw... tml gotta do physics tut... haven done.... hmmm... later going home... to watch tv awhile den come back schoool... hohoohooo...

a weekend has passed... i'm glad to say at least some work had been done.. although not substantial but at least some... i'm back in my room... no more lessons for the rest of the day... only left with IVP training in the evening... now... i have 2 things to do...

1. do my physics online tut
2. sleep

i guess i'll sleep first... i'm tired.... zZzZZzzz...

one of my Hermit Crab just shed it's shell...

i tot it died... but i saw something in the shell...

it's still alive... but i tot it's supposed to grow bigger after shedding the shell.. but it looks smaller den original now... hehee... anyway... my crabs are still alive...

finally completed my part for CTW, but i'm still up providing watever i could offer to my grpmate... yah... cos i kindda guilty for not writing much for my part... haha.. i really din know wat to write... my mind just din churn up any ideas for me.. so too bad... i could only give him my 5cents worth... and some scattered pts here and there.. and let him do the patching up and beautification.. haha..

today's kunqi's bday.. one of my old old fren... used to take to her on the phone long long ago.. i think it was back in my secondary school days... she's a fellow hainanese with the same surname.. she li kunqi & i'm li kelun... so yah.. felt extra qin qie.. haha.. used to speak to her in hainanese... come to think of it... think she one of the last person whom i had spent hrs talking on the phone with... yah.. happy memories...

back home again... i'm really wasting money with the hall's catering.. 2 meals a day... 12 meals a week... and i'm missing like all of them.. haha... either never eat or eating outside... super waste money...

just came back from vball training... super tiring... feel very weak... feel heavy and slow... quite sucky... dun think i'm progressing much... like stagnate for so many years liaozZ...

if people ask me wat i wanted to do with my life, a few years back i would say i dunno.. now... i still dunno... but the difference is that now, i'm afraid... i'm afraid for not knowing wat i wanna do in the future... but i'm even more afraid that i may never know wat i wanna do... some time back, i tot that i'll belong to the airforce... but no.. i tried the possibility of becoming a teacher... but it din work out either... now i'm in NUS studying engineering, is this wat i wanna do?? i dunno... i have a partial volleyball coaching cert... will i go into coaching in the future?? i dun have the answer to that too...

when?? when will i find the answer to my question??

---= ThE gReAtEsT PuRpOsE oF LiFe Is To FiNd ThE PuRPoSe Of OuR LiFe=---

5 days since my last entry... although work doen has not been substantial.. but i'm glad to say work is in progress... yanli accompanied me as i studied yesterday... it just feel so much better to be studying with her by my side... although she could help in my studying, but her presense just made it so much easier to study... yah... thank you dear...

many days since i blog.. dun feel like accounting for the days that i missed blogging... but it's quite simple... eat sleep play game... never study... die die die... the prefect brew for downfall in UNI... aarrgghhh... in just 5 weeks time... i'll be facing my 1st exam in NUS... and now... i'm still lost in the lectures... lost in the tutorials... wat the hell?? and the only thing which i think i'm doing okay is CTW... which is like ridiculous... maybe cos there's no mid-term test for CTW.. so i still have screw it up... hahaa... like is a joke... life is a chore... i think i suit better living in the woods.... sleep whole day... hungry den go hunt for food... hahaa.... aaaarrrggghhh....

my right shoulder is painful again... after so many yrs... it's back again... aarrgghhh pain pain pain... fat fat fat... dum dum dum... stupid stupid stupid... lazy lazy lazy... eat eat eat... sleep sleep sleep... aarrgghhh..

bad bad news for my physics paper... i only got 4 out of 15 for physics... kaozZ.. that's like the lowest i ever got for any mcq... i think i really getting dumber and dumber... dun even know why i got those ans wrong...

den today got for statics tutorial... i totally cannot understand the solutions which were given by the tutor... a lot of ppl were asking questions... i dun think i'm alone.. but i really dunno anyone in that class to ask... super sianzZ now...

later no vball training.. but i dunno if i shld be going home... got alot of maths and physics lectures to catch up with.. sianzZ sianzZ sianzZ.........

shld not have stayed in singapore to study... shld have gone elsewhere where ppl are dumber.. and the pace is slower... aaarrrgghhh.... now... i'm so slow... so behind.. so stupid.... aarrrggghhhh.......

just came back from IVP training... very tired... first official formal training... micheal ong came down today... the supposed coach din come today... so micheal come and stand in for him... very tired... very long never had formal training... struggle to keep pace... but i survived!!

mid-term is officially over since monday... seems like i had quite a bit of good luck for my maths... the questions which i tikam-ed, i put Bs.. den 4 out of 5 ARE Bs.. hehee!!! so heng right... but!! the 7 qns which i did myself and tot was right... only 3 correct... so back to square one... 7 out of 12.. haha.. at least pass.. dunno about the other 2 paper how... hoping to pass well... pass well... not just pass... this sem i only have 4 modules... so i'm suppose to do well... if not next time how to coped??

tml no lessons again... seriously dun feel like engine student.. haha... YEAH!!! stay in hostel and watch webcast...

just realised i din do as well as i tot for my statics... by that, i meant i totally messed up the paper... die liaozZ... just now the lecturer went over the answers... den realised i did things SO wrongly... super demoralised.... not a good feeling to have.. esp when later still got 1 more last paper...

now me eating lunch... la bai cai mian... haha.. and i bought this sichuan pepper pickles from forum there... and added into the noodles... and wat do i get?? ma la huo guo... hot hot hot!!!!

spent the whole sunday in hall... first sunday in hall... call it a rest day.. hehe.. it was suppose to be a study day... but i was just too burnt to move around and get into studying... haha.. k.. if u know me well enough.. i'm just lazy... haha..

yanli came to pei me today... so nice of her... she brought aloe vera gel to sooth my burns... and yoko yoko & deep heat for my aching fats(dun wanna say muscles, say liao i feel paiseh... :P)haha... 1 new thing learnt today... there's tv for me to watch online.. NUS has TV-webcast!!! hehee... there goes my studying.. haha.. just now we watched The Apprentice on my laptop... so exciting.. haha...

tml.. 1 last paper... MA1505.. that's maths... i'm praying to god knows who for acceptable grades!! hehe... hmmm... actually that doesnt sound very safe.. wat if mr d*v*l answers my prayer... hmmm... there goes my soul... diaozZ... watever lar.. gdluck to myself... hahaha...

i think today's the best day for the past week... yah... most non-depressing... i had a great series of vball games in my inter-faculty games... we came in 2nd too... tough fight... great game... no regrets i guess... yah...

had statics paper today also... not as dead as yesterday's physics.. so i'm not that sad... although i still dun think i'll score well... but still feel better den yesterday....

one more paper on monday... and now i'm in hall.. suppose to be studying for it... but i'm gonna rest first... cos.. i'm CAO DA!! burnt again... played outdoor vball since morning to 5pm... kaozZ... red red red!!!

1 paper down... 1 paper dead... no good news... all news is bad news for now... no good mood.... all mood is bad mood... super sianzZ... feeling super stupid... stupid china ppl... can say the paper so easy... kaozZ.... think they are e only ones who are happy to talk abt their papers... e rest... like me.. all came out of the hall with heads hanging down... 15 mcq... 1 hr... i did only 8... e rest... anyhow shade... hoping luck is still with me.. haizZ.... this is bad... last time.. i will finish everything... check a few times... den just hope luck will have me not miss out anything... now... luck plays a much bigger part... not good.. not good at all... why is studying so torturous?? because i dun have anyone to share the pain with me... unlike back in JC days... i have my class to share... now... ppl i know dun study wat i study... so i cant relate... ppl in my class cant relate to me... studying becomes lonely... becomes a chore... becomes torturous... esp when u cant understand.... life is bad now... studying is bad now... engine is bad now... change?? archi?? art?? NTU ??

it's times like this that i really need someone by my side... but that someone may not be by my side now...

2 more days left any school starts again.. and with that - my mid-term test... i'm suppose to be studying for it now... and for the past few days... i just cant seem to get myself settled to study... haven cover anything for the past fews days... days wasted... nites wasted... time wasted... morale wasted...

wat the hell?? i'm still wasting my time here...

i've a couch potato.. staying at home and abandon my B412 since tuesday... wednesday went for 1 lesson and came home liaozZ.. yah.. den today went ktv with esther & jass.. sang from 2plus to 7pm.. felt quite fast really.. think cos we were enjoying it.. haha.. it's been a long time since we went ktv.. so yah lar.. quite like it lor... left them to meet yanli for dinner..

had dinner with yanli at the glutton square.. if u are wondering where it is... well just beside esplanade... had prawn mee and ckar kway tiao... haha... quite nice.. quite ex too.. but i'm willing to pay for that standard.. hehe.. yumzZ.. went to watch the longest yard after dinner.... very funny... although quite disappointing we dun get to see wat happens after the football match... well.. i guess life goes on...

oh yah.. a lot of ppl is saying yanli looks very nice in the dress she wore to the solemnization ceremony.. that's nice.. hehe.. maybe i'll change the pic up there.. haha...

i'm back home today... no classes today... why?? cos tutorials occur on odd weeks and no lab for this week.. so NO lesson!! hehe... yah... but doesnt seem to be a very good thing to stay home.. cos production rate = zero... yesterday nite suppose to do my physics assignment so that today can do my critique.. but guess wat.. i have started on neither yet.. and the dateline for both is tml.. aarrgghhh...

yah... yesterday had lessons in school... before going off for mummy's solemnization... well.. she's now officially re-married... but no.. i do not have another father... guess me and my sis have agreed on that... yah... the event was held at meritus mandarin.. a few formalities like signing of wedding cert... den took photos and a rather pointless wine pouring session.. haha.. but all in all.. it was quite okay lar.. it was only suppose to be a simple matter.. nothing too elaborate... those interested to see the photos... can follow the link on the left column... hehe..

it's sunday nite and i'm back in SHEARES hall.. it's buaya week... and the corridors are filled will lots of funny stuff.. haha... quite interesting... none for me... den ruoling said mine gotta wait.. so got ppl suppose to buaya me lar... hmmm... i wonder.. haha.. well...

"dear dear, dun worry... it's all just fun laughter peace and joy... "

just now follow terrence one of my level-mates to send present to his buaya... it's a candle that shows a msg after it's burnt... interesting.. but i din get to see the result.. we had to hide.. haha... yah.. quite exciting... everyone's asking me to take part... but well... abit late rite?? hehee...

tml's my mummy's solemnization ( celebration of marriage.. courtesy of dictionary.com)yah... i see it as a formality.. for those who are somehow in tune with stuff happening in my family shld understand wat i meant.. hehe..

and now.. it's time to go do tutorials loh... no need sleep again... zZzZZzzzzz....

back home... somehow feel very "nua" everytime i'm home... cant seem to do any work... maybe i shld have stayed in hall instead... maybe can do more work.. yah.. dunno lar... tired...

this morning went to bukit panjang to play IBG bowling.. i bowling quite poorly... but somehow still got overall 5th place.. but all thanks to my partner.. he was playing well for 1st 2 games but last game quite sucky... my 2 game was the worst.. only 92... almost every frame only hit 9 pins.. kaozZ!! yah.. anyway.. our block din manage to retain the title.. maybe it's partly my fault?? but den.. i'm not that influential.... yah... i WANT to go bowling more often... i want my own bowling equipment... i want to improve... i want to be a 200++ averager.. not 100.. aarrgghhh...

super tired after bowling.. drag myself home on the mrt.. took the LRT from bukit panjang to CCK... i realised that the windows of the LRT are special... when they pass by routes where they are very near the HDB flats.. the windows turn white.. opague white in an instant... den once it's passed the region.. it turns tranparent again.. i was pretty amazed by that.. really din know abt it at all.. yah... but i was still very tired... took me almost 1.5hr to get home...

once i reach home i changed and went out again... cos me meeting yanli at paya lebar mrt to go airport for lunch... we very long never eat the cai fan at airport liaozZ.. not bad lor... after so many yrs.. the standard still quite good.. but got drop a little lar.. yah.. initial plan was actually to do some studying there one.. but i was simply too tired... could only drag myself home to sleep... zZzZZ...

going off to sleep again...

today... is suppose to be a long day... but i decided to make it short... so i skipped all my lectures... only went for my tutorial... MUAHahaAHAa... yah... cos i dun think i'll benefit much from the lecture also... yah.. that;s for physics lar... maths i can go watch webcast.. so stil ok... hehe... yah... went for tutorial.. which is the painstakingly completed assignment which i did last nite... yah... din really got the answer rite... but my basic idea is there... hehe.. feeling better about it liaozZ... BUT... today i realise i was in the wrong classroom all the while... yah... i was suppose to be in grp A11 at classroom E4-4-3 den i was in E4-4-6 for the past 2 weeks and i din realise... KAOzZ!! so dum rite.. but nvm.. this tutor is nice... so he told me he will add my name into his group.. den i just inform the prof can liaozZ... goodie good...

yah.. since i skipped lectures.. i've been sleep since lunchtime.. hehe.. later got IFG vball trials at 6pm... yah.. den tml got bowling... hope i still have time to do my critique... :)

oh yah... dear.. me no buaya... me just kpo kpo.. hehe..

MUWHAHAA!!! i only just finished my statics assignment.. and how tedious it was?? it's only 1 qn... and i took hrs just to do that 1 qn.. super super super tedious... and still dun think my ans is correct... everytime i redo i can get different ans... minght be something wrong somewhere... well.. heck lar.. tml go class den say... now too shagged to think...

today marks the start of buaya week... i din take part... not interested... dunno why not interested also... it's like a joke lar... basically everyone will somehow get assign to someone and u are suppose to buaya that person with ur actions... like secret flowers and gifts and stuff liddat.. haha.. i say it's a scam invented by someone who just didnt dare to declare his love... so he made the whole world to the same thing so he can smuggle his feelings to her... hahaa... or maybe it's just me and sour grapes... duhzZ... yah... although i not taking part... but bystander also not bad... almost everytime i open my door i see something new in the corridor for someone.. with ultra mushy paragraphs... uurrgghhh... hair stand... haha...

just now went to a new balance warehouse sale with yanli..she bought 2 pairs of shoes while i bought 2 pairs of running shorts... seldom find any that could fit as well as those i bought.. so i'm happy.. haha...

we went IKEA to eat dinner... meatballs.... really missed the meatballs... haha... gotta psycho mummy to buy.. den i can cook for myself at home.. haha.. yah... it's 4 plus am.. and i'm not sleeping liaozZ... wat for?? later got lesson at 8am... now sleep later sure cannot wake up one.. den evening still got IFG vball trials... tired.... worst of all.. gotta to the dumb dumb critique... assignment by next week...

wednesdays and fridays are the busiest days for me... most number of lessons... just came back from volleyball.. i think training will start to intensify... not really good news for me i guess... i wish to slack... did about 50 push-ups just now... super tired.. haha... haven done push-ups in months... back aching now... aarrgghh...

just sent my clothes to wash... den after that gotta send to dryer... full 3hrs... no need sleep loh.... haha... yah.. den the cashcard reader for my block spoil again... so i went to block A again... haha..

today i had my dreaded CTW lesson again... the tutor is still as lost... and disorganised.. with such disorganised thinking.. i wonder how can she teach critical thinking effectively... sianzZ... i know!! she can only concentrate on written words... once u talk to her... she gets lost... kaozZ!! yah.... assignment 2 will be due next week... die!! haven start... suppose to start last week...

today's a slack day... done some tutorial yesterday... so today got to class partially prepared... but for the half which i din do... i'm still lost now even after discussion of answers in class.. why is my understanding so poor?? and why is physics so complicated at UNI level??

with all my frustrations.. i decided to go watch movie with yanli... i went to cineleisure to get tickets first... she came around 7.. so we went to eat to the food court... i ate korean bbq... disappointingly little.. but i still ate 2 bowls of rice... my fav korean food is still at millenia walk foodcourt... hehe... best... den we got this weird blended drink... it has banana, honey and milk and some jelly bits... very very sweet.. i think honey and banana goes well... but they overdid it... yah.. that's dinner...

initially i got 2 tickets for the 7.40 show.. but just as we were going into the cinema den we realised it's the wrong tickets... they gave me tickets for Perfect Catch.. when i asked for March of the penguins... den i din check also.. stupid me... so we went to the counter to change our tics... but the 7.40 show was full, we took the 9.20 one instead... so wat do we do in between?? shop lor... walked around cineleisure.. den heerens... den taka... my feets are so sore now... must be the brooks shoes... always make my legs sore.. haha..

so now the movie... finally!! it's the story of the King Penguins... about the journies they make to bear their eggs.. the dangers they face... and the fight to survive... nice touching and sometimes sad story... although in french... the penguin's cuteness is more den enough to keep u cheerful thru-out the show...

so yah... go watch go watch...

tml got stupid CTW again... and guess wat.. i haven done any work for it.. and next week got another assignment due.. so sianzZ... so fast....

i'm dwelling in my room trying to do my tutorials.. done quite a bit... but at an alarmingly slow rate... with plenty of errors... i'm not afraid of making mistakes... but i'm so pissed that i dunno where i'm going wrong... so pek chek... duno what's wrong with my thinking leh... yet i really dunno who i can turn to for now... lost....

remember the feeling of being alone?? yah it's creeping back to me again... but i dun blame anyone except myself... i simply din want to mingle around and mix around... i tot i had to do more work... study more... read more... understand more... cos that's my main purpose coming to UNI... but... i dun seem to be able to understand much... not much progress in my assignments either...

to make things worst... even though i stayed in hall... i think i just made myself the most anti-social person around... super "guai lan"... din get involve in much hall activities... den also dun really know anyone in my course of study... haizZ...

just now went for dinner... see all the other vball ppl eating together... i really wanted to join them... but they all from same block... den me like so extra... den like no one ask me to eat togehter... den forget it lar... ta pao back to room and eat lor... just tell me myself say wanna do work...

i tot i'll be able to catch up in my studies... i'll be able to make frens... but it seems like being 2 yrs behind is really alot... and a cold start to UNI life din help at all... i'm way behind in my knowledge... it seems like all the hardwork i put in during my 3 yrs in TJ... remained in TJ... as for frens... i really dunno who to turn to... or how i shld approach ppl... things no longer work the way they used to be.... i'm an alien in a human world... my brain is not working... i cant seem to think logically.. my directions are too narrow...

i'm living in self denial... wallow in self-pity... tell me wat i shld do... how i shld do... i dun wanna think... i cant think... brain is dead.... i really feel like going home... to hide away from school... stay at home for good... and hope things stay the way it is for the rest of my life... i'm making myself feel so hopeless... talk about self-inducing uselessness... wat the hell am i doing with my life??

yesterday evening went to suntec & marina with yanli & my family... ate at swensen's... ate alot.. hehe... think i getting hooled on baked rice.. haha.. but that's not the main highlight... we went to comex 05 before dinner... and spend a very long time there.. esp at the apple corner... mummy bought powerbook G4... $4000+++ kaozZ... keep saying she no money... yet she wanna pay 1 whole dun want pay installments... kaozZ... she also bought 2 mini 80Gb HDD at $175 each... i think that's a super good buy lar... damn cheap lor... when i bought my HDD 2 yrs back... comething liddat will cost $300 plus...

today we went to suntec again... went to visit the food fare... met quite a few familiar faces... the food so so only lar... the whole place quite oily and sticky... stay too long very "gao wei"... yah lor...

still have do my hw... think later go back hostel den do... zZzzzZZzzz....

have been home since thursday... din go back to school on friday... only 2 lectures.. dun feel like going back for them... so boring... din do much at home either... do homwwork loh... zZZzZZZ

after 2 lectures and i'm back in my room... went to use the washing machine in blk A.. and quite paiseh to say the washing machine cheated me of $1.60... haha... cos the i din know how to use the first one... den change to another one.. thinking the first one was spoilt... den after paying for the 2nd one.. realised the 2nd one was really spoilt... den tried the 1st one again... and it was working... there goes $1.60.. hahaa...

yah also because of the stupis washing machine.. i could go find yanli for lunch... i bought brownies and apple pie form biz canteen for her one... but in e end she came to NUS to find me... so nice of her rite?? hehee... yah... she came down all the way to fine me for lunch.. cos anyway she goin biopolis later on... yah... so she got to eat the stuff i got for her and also a taste of NUS's canteen food.. we went arts canteen for lunch... but i think she rushing for time... no time to enjoy... well.. there's always another time...

now i'm still in my room... but i;m going out soon... going to parkway to send my laptop to sony gallery... see if they can do anything about the webcam... yah.. den go home for awhile... den going to a wake.. a fren's mum passed away... yah...

just came back from IVP vball... super tired... shagged.... zZZzZZ.. lessons start at 8am tml!!!

wanted to go wash clothes but the stupid card reader spoilt... seems like someone spoilt it just before me... kaozZ...

it's been afew days since i blogged... really have been killing myself with my tutorials and assignments the past few days... but the good thing is... it's all done for now!! yeah!! now... time to start on next week's stuff... so i wun be like sunday nite den stress again..

finally handed in my critical thinking assignment... kaozZ... it's really hard to understand how to do it lor... and my english now is like shit!! really jialat... lucky got yanli to help me abit.. hehe...

yesterday had physics lab.. very long never stap into a lab liaozZ.. quite fun... my lab partner also quite funny... yah... not bad lar... starting know noe more ppl... life is starting to look less bleak... haha...

for now.. it's time to go play vball at SRC loh!!!

my weekend is over...

total food taken in = plenty
=>> potential energy = 100

total exercise/sports done = nil
=>> kinetic energy = 0

total assignments left to do = plenty..
=>> workdone = 0

morale level = low and dropping lower...

my 3rd week in nus is over in a flash... lectures and tutorials alike, over in a flash.. till now i'm slightly behind my schedule but i hope i will be able to gain some lost ground over the weekend... managed to know a few more pple this week... i'm quite happy with that.... yah...

i think this will not be too hectic a semester for me.... cos i'll be taking only 4 modules... my appeal failed to get me my elective.. so yah... ultra empty timetable for sem 1... hope this gets me into the tempo of uni studying...

today's a good day... had breakfast with yanli before coming to school.. took bus to harbourfront there to change bus to school.. quite fast considering it's peak hrs... at least it's under 1 hr to reach sheares... no bad lar... better than squeezing the dum mrt and 96...

attended my first physics lecture since the beginning of school... yeahs!! but the problems is... in 3 weeks the lecturer already reach lecture 7 liaozZ.. kaozZ!! u mean i missed so much?? die lohzZ.... suddenly like go so much work piling up...

got physics tut & online tut, maths tut, mechanics web & ib tuts, critical thinking homework and assignment... kaozZ... mountains are made of mole hills.. and it was a mole hill just yesterday... must clear the molehill!!

oh yah... since i said today's not a bad day... this is the main reason why... i got to know much more pple today... quite a few in my Critical thinking class... and i think most of us are bemused by the tutor... she's like in a world of her own... her type of reasoning just doesnt make sense... so yah.. common ground among the class...

went for IVP vball training... mostly yr 1s... only a few seniors came down... apparently there's still no coach... yah... gotta know quite a feww ppl there too.. and there was this swedish guy... real tall... and very skilful.. his name quite hard to pronounce though... it sounded something like "orp kern" yah.. but he is good...

1st day of my 3rd week in NUS... tutorials start loh... stayed up last nite to finish my maths tutorials... i'm not too out of touch lar.. still can do.. but quite slowly i guess... at least can finish lar... 2 lessons in school today only... maths tut... den mechanics lecture... my maths tutor is a china-man... cant stand him... if my class no non-chinese, i really wished he spoke in chinese instead... forgot to bring my notes for my mechanics lecture.. so i had to listen and remember everything... practically cramming and cramming info into my head.. den after lecture rush back to my room to translate everything into my notes... filling in the blanks... din really manage to remember much... i get the basic concept.. but dun really know how to go about doing it... die!! mechanics used to be only 2D in jc... now.. it's 3D and things just got SO much more complicated!! kaozZ!!

just imagine this... 2 forces act on the x & y plane respectively.. den how to find resultant moment by the 2 forces abt that point??

ans: the resultant moment is in the direction of the z-plane and the magnitude of it is the vector product of the 2 forced.. kaoZZ!! u understand?? i dun even know wat i'm talking abt....

quite an eventful day today... went to school for IBG vball... we din get into the finals... why?? cos we met block E in the group stage... and there was no semi finals... straight to finals... such a dum way to play the game... sianzZ... rained halfway thru the games... but it stopped after a while.. den we carried on... well.. we din get into finals lar... that's final... not a bad start for my first involvement in hall activity... well that may be the last too.. haha... i'm so SO so anti-social...

went bowling after vball with my airforce pple... not bad... played 4 games... even manage a high score of 160 on my last game... yah.. not bad lar... just that not many ppl went... only a few of us... but i still had fun... cos havent bowled for a long long time... really makes me wanna get my own bowling ball... now... save $$...

well.. i'm finally back in my hall... check out quite a bit of my stuff.... sort out my future lesson plan... and send in an appeal for my 5th module.. wonder if my england can make it or not.. haizZ.. seriously not confident... ahaha..

today marks the end of TJC Almuni's Open Cup Campaign in 2005... well.. it's a first attempt and i say it's a good one... we are newbies to the open game... and we have concluded there will be many more attempts in the future... best thing is not winning.. losing's not the worst either... there's only one thing that i'm interested in... that's to have a team... a team that plays together... a team comprises of a lot... and i have to say.. we still have leagues to go before really becoming a team...

just got back home from supper... went simpang bedok for supper with yanli... ate nasi goreng... nice nice.. maybe cos i was hungry.. we went to 7-11 to buy drinks.. den we had an encounter with the OTHER SIDE... as i was taking the drinks from the cooler... i felt a presense... i looked down the shelf... and saw a black hand... tapping it's fingers on the cans just below my hand... i stared at them for awhile and nudged yanli to see.. she jumped.. and we slammed the door in... while we burst out in laughter... hahaa... after a while the indian shop assistant came out and said," u 2 not bad ar.. not scared.. i scared 3 customers until they scream already" wah kaozZ.. that was like super irritating lar... next time we see anything liddat again... we will just take the cans and smash the hands!! we dun like black hands.. haha...

oh yah.. i'm home again... Y?? cos tml no classes!!! yeah.. tutorial and lab haven start... so tml free!!!!

not a bad day in school today... got to know 2 new people... just got names that's all... haha.. and i dun really remember them now.. jialat... realised that i dun only know my vice-block head... i know the block head too... k.. let me go down the list... my block head is junming's roommate in AFS.. so i know him... den vice block head is my OGA in tj... so i know him... my level head is my 12/00 classmate.. haha... small small world...

bought my textbook for physics... most expensive and thickest book i ever bought... looks just like a telephone book just that it has hard cover... it cost me $45 for that.. den bought another workbook... $15.. kaozZ... $60 gone liddat... went for Critical Thinking tutorial.. i find the tutor boring.. and seriously uninteresting... sianzZ... 2 hr tut... really wanna sleep... give so much homework somemore.. kaozZ!!

later going to play badminton at tampines... sport hall... hehee.. some competition among auditing firms... james say not enough ppl so ask me to play... for fun only lar.. haha..

lost the last vball match again... lost to singapore schools... i still think we din play well...we won the first set.. lost the next 3.. replica of the match against SHS.. in fact... singapore schools were mainly SHS.. sianzZ... i got to play for some of it as usual... yanli asked me something.. she asked why fung always puts me in at the final few points of every set.. i told her... well i was suppose to be the match saver... but it's always by the time i go it.. i dont even get to touch the ball and the set is over.. duhzZ.. my leg was feeling alrite for the game.. until i dived and landed in the wrong position again... jialat... think gotta brush up my diving technique... wrong landing... hahaa...

i'm now slacking on my bed in hostel... everything seems fine for now... coms working.. i got my laser jet in... roughly know wat lessons i'll be having today... have tml all planned out... yah.. feeling ok.. need some sleep den off i go...

my back to my desktop again... my laptop has given up on me again.. and i just gave up on it.. it's now being reformated... i hope everything will be fine after that.. that's so so so frustrating... yah... den my desktop is like so saturate with programs it's running so slowly.. but somehow it's still able to surf... haizZ... so unfair...

din go school today again... i hope i'll be able to find some webcast lectures for those that i missed.. yah... this marks the end of my first week in school...

no. of lectures attended - 3 of 7
no. of new frens - ZERO
no. of old frens met - a few
enthusaism rate - low
morale level - low
confidence level - low
amount of $$ wasted on cab - abt $100

this have been a very low period for me.. i somehow cannot get myself enthu in anything except vball.. but the injury on my leg made me have reserves when i'm the court.. i couldnt carry out wat i wanna do with any effect... well.. i dunno...

reflections... i chose to repeat my 2nd yr in tj.. till now i still think i made a wise decision, my grades made great improvement.. spend extra time in NS hoping i'll get the contract... that is the biggest defeat for me til now... lost a lot time.. confidence... i took a year off my enrolment into UNI... i think that was a bad decision too... now... where am i? i'm now at a point where i know almost no one in my cohort... my age pple are in 3 rd yr... my jc batach are in 2nd y... while i just entered... dunno who to turn to when i have queries... i despise myself....

feeling low low low low low low low.......

finally my com seems to be working again... yesterday it was again dead... had the same problem for very long... i'm just happy it's working now... dunno when it will be down again... aarrgghhh.. hope not..

2 hrs lecture in the morning yesterday.. den i bought my laser printer... very fast.. very shuang... yah.. gonna bring it into hall lar... seems like no one appreciating it at home...

played against volleysport today... they are good... while we suck... i duno lar.. with junlong and robin in the team... we still dun seem good at all... i was on the bench for most of the game... i was just shaking my head... shaking my head... cant understand how we could play so poorly... with this lost.. we are confirmed out of the competition liaozZ... just hope they will play better in our remaining matches...

i'm home again... and my laptop is working!! cheers!! got alot of anti-virus/spyware/worm devices on standby liaozZ... hahaa... conclusion... the culprit is a virus call trojan.lowzone... ppl.. beware... windows service pack 2 and a firewall is all u need to stop it from causing trouble... well.. alls well now...

went for vball training just now.. my leg still pain... put a lot of yoko yok... den went to spike... very xin ku... yah.. tml still got match... how?? robin and junlong's back for tml's match... tml vs a strong opponent.. i wonder... dun think i'll be playing tml... my leg really still pain... cannot exert force... sianzZ...

tml lessons at 8am in the morning!! wah kaozZ!! i still din get wat i wanted in my bidding... at this stage too competitive.. very hard to get... double sianzZ

guess where i am again.. i'm back in hall... i din attend lecture this morning... why cos i was sleeping.. too tired... i just came into hall not long ago.. just bid for my gem only... i seriously perk chek with my com now... apparently i din successfully install windows service pack 2 yesterday... den i spent the whole nite last nite talking to my new fren.. the pacnet tech guy... kaozZ... in the end... i just gave him a new problem that he has totally no way to solve... tried all the diagnostics methods to no avail... this is so pathetic.. so i'm here... d/ing service pack 2...hoping it will save my laptop from a 2nd format... aarrgghhh... this is so so frustrating....

i'm back in hall for a while... going home later.. cos my lessons start in the afternoon... so come back take some things and put some things... and check whether my laptop can work here... so nw u know.. it works here... but doesnt work at home... this is crap... and my PC and home can work.. this is crap... but at least it's working here.. i'm glad liaozZ... cos tml i must bid for my modules... and it must WORK!!!

oohh yah.. i'm here with yanli... den just now we went to carrefour... den got stuck on ECP... Benjamin Shears Bridge there... cos everyone stop on the expressway to see fireworks... so we see also lor.. hahaa...i haven been to a national day parade in YEARS!!! the last time like 3 or 4 years old lor... kaozZ... next yr go see with yanli.. haha...

sucky evening to a not so bad day... lost our match against SHS.. yah lost to the small kids of St Hilda's.. somehow we really played like shit today... lousy first ball... lousy setting.. lousy spiking... seriously KNS... desreved to lose... but gotta give SHS credit also... their defense really very fast.. yah.. lost but we live to fight another day... i got to play quite a bit today.. but sad to say.. i wasnt playing very well either... some more my leg hurts again... aarrgghhh... OUCH!!!!

i'm now typing this entry on my PC at home.. somehow my internet connection at home very weird.. my laptop like gone crazy.. cannot connect... super pek chek... dunno wat's wrong...

first day of lessons is over... PHewww.. lucky the lecture is a total JOKE... so manage to stay awake for the whole 2 hrs... still got some stuff haven buy... wednesday come back den buy... tml's national day liaozZ... so fast... seems as if i just ORD not long ago.. haha... i din manage to bid for anything today... i missed the bidding timing... so yah... wednesday again.. a lot of things left for wednesday... hahaa... but at least i found the modules to take liaozZ... is there is still available slots for me that is... very scared no more slots left... haizZ... so dum this bidding thing... aarrgghhh...

now... waiting for the rest of the sheares vball ppl to eat... eat liaozZ go hougang... today is match day 2 for us... shld be able to win... see how...

guess where i am?? i'm in NUS.. Sheares Hall.. Rm B412... whahaa.. this will be my first nite in hall.. tml only got 1 lesson!! OMG.. 1 pathetic lesson... well.. i'm not prepared for multiple lessons anyway... yah... the module i bidded for last week had been dropped by the system.. why?? cause the contents clash with a core module i'm taking next sem... haizZ.. never see properly...

think my room quite cosy... wonder if i'll wake up tml... hahaa... better do.. hahaa... dun wanna miss my frist day of lesson.. somemore one and only lesson...
tml vs SHS... 8 pm... sources have told us that they aint strong at all... so yah... hope to win them too...

went back to tj for training... wanted to go early for gals training.. but slept... until esther asked me to bring socks for her... den i went to school... at first i tot she never bring socks very blur.. i just realised the shoes she was wearing wasnt hers too.. duhzz... mei.. dun so blur okie...

alumni training was just sad case lar... all the sheares gang never come... which includes rubin, zai, junlong & weijie... reason? rag day.. kaozZ... next match is on monday lor.. dun wanna come training.. i really have the urge to put them on the bench on monday... that robin still missing.. dunno where he is... sianzZ.... worst still i injured my leg... not strain.. just pure impact... ouch!!! better get well before monday...

today... wat did i do today... went back to base to settle my deferment thingy.. so yah.. no more reservist for the next few yrs.. hahaa... but still gotta go for ippt.. sianzZ.. still got 1 more year... nvm.. hahaa..

this is the last friday for me to slack.. sunday nite i'll be going to sheares and spend my first nite in sheares and have breakfast there... and GO TO CLASS loh!!!!! yah.. school's finally starting... so scary... hahaa.. haven revise my maths... haven print notes... whahaa... tml den say... hahaa...

went back to school to get my student status letter and get my student card encoded for my room... yah... go all the way back to school to do these bo liaozZ stuff... hahaa... so waste time... went shopping around for some little stuff to put in my room... cos i realise my room is starting to stink.. haha... even whem i haven even spent a single nite there... imagine when i stay there how.. hahaa...

yup.. had a good sleep at home today... din go sell falg.. let me say it again... start at 4am??!! CRAZY!! hahaa.. so i slept at home in my nice nice bed till afternoon...

suppose to go back school to collect some stuff.. but i was SO lazy i was only in school around 5pm.. which means all the office close liaozZ... but actually not totally my fault... i took 51 from my house to NUS... wah kaozZ.. go hre go there... took almost 1.5h to reach lor... wanna vomit... haha.. so just went back to get my bag... den took cab home...

went home to get my vball stuff before going to hougang stadium for vball open... stupid traffic jam... bus so slow.. got pek chek.. so took cab again.. this few days spend a lot of money on cab liaozZ... heart pain... anyway.. i wasnt the latest to reach lor... played against Advancement Consulting Grp... some uncle team lar.. we won them... even without robin playing cos he still in indonesia... haha.. anyway we won... man of the match shld be qingwen, junlong is the strongest attacker, jincai looks a bit shack... zai looks damn shagged... guosheng really a lot to say, see wat NIE have done to him... nelson still blur blur... markus shld be given more time in the game... guoping played libero in no.5 position which meant he is new in that area... looked blur also... i played for awhile.. but to me.. quite pointless... the rest of the fixtures for the first round is below.. wanna go support us???

DATE Time TEAMS Venue
8 Aug Mon 8.00 pm SHS vs TJCA Hougang Sports Hall
11 Aug Thur 6.45 pm TJCA vs VS Hougang Sports Hall
14 Aug Sun 8.30 am SS vs TJCA Hougang Sports Hall
17 Aug Wed 6.45 pm TJCA vs VA Hougang Sports Hall

finally dragged myself to hall today... but... i'm back home again... wanted to go back... but for wat?? to wake up at 3 plus and go for a flag day from 4am to 7pm?? i dun think so.. crazy lar!! i'm too lazy for that..

walked around the blocks in NUS.. it's a maze there... walked through a few faculties and to my hostel... took quite a while... my laptop can connect thru the schools lan-points liaozZ.. but my com seemed to have some problem.. cant pin-point wats the problem too... but it's working fine now... maybe it's the place... duhzZ...

saw my TJ senior who put me into block B... he's now in NIE becoming a chinese teacher... went to meet yanli for dinner at harbour front... when i was leaving i took the lift down... but the lift was going up.. den there was someone else with me in the lift... whom i think looked familiar... den he ask me if i was going for dinner.. i said i was going out.. den i ask him was sch was he from previously... den he told me NJ, den continued saying he only played vball in yr 1... den i was like... do u know me?? so i asked him... he said.. u are kelun lor.. very popular mahzZ... den i was like.. har?? i din even know i was popular... maybe notorious for skipping all the orientation and stuff... haha... den someone came in when he left... den this guy was like.. eehh kelun u not going for dinner ar?? den i was like.. har?? u also know me?? but i know no one!! scary leh... hahaa...

finally bid for my non-core module for this sem.. i think i shld be able to get it... chose it together with yanli... we looked thru alot of modules... finally found one that doesnt clash exam or lectures... phew... really headache... gonna do some basic computer programming... think it shld be fun.. hehee...

NUS bidding system for modules gives us alot of choices and a lot of possibilities... but it'a really a headache... NTU one is so much simpler... even the online learning facility is easier to use... in NUS... u can enter ur username password like ten times... once for logging on... den VPN.. den intranet... den CORS... den NUS space... den email... and the list goes on... kaozZ.... waste time!!! so many windows... my com will hang!!

yesterday i was late for vball.. very late... cos i over slept... den went to tj for training... match for the singapore open will begin on tuesday nite... very fast... dunno if can advance to the next round or not...

today's the day which i held the UnAmazing Race for 06/99... i wouldnt really call it a success, but nothing much screwed up lor... so i consider it okay... except for some small gliches here and there... hahaa.. but overall it's fine..

bbq at my place at the end of everything... got a lot of food to cook.. still got a lot left over.. hahaa.. wat a waste...

tml going to NUS super early in the morning cos got some inauguration ceremony... supposingly it's a super boring event... but just go lor... miss a lot of activities in school liaozZ.. already lagging behind a lot liaozZ... sianzZ....

rot at home the whole day again... really din do anything other den go buy food and eat.. and just rot infront of the TV.... i wonder how i will survive live in the hall without my TV.. hmmm...

waited for my dear yanli to come find me before i start doing anything... i just cant start to do anything without her around.. hahaa... by the time she came already 11pm liaozZ... den we started to pack and bring things to NUS... just found out that there's no wireless reception in sheares... so i gotta setup the wired lan... duhzZ.. anyway... i dun think that will be too difficult..

we came to ECP mac to get a drink and some food.. and we are still here now.. haha.. first time use laptop here.. quite fun... haha... a lot of funny funny pple here... and the whole crew here doesnt look local.. they all look indonesian.. and there english really cannot make it... damn jialat... here's some photos i snapped with my laptop cam.. hahaa.. steady one lor.. hahaa...

after much consultation and bumming around.. I AM STILL LOST... i think i knew wat i wanted to take but it doesnt fit the rest of my timetable... why must they allocate the modules to us?? it becomes riggid... i lose so many choice of electives... now i really dunno what to choose... aarrgghh headache... and frustration... who can understand how i feel now... aarrggghhh....

went to NUS to do my matriculation... the matriculation fair was quite a drag... the queue was intimidatingly long... queued for almost 2 hrs before going into the hall... till now i still dunno anyone in my faculty.. other den guoping... i wonder if i'll get to know ppl once classes start.... so yah matriculation... i finally got my student card... card look damn ugly... white white one... the photo also looked very toot... but i was prepared for that... i sent in the photo wat...

suppose to look around at the CCAs in NUS... volleyball is such a closed sport... no booths no promotion.. nothing... it's liddat all along... it's always been the case... frens drag other frens... a very closed circle, an insider's game... anyway... i really wanted to join some CCA.. but no company leh... dun wanna go alone... super sianzZ....

another headache... i totally have no idea how to go about bidding for my modules... lost!! hahaa... later going to take refuge at my frens place to ask for help... hahaa... headache.... why is it so complicated... so competitive...

i was suppose to go to school and i din go again.... are u pple getting sick of me saying this?? i set my alarm clock everyday to be in time to go to school for watever event... but till now i have not allow myself to wake up... i dunno lar... slack whole at home again... no vcd to watch liaozZ... so i vacuumed the whole house... dust every corner.... ate lunch at 3 plus... made a new dish.. chicken drumlets with black beans... quite nice... hahaa...

just came back from training... turnout today is very NOT encouraging... only 8 of us... and that's inclusive of hay... army boys are out.. there we are left with 12.. den zai, junlong, robin, nelson, weijie all never come... i send so many sms out... at least reply and let me know u are not coming lar... dun reply i take it as u coming... haizZ.. that's the problem... sometimes they reply sometimes they dun... so wat the hell??

say also sianzZ... a lot of ppl keep telling me i shld be going to orientation... but is there anyone in the hall that's asking me if i care to join?? no leh... den y bother... i guess it's alrite lor... they got gals can liaozZ.. who cares abt the guys... duhzZ... but i really do wanna join in the fun... guess i'll be left wondering for the rest of my UNI life wondering wat i had missed...

anyway... i spend my whole day at home today watching vcd... i finished the whole box of initial D anime... den the other nite i went to eat dao huay at geylang.. i saw the AE86... somemore it has the jap label "teng yuan tou fu dian" on it.. hahaa... perfect replica.. i wonder if the driver can piao yi.. haha...

went to book my bbq pit today... big event this sunday... unamazing race for 06/99... still wondering how things will go... this is the first time i'm doing it this.. and there wun be any other game master except myself.. will i get maxed out?? hmmm. well.. i dunno...

suppose to go to school today for some tea welcome ceremony thingy... but din go... wanted to go one... but lazy leh... den somemore i gotta book my bbq pit mahzZ.. go liaozZ where got time... anyway.. those are just excuses... think i'm afraid to go...

later going back to tj to play vball... dunno if the sheares ppl will be there.. in fact i dun even know if anyone will be there.. i already inform them liaozZ.. only a few reply me.. so i dunno lor...

it the period of my life again.. where i am about to enter something new... i would just brood over god knows wat.. and heck care about everything... but i shld be fine once i step into the mood of things... but when will that be???

quite a wasted day today... sleep through the morning... dun really have a purpose... suppose to go to NUS for Sheares orientation.. somehow i decided not to go... i wanna make new frens, yet i'm afraid to venture... think i'm having pre-NUS blues... starting to feel butterflies in me about going back to school... i missed a few days of orientation already... i know that wouldnt matter in my studies... but morale wise, i dunno... it always helps to have frens around... yah...

anyway i shld be going to NUS tml morning... some tea ceremony and welcome for the Engine Newbies... yah.. bet it's going to be boring... will be going for the maths revision lessons too... think i need them to recover some of my lost knowledge...

just now dinner went to Xian De Lai... super MA LA... hahaa... went with yanli and some of her uni frens... quite okay lor... funny bunch of ppl... all of them are working liaozZ... while i'm just stepping into UNI... hahaa.. wat a joke... well.. i chose this path on my own accord... so.. i gotta stick to it... and walk through it... but it sucks... cos there aint any company to start with... it really sucks...

today's once of my worst basketball days... shooting suxX.. defense suxX.. passing rebounding also suxX... basically mind block whole day... but just wanted to sweat it out... so carried on playing... really kana sai lar... kept being a burden to the rest of the team... damn jialat..

it seems like a long time since i blogged abt my happenings... hahaa.. kindda lost wat i wanted to say... i moved some of my stuff into sheares liaozZ... think shld still have alot to move ba... my egg is there... my laptop wun go so soon... so dun think bringing yet... cos haven matriculate = still cannot connect to sch network... i quite excited to get to know the people in my hall... but den i not very excited abt the orientation, cos i think i have a lot of other things to do... which i have not done yet.. and i dun think i;ll be able to do them in the hall... haizZ.. dunno leh...shld go or shld i not go???

went for quiksilver beach volleyball today... quite bad lor... won 3 lost 3.... shld have won all lar... our group very easy... no sign of the heavy cannons in our group at all.. quite heng in that sense but played quite poorly today... but our team quite balanced... got esther as pro-server, eileen as pro-diver, shengli as pro-spiker den me at setter... not too pro lar.. think i made the most mistakes today... the weather is also a factor in today's games... kept raining... but that din relaly dampen our mood lar... the gals had fun kapo-ing the nivea freebies... only poor yanli, who was kindda bored and had nothing much to do... but she was nice enough to pei me all the way...

thanks dear...

got info from fung that we will be meeting Hay's team in the Open tournament... sianzZ... games will start on 1st aug... hahaa.. it's gonna be a busy start to a new school term... time to study hard lo....

i've got my new egg fridge.. and it glows like my speakers.. hahaaa...

wasting time at home these few days.. but yesterday i did something constructive... i went to marina square... recced the whole area... and now i have materials for my qns for the Unamazing race... hahaa... den also bought a speaker for myself... mummy paid though.. hahaa... quite a stylo speaker.. it has blue led light... hahaa.. quite beng...



and it only costs less den $50.. hahaa... so please with my new speakers...

had dinner at Waraku... a Japanese restaurant at marina.... went to the main one at starhub centre before.. the food not bad... VERY VERY BIG PORTION... eat till u vomit also can.. haha...

today i brought the CPU of the com i took from yanli's naima's grand-daughter (ah ger)... to silie's house... he is our computer doctor.. hahaa... got any problems just go to him... hahaa... yah anyway... that comp really quite hopeless... see he got wat spare part to donate to it den we going to give it to someone less fortunate... yah... it's yanli's sister's colleague... very poor den having some family problem also... now study poly but still cannot afford computer... yah... that's the story lar... but still dunno if we can get the com up and running not yet... it's now hospitalised at silie's place.. hahaa...

i'll be checking into Sheares hall on thurs.. but i still dunno what to bring in... hahaaa... haven decide... maybe see the room first den decide what i need...

yesterday is a super suay day lar... first when great world city to watch sin city but dear never bring IC cannot watch... so brought her home to take den go catch the 12mdnite show at cineleisure, but by the time we reach there, they say sold out... monday also can sold out... ridiculous...

still haven go marina square to validate my qns for unamazing race... haven book bbq pit... so many things haven done...

school's gonna start soon?? shld i stay in hall?? shld i go for the camp?? i have so many things to do... aarrgghhh... but i dunno where to start....

infuriating!!!

i'm finally back in front of my laptop... only got back friday nite... and i just woke up... yesterday was so so tired... anyway.. did anyone miss me while i'm away?? hehee.. nah.. i dun think so... the one who will miss me, is with me in bangkok.. hehee..

let's recap -

day 1 - reached bangkok close to noon.. took tiger airways... not bad lar... nothing much to comment or pick on.. cos there was no service.. hahaa.. for the price we are paying.. i'm fine with it.. bangkok was raining.. heavily... we took a bus to our hotel area... after some bumming around... we manages to find our hotel, but there was only 1 problem... the road a flooded, seriously water-logged to the calf... so yah.. my shoes got soaked... i forgot to bring slippers, yanli's better off, she has slippers... we stayed in this hotel call baiyoke suite, and our room was at 41st storey.. never stay so high before... and for S$80 we got a super huge room, check out the pictures... yah.. the room not bad lor... quite shuang... but it does look alittle old, a little retro.. haha.. we walked to MBK to look for food and shop around... the 1st day was not very good, i was feeling rather sick after awhile... den din feel like shopping anymore... first day actually quite wasted... could have done alot more....

day 2 - woke up early in the morning for the buffet breakfast, i think we were the first few.. the breakfast not bad.. full international breakfast... unlike the last one when i came with vball team... breakfast cannot compare.. hahaa... scrambled eggs, half-boiled eggs, omelette, sunny-side ups, bacon, sausages, vege, chicken, fried rice, fried noodled, french toast, pancakes, cereal, salad bar, many diff bread... lots of stuff lar.. ate like mad... hahaa... look at the photos and u'll know.. hahaa.. after the heavy breakfast, we went to take the LRT to the jetty to take boat to the grand palace... the last time din go into the grand palace cos gotta pay... so now go... still gotta pay lar, but we not as stingy as fung... hehee.. the palace pretty big.. took quite a few photos there and the emerald buddha temple.. we followed closely to tour groups so can listen to their description for free.. hahaa.. some of these tour guides really animated... a lot of stories.. hahaa.. can be script writer.. cos a lot is fake one.. hahaa.. but the auntie/uncle tour grps will never suspect anything.. hahaa... after that we took boat back to the LRT jetty and shopped in the area nearby, not bad... but din buy much a few tshirts... we ate macdonalds for lunch.. and yanli ate happy meal cos they were giving away heffalump figurines.. hahaa.. fast food in bangkok is very very cheap... so suppose to go to the patpong nite market that nite but i dead beat after the whole day of shopping.. so instead we walked around the nite stalls near our hotel... we managed to buy some stuff and sunglasses for ourselves and eileen too.. hehee.. i bought a pair of nerdy ones.. hahaa..

day 3 - we gotta make full use of our last day and do as much shopping as we could.. haha.. so we started shopping around our hotel since morning... cos we are situated in the fashion wholesale district.. so actually have a lot of variety of clothing to choose from.. but the only problem was sizes.. cant really fine sizes to fit either of us.. hahaa... but still bought a few pieces here and there lar... checked out at noon.. den took our bag and carry on shopping... went to the computer center and it looks exactly like simlim square.. hahaa... freaking resemblance... we ate A&W for fun... cos very long never eat... root beer float and waffles.. yummy... the electronics in bangkok actually not very cheap... almost same as singapore... buy electronics go taiwan... buy clothes come thailand... hahaa... it rained while we were at the IT mall... and we had to take a cab to MBK... we met this SG couple and we shared a cab with them to MBK... feels like a female dominant pair.. the guys talks alot.. while the gal just stare at him for talking to much.. hahaa... afterall the last minute hassle at MBK we finally had to leave.. so we went to the super long taxi queue to hitch a cab to the airport... when we finally got on, guess wat the taxi diver said... 400 bht to airport... i was like... wat rubbish... we were willing to give him up to 300 but he din give in so we got off... but by then we were already out of the queue already running late... but luckily we flagged a cab from the middle of the road... and we still got to the airport in time... the jam as rather horrendous though... i still paid $300 lar... i over paid him... cos this one was nice...

hahaa...so back back to singapore.... bought perfume at the duty free again... my display cabinet is getting full haha... went 85 market to eat with mum and yanli... by the time reach home almost 2am liaozZ...

den yesterday 7am i was up... mum send me to tj for vball.. i was too early so i went to the hawker opposite to eat breakfast... ate pork porridge with you tiao.. haha... yummy yummy.. hahaa... vball was okay today... i wasnt really mobile and kept receiving ball with only one hand.. think got 2 reason.. 1- my reaction too slow... 2- i too lazy.. haha... gotta improve...

after vball ball i went home to get car... den went to esther hse... helped her moved her stuff to hall 6... i simply daze around at ther room while she goes around cleaning EVERYTHING... can understand her excitement.. hahaa... it wun stay neat and tidy for long anyway.. rite mei?? hahaa.... first time i see a room other den yanli's hall 13 room... esther's room is much bigger.. but also much older... pros and cons lar.. but i prefer hall 13.. hahaa...

in the evening i met up with my 4E gang... tenghui's father regularity at striking 4d/toto simply astounds me.. yah.. he is giving a treat to everyone... why?? cos he is the son of a 4d winner... i guess his father won quite big this time... so so impressed... he must have lead a very hard previous life or done a great great amount of good deeds... unimaginable... hahaa.... they actually went to play pool after dinner, but i was too tired... i sent silie and fuliang to the pool centre while me and yanli came home...

going to play bball later... hahaa.. tired.... hahaa..

hey.. i'm using the free internet in the airport... hahaa... like so suagu liddat... cos never use before.. everytime go holiday in groups den gotta rush... but now can take my time.. hahaa.. so shiok... time to go for shopping... and 1st stop.. singapore changi airport... hehee... seeya guys in 2 days...

today.... slept at home the whole day... contractor came to work on my sink.. but i was still sleeping.. hahaa... din know he came... hahaa... ate a super sumptous breakfast this morning.. den sleep whole day.. only woke up at nite... after mum came home.. den i drove out to buy dinner and go change thai baht... now i have 10k.. with me.. hehee.. baht... hehee... haven pack yet... hahaa...

this is a song from JJ, lin jun jie... for all those who hate studying!! hehee...

灯不能熄灭熬过今夜
就能从书中逃回到这个世界
我我不明白这个年代
怎么还能说读好书就会发财好呆
爱我的爸疼我的妈
说了那么多你们明白吗
不是要反抗只是要你看
我不满的地方
读读读读读到书都想吐好想哭
怕怕怕怕怕老是背书好白痴
你你你你你只会说你要第一
我就快要发羊癫疯
不是每个人都会读书会读书
不厉害读书也不一定就会输
不是想要说我会读书不在乎
我只想要你能清楚

sometimes i wish i'm as popular as xiaxue, maybe i'm just jealous... cos i cannot be like her... but i have to admire her.. she is popular, but she does put a lot of work into her entries... those pictures that she posts, they are all edited.. mind u.. it takes time to do all those shit... dun think i'll ever be as popular as her.. simply cos i'm too lazy... how i wish ppl would JUST love me.. if i were bothered i would go on a serious diet... go to facials... go style up my hair... but i dun.. not cos i'm different... i'm just plain lazy... haha... i despise myself... DUhzZ...

stayed at home today... my initial plan was to go to marina square... carry out my planning for my UnAmazing Race.. but as usual i was just too lazy... but the good thing is i actually did something... i din sleep at home the whole day... i went to report my leaking kitchen sink and faulty phonelines to my trusty condo management... i'm quite surprise the gal there actually recognises which unit i'm from... hahaa... she's quite cute anyway.. haha.. but i think she's beyond my age ba.. haha.. i also SMS'd many of my 06/99 ppl who haven got back to me for the attendance of the UnAmazing Race.. irritating... still dun wanna reply... hahaa..

hmm.. if u cant see the lyrics below... just right click here... den go to the drop-down menu and select coding and choose UNICODE (UTF-8)... and words will appear.. hahaa...

the whole istana thing was okay... wasnt really feeling nervous or excited cos i was there before... but i was desperately trying to find some familiar faces, so that i wun be the only one without company... very sianzZ one... luckily i found a few pple that i knew.. even my ex boss was there... so not too bad... got pple to talk to... reached there around 445pm.. having the event in the istana itself cos raining, if not will be in the garden... anyway.. uncle nathan only came around 6pm... den went around shaking hands and small talk... but he really goes all the way to shake everyone's hands... same attitude as the last time i came.. he is a good guy... took photo with him somemore... but dun think i'll get see the photos.. haha.. whole event ended around 720pm...

went bedok to meet yanli.. yes!! she's back.. haha...

why is today like the most uncomfortable day of my life? i woke up after 3 hrs of sleep, looking worst den a panda. i looked like a koala with those tired looking sagging eyes... anyway.. i woke up on the intention of going for basketball... but i cant bring myself to go out sweat it out.. come back super shagged den go for the istana thingy... now i really regret agreeing to go for the event, other den seeing the president i dun find it at all attracting.. sianzZ... i've been spending the past few hrs.. zombie-ing around... watched tv.. but nothing interesting... vacuumed the whole house... sent email... tried to msg esther see if she can entertain me.. haha.. but she just came back from chalet... so shall not torture her with my boredom... den no one online also... so sianzZ.....

maybe it's because yanli's not around.. she went to a kelong with her post-grad cse... yah.. without her around to pei me... i feel so lonely and so bored... it would be fine if there's others around... but it these kind of a time that makes her so so invaluable.. hehee..

i've picked out the clothes i wanna wear to the istana... very simple shirt and tie... i simply picked one that fits.. haha... color combi quite boring.. blue blue black... blue tie, blue shirt abd black pants... so sianzZ... so bored...

since i'm so bored... i'll attach the lyrics of some of the songs we composed and sang in our secondary school days.. a tribute to cchs/4e/98...

千 年 女 妖
 
我 学 校 有 个 老 师 她 很 好 笑,
她 觉 得 自 己 长 得 很 象 琼 瑶
她 矮 到 xiao,有 味 道,每 个 人 都 受 不 了
整 个 学 校 只 有 她 不 知 道
 
我 这 位 老 师 她 很 喜 欢 说 教,
说 男 女 关 系 千 万 不 要 乱 搞
她 说 一 套,作 一 套,后 来 我 们 才 知 道
原 来 她 根 本 就 没 人 敢 要
 
**这 种 人 不 应 该 在 学 校,这 种 人 她 应 该 在 板 桥
这 种 人 真 令 人 受 不 了,不 如 干 脆 叫 她 千 年 女 妖 ！
 
她 的 年 龄 已 经 是 老 大 不 小,
她 走 起 路 来 还 会 蹦 蹦 跳 跳
她 一 下 笑,一 下 叫,她 天 天 都 一 样 地 xiao
她 说 这 样 会 长 生 不 老
 
这 位 老 师 的 脾 气 你 不 要 领 教,
她 有 事 没 事 都 会 乱 喊 乱 叫
鬼 看 到 都 掉 头 跑,人 看 到 那 更 糟 糕
她 是 我 们 的 千 年 女 妖,我 们 学 校 的 千 年 女 妖 ！！

**
 
这 位 老 师 已 经 是 无 可 救 药,
你 看 她 穿 的 衣 服 你 就 知 道
有 purple,有 yellow, 还 有 加 上 mickey mouse
看 了 我 们 好 想 撞 墙 死 掉

**
 
她 简 直 就 是 我 们 的 千 年 女 妖 ！！！

that song above is about our discipline mistress, i believe i've told quite a number of my frens abt her notorious dress sense... and yah.. this song is dedicated to her... hahaa... it's follows the tune of one of jacky chans songs.. cant rem the title... the following song below is one den me and silie wrote just before prelims to describe our desperado feelings towards the examinations... and it goes with the tune of daniel chan's tie xin... enjoy...

原 曲： 贴 心
原 唱 者： 陈 晓 东
新 曲： 考 试 烦 心
作 词： 林 思 烈 & 李 可 伦

考 试 烦 心

看 到 书 桌
上 面 队 满 了 灰 尘
看 到 墙 上 日 历
渐 渐 发 觉 考 试 根 接 近
打 扫 书 桌
清 理 上 面 的 灰 尘
当 我 打 开 书 本
我 才 发 现 自 己 比 猪 还 笨
下 定 决 心
这 次 考 试 一 定 要 拼
你 说 chemistry 也 有 它 的 theory
却 复 杂 的 让 我 放 弃

为 了 考 试 担 心， 考 试 烦 心
娱 乐 以 成 了 过 去
那 些 讨 厌 的 书
看 了 好 想 撞 墙 壁
为 了 考 试 担 心， 考 试 烦 心
一 天 喝 十 瓶 鸡 精
如 果 这 样 活 下 去
我 迟 早 会 变 成 神 经

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went to tj early in the morning.. mummy drove me there while she goes east coast for her weekly walking exercise... hahaa... she actually has a walking gang.. diaozZ... anyway... i was there rather early but there's already this bunch of OAC ppl starting their training... hahaa.. simply a joke.. like army liddat... shout and scold... this is what i call bo liaozZ... u wanna be regimental wanna be fierce.. go to the army... in the real world u gotta be nicer... training is training but there's no need for ridiculous torture... but den again... training is all about discipline...

today's training turnout actually quite disappointing... only 8 of us... quite a few already told me they cannot come... so i have no one to blame... and it's outdoor... it's unlikely those not in the team would come help out in the scorching sun... anyway.. the sun is really hot lar... energy sapping is the word.. really shagged out after an hr or so... cant last long at all... motivation drop.. performance drop... k lar... next time hot sun we'll just do PT... talking abt discipline, one has to lead by example... but how do u lead when u cant do it? not convincing and no one will wanna follow... disappointed in myself... my knee was giving way today... had some trouble after the spiking session... quite painful... we started around 8 den 10plus end liaozZ... too hot lar....

got soccer match going on den we were watching... there was a fight!! din really know wat was going on.. but yah there was a fight... hahaa... the ref super cool... this is the first time i see a ref standing in the middle of the field all the time yet can give all the fouls and offsides and the outs... how the hell can he see?? hahaa... referee KELONG!! hahaha... but among everyone on the field the referee looks most pro.. haha.. so dum...

all of us went parkway for lunch.. ate at the hawker centre... ate chicken rice again.. hahaa... talk abit.. den all left liaozz.. quite boring lar... came home to sleep after collecting the book keli ask me to help her photocopy yesterday... was seriously tired.. slept for like half an hr den yanli's naima's granddaughter called, she just bought a new comp but dunno how to connect to the internet, she called yesterday liaozZ but very late liaozZ so i asked her to try out the steps in the manual and see can work not.. cannot den call me today... so yah she called... so i drove down to tampines to fix the problem.. simple problem... 15min gao dim... but i super drowsy liaozZ...

when i reached home i really fell on my bed... but my mum kept bugging me.. cos today got singtel ppl coming to look at out phonelines.. seem to have some problem... den she keep asking me to handle when she's the one who has the problem not me... my line is fine.. hahaa... anyway.. i know i have to handle lar.. cos when it comes to technical stuff.. she's in a world of her own... sure a lot of rubbish come out and still dunno wat's the problem... hahaa.. that's my mum... haha...

so i walked around with the technician trying to figure out wat the problem... we conclude that my sister and my lines are fine... but my mum's one ans the one in the hall is faulty.. so the main phone line is actually fine.. but the wiring in the house has something wrong... so gotta call our contractor to come see see... and last nite our kitchen sink leaking again... this house seems to be full of problems... sianzZ...

i immediately pounced on my bed once the contractor left... and tried to grab some sleep... feeling even more tired after talking to the contractor and explaining the faults to my mum...haizZ.. tiring.. slept all the way till 9plus 10 den woke up for dinner.. if my mum din wake me for dinner i would continue sleeping till midnite or maybe the next day... but she woke me up!! so i ate lar.. den came online.. chatted awhile till kaiyu ask me to go out for supper... with tth ans silie... so yah joined them for supper and talked a little abt fantastic 4 cos they just watched... and yes kaiyu like jessica alba too.. haha.. simply love her.. hahaa.. she is so stylo... haha...

went to jackson to eat.. ordered a stingray to share... very fast finish.. think everyone actually hungry.. haha.. went to tenghui's place after that cos he just came back from europe so got souvenirs for us.. he got some miniture wine bottles... dunno izzit wine or some other drink lar... it's from germany i think.. haha... so yah.. more stuff for my display cabinet...

now i feel quite awake... dun think i'm going to sleep cos later going to play basketball at bedok... so dun bother to sleep.. sleep liaozZ sure cannot wake up one.. so yah... stay awake ba.. but in the evening gotto go instana and chat with the president... haha.. i'm gonna zombie infront of him.. hahaa...

today started at 6pm again.. haha.. yah... my day and nite is now haywired!! woke up washed up and went out... suppose to go katong to do some photocopying for keli... yanli came to meet me on the way.. so we went katong together... one whole book to photocopy so tml den collect... after that went to the roland restaurant at parkway there... it's above the multistorey carpark one... the food there is supposed to be very nice... and the chef very famous... one of singapore's 4 top chefs... but only after dinner den realise that chef no longer works there.. he handed over to his god-son liaozZ... anyway.. i was there with yanli's 4 elder sisters and 1 bro-in-law... a pretty nice bunch of people... hungry ppl... food was not bad...

after dinner came home with yanli.. cause we going to watch fantastic 4 with my family... hehee.. i like the show... quite nite... and i simply love jessica alba... she is so so so attractive... like her for years liaozZ.. she's one yr older den me... so can say she grew up with me on tv?? hahaa... anyway... it's a nice show lar.. haha... jessica alba's even nicer.. whaha...

din go anywhere today... sleep whole day... waking up once in a while... but 99% in bed... din want to get up actually but mummy dragged me up to eat dinner.. haha... ate pasta.. my sis cook... din eat much... not that it's not nice lar... just that it was too cheezy until got a bit stinky.. hahaa... yah...

watched superstar... yesh!! the blackie is out... just dun like her at all... quite diappointed that F2 is out lar.. must be my fault.. cos i never vote... but i seriously think she chose the wrong song today... i expected the judges to comment on her song choice... i was surprised at the score... but even more surprise in the lack of votes.... hehee... quite surprise M3 is out too... tot he would be cute enough to gain lots of female voters... nvm still got revival round... they shld get thru.... just left out the black black one can liaozZ... hehee...

DOWN WITH THE BLACKIE!!