just now i was browsing thru a fren's blog.. saw her did a reflection of the past yr.. den it struck me.. maybe i shld do the same.. moreover i had a very interesting yr.. i doubt anyone can ever experience wat i experience wat i went thru...

at the beginning of the year.. i was still serving my NS.. with a slight hope of becoming a regular.. while i still go back to tj for vball often.. got to know rach, zz & eil... all of them turned out to be very nice gals...

saw them thru the a div compeitions... both teams were knocked out of placings... i was rather harsh during the team talks after the matches.. i may be just overly concerned for them... but i think i really want them to do well.. & they were capable... felt kindda sad for them too... i took part in the interformation volleyball representing RSAF.. din really have the chance to perform.. tot i can really show my abilities next yr.. but sadly.. no chance liaozZ...

in middle of the yr.. my dreams of getting a study award from the RSAF vaporises.. the final results were out 2 months later.. i was told to leave... ORD lohzZ...

i joined the tj vball team on their trip to thailand... it was really a wonderful feeling.. it has been a long time since i had been on a trip with so many frens... PS, Weijie, Marc were there too... become closer with many of the juniors... bought lots of stuff... ates lots of food... feels re-attached to the team... got myself a mei.. esther, she's really nice.. great big heart and big appetite too... no regrets with this mei...

after ORD... i helped out at the osim triathalon.. first time doing such stuff.. although it says volunteer... but i was actually paid.. and the money wasnt bad.. haha.. got more den 200bucks.. jut for doing some dum stuff... idiot-proof.. but wat i really hate was still that idiotic dr-dunno-wat.. i never seen anyone as idiot as him... totally unacceptable.. made a few frens though...

i worked at Great Eastern for 2 months.. it was really a torture to work there... job wasnt tough but just too boring... only den i realised why those working there are all aunties... although after a month.. a familiar face join me there.. but she was a perm staff.. haha.. but guess wat.. shld could take it either.. she's planning to leave by end of this yr too.. hahaa... yah.. boring job... but at least got a little income...

somewhere in september, i got myself another mei.. alison, she e cutest gal i ever came across... she has a spiky attitude... her words can sometimes poke you right at where it hurts most.. but u'll never be able to be angry with her... best of all... she has a bottomless-pit for a stomach... never stops getting hungry... all in all... she just makes me wanna care for her.. so pple out there.. dun bully my mei k!!

at the end of the stint at GE... i went for another holiday... this time to taiwan/hongkong.. together with my airforce khakis.. it was a really interesting trip... 1st time going there.. after seeing so much of it on tv.. experiencing it was really great.. the food, the ppl, the scenery, the shopping.... everything was just wonderful...

ever since coming back from taiwan.. i hadnt had much to do... just din little things here and there to keep myself busy... started to drain out my savings... vball camp was fun... made a few trips to jb with fung.. fung is seriously addicted to jb shopping.. blame me for introducing him the stall at holiday plaza.. hahaa.. sux for failing my driving test.. stupid yellow box.. still cant get over it... stupid yellow box... gonna retake on 20th JAN.. hope the new yr brings me new luck...

think one of the most interesting character i got to know this yr is actually tan lisi... she's a very good badminton player.. national standard.. kena trashed by her.. cant get over that too.. gonna beat her some day... hahaa... the challenge is on!! she has a contagious and neverending laughter... and a very innocent gal... i can never forget the suppers with her & hay.. and the late nites...

this yr i finally meet up with my 12/00 classmates.. it has been a few yrs since i saw them... so it was really not a bad experience... not really close to them... but okay lar... fren are frens still... :)

i cant possibly end the year without saying anything about my wonderful dear dear... coming to 5yrs very soon... the good thing is that everyday seems like we just got together... there were ups and downs.. but luckily everything eventually turned out just fine...

HAPPY NEW 2005 !!

i finally finished fixing my cabinet and my fan.. now my room is really all done up.. yeah.. some unpacking later in the day and i'm all ready to receive the new yr... actually i think i kindda messed up with my cabinet.. it kindda looks like the leaning tower of pisa... but it's okay.. at least it's standing.. hahaa.. later gonna go teach my that irritating cousin tuition... sianzZ.. still dunno how much her father wanna pay... duhzZ...

finally.. the war is over... i wouldnt say i won... in fact.. i think i'm on the losing end... cos i promised to do quite a few things... change some other things... well.. at least i got her back.. that is the most impt thing... had dinner with her... welcome back dear!!!!

only just got home not long ago... went to watch movie with hay, lisi and esther... kungfu hustle... i was stil feeling down... so lisi asked if i wana go out... felt kindda better after the laff... a total crap show... 100% entertainment.. 0% quality... that's the kind of show kungfu hustle is..

i miss her voice... i miss her touches... i miss her hugs... i miss her whinnings... i miss her smile... i miss her kisses... i miss her massage... i miss her scratching... i miss her lying on my shoulders...

i miss singing for her... i miss having heart cramps... i miss cooking for her... i miss holding her hands... i miss biting her... i miss lying on her lap... i miss lifting her off the ground and swing her around... i miss waking up and she appears beside me 1st thing in the morning... i miss kissing her non-stop...

i dun wanna be like this.....

i've never been able gain the upper hand in arguments... why because i dun think as much.. consequences seldom seem more impt den achieve my aim... but wat have been saying has always been the truth... i've been true about everything.. my feelings for everyone... i have no regrets... i dunno i how i can win this war.. it just seems as if i dun have a long term aim... dunno wat i am aiming for... to tell u the truth... i can only say this again... i dunno.. u will never know wat will happen in the future... wat else can i say?? u say i dun think about us? i only have 1 simple thing in my mind... i want us to be us... rich or poor... troubled or peaceful.. just be together.. that's all... i know u have expectations... i dunno if i can meet ur expectations... but i only know i'll love u... that's all...

camp's over.. overalll wasnt bad.. but participants too many.. organisin com a little too small.. kindda uncontrollable... nonetheless.. there were a bunch who more supportive & co-operative.. my greatest comfort is to be among frens i guess... although i dun think anyone knows the situation i'm in nor do i see anyone i can confide in... how am i gonna solve this problem... this war has to stop somewhere, somehow...

how does it feel without her?? i dunno... i just go all out doing watever i have.. i easily forget things... it may not be the best thing to do.. but it wasnt me who started the war... i'm now in sch.. joining them for the sports camp.. got to know a few ppl.. had some fun... handball.. basketball and stuff... yah.. not bad lar...

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the cold war has begun.. i hate it.. dun like the feeling at all.. but it is time to think over these 4 yrs wat have we achieved... wat we are hoping for... seriously i dun have the slightest idea will this cold war ever end... or will it just develop into armaggedon... i just think she has changed, i've lost my importance or at least i dun feel it anymore... i seem redundant...

i'm just gonna let her cool off... cos i think wat i want is obvious.. and it hasnt changed over the years... i'm sure of that... i believe her aim hasnt changed either.. but her methods have changed and her priorities took a serious reshuffling... it all just piss me off.. i am DAMN PISSED!!!!!

it has not been the best christmas day of my life.. not at all... woke up late in the afternoon.. yanli was beside me when i woke up.. but she was too tired and just wanted to sleep.. i felt kindda sianzZ... went to ikea with mummy to buy my final cabinet... den dinner at kenny rogers den watch "meet the focker" funny show.. good to watch... all this while yanli was with me.. but all this while i was damn pissed with her... why?? cos she promised to spend the nite with me.. but when we went out she said she's going home... the reason she gave.. pure lameness... i put on a f**ked up face all the while, and all she could do was try to smile at me.. i think it was nothing more den a pathetic attempt... i just cannot accept it... my whole day is just spoilt... yes, i'm possessive.. this i admit.. but i am pretty certain i'm not over possessive... all i want is someone to accompany me... she promised me a few days back, she would spend the nite with me... yet after spending the eve with her clique... came to my place in the afternoon... slept... finally only to say she wants to go home... go then!!!!! dun let me have false hopes!!!

Only just got home a while ago... this year was a little different from previous yrs... usually i would just spend the nite over at someone's place till the next day.. this yr there was a xmas gathering at my new place.. my grandparents, my aunts & uncles, and many many cousins were all here... the place was basically in a mess while me & my sis was frantically trying to whipp up lasagne & baked rice... we made enough to feed everyone.. but there was lots more food around the house... so just imagine wat kind of scene it was... a truely chaotic one!!

i also made baked chicken which was for another gathering with yanli's clique... with potato, cheese, onion & more cheese... hehee... anyone interested in the recipe?? can call me.. hahaa.. it was quite well received at the gathering, the tray was cleared in mins... there was also bbq.. it was quite a disaster at first.. cos the fire was too strong and it burnt through the aluminium tray... and most of the food was burnt... the satay was weird.. the meat just wun stay on the sticks... so i took out all the sticks and made it into a huge satay patty and bbq'ed that... tasted not bad actually...the highlight was actually the dessert.. chococolate fondue... thick creamy melted cadbury chocolate... with lots of juicy cut fruits... just dip it in... out it comes with a thick coat of chocolate.. the taste was simply... heavenly.. hahaa

i had to leave yanli's clique early cos me going to watch movie at tiong bahru with lisi and her fren, christabel... a very interesting gal... we watched "Phantom Of The Opera", it was a rather tragic story... the phantom had a very bad childhood... and all he was asking for was love... but because he wasnt really loved before, he lacks the ability to show kindness, killing was rather simple for him too... rather overpossessive, the love undoubtedly was strong... sad story... besides the story, the singing was also fantastic to my standard... really kept me hype thru-out the show... overall rating 8.5, so love story wannabes out there... go for it...

lisi wanted to go boat quay after the show, thinking that pubs actually open till 5-6am in the morning... NO!! they are all closed by the time we finished our show.. but still we took a walk down to clarke quay.. den to esplanade, marina square finally ending back in tiong bahru again where we had breakfast.. food was suppose to be really good.. but somehow it wasnt that fantastic to my standards.. hahaa.. yah.. so spent about 3-4hrs walking around the southern part of singapore while christabel was like a heritage tour expert, explaining to us every single notable monument we walked pass... interesting rite?? yeap it was... on the way back to tiong bahru, we walked passed md sultan... lisi totally has no idea that such a place existed... so she said next time if i go there, she'll wanna tag along.. oh yah, i have to say this.. lisi look real good last nite... i'm serious.. so any takers for our next outing?? md sultan??

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i think it's been awhile since i had the chance to stay at home the whole day... initially it was fine... just slack do nothing keep lying on the bed.. just waiting for the sun to rise and set.. din wanna go training... let their aeroplane fly... din meet up with wanyang & co also... their aeroplane also fly...

watched "Texas Chainsaw Massacre" just before dinner.. din really make me lose my appetite even though the show was really damn grossed... i was hungry... i ate 6 pc of KFC... & 1 bottle of pepsi... din really feel bloated as expected... just right only... so i think i din over eat rite??

felt kindda sianzZ at the end of the day... dun really know why... this thought came to my mind... wat sort of a girlfriend do i want?? now i have one who really cares about me.. but she is really too nice sometimes... sometimes i would like my gf to be willing to break some rules for me.. dun be afraid of doing some things wrong...
actually i want to be able to play sports with my gf... sometimes when i play badminton.. i see some elder couples play together... i think that feels good.. play some badminton, basketball or even volleyball... not just play.. also to give me some challenge so that i wun be bored... sometimes i really think... how many things are there that i can do with yanli.. not too many though.. but i am will to accept that... all i expect is for her to be more attentive to wat's happening around me.. not that she doesnt care... but recently she's always pre-occupied with other things. that pisses me off... i just wonder... just where do i stand....

this morning i had my 1st tuition with my 13 yr old cousin Wong Jiaqin, she is a terror... told her to prepare her end of yr paper for ne to go over with her... but when i ask her qns about her test.. she everything forget liaozZ.. how she got the ans... everything also say guess one... really die loh... den super talkative... i tell her everything she just nod her head.. must make her write things down... haizZ.. serious case of laziness...

after almost 3hrs of hell... i took cad down to tj for vball... i think i really deteriorating... can only play on gal's net... cant jump any higher... super sad... den somemore nowadays i feel all my joints including knees & elbows like very loose... anytime can break.. can only play according to experience.. which means i have to anticipate where the ball will be well ahead of time... if i made a wrong decision.. that's it... wun be able to fly there also... yah.. that's my deteriorating vball...

went to eat KFC with vball ppl after training... finally get to eat kfc after so long... it's really been a long long time... so it actually tastes quite good.. when i'm done with kfc, i gotta rush home for more food.. gotta cook pasta & 2 sauces for my 12/00 gathering... i think i did quite a good job.. everything was done in slightly more den an hr... best of all the comment was not bad.. anyone wanna order?? hehee...

the gathering was quite fun lor.. haven seen some of them in like... eeehh 3yrs?? took some photos... had some wine and quite a bit of singing... finally left around 3plus... super super shagged now... yawnzZ... dun think i'll be able to make it to training liaozZ... zzzZZZzzZZz....

went to watch blade with hay, wanyang, jass, lisi, ps & rachel... it's basically a show to make wesley snipes look good... but i think he is getting old lar.. dun really look too good liaozZ.. anyway.. the female lead just looks super good... and i finally remember where she's from.. she's the elder sister in the series 7th heaven.. and she's is same age as me... Jessica Biel... hehee..

after the show finished i had to rush to lawyer's office at peninsula plaza... my parents are getting divorced... ppl who know me well shld noe by now... and i'm not sad about it... finally it's going to happen... thank god...

part 3 - ktv at chinatown.. with ps, hay & lisi... yanli too... bad voice today.. kindda sucky.. hahaa.. lisi's still as good... SUN YANZI!! hahaa.. she is good... she seems so focus while singing... which makes the picture look abit funny.. cos normally she's laffing like 90% of the time... hahaa..

tml's gonna busy a busy day.. give tuition in the morning... den go vball.. den go 12/00 xmas gathering.. my 1st gathering with them since i grad... sounds sucky rite?? and i haven got a xmas present... heh...

went to gals training this morn... not really very funny... got this sianzZ sianzZ feeling.. maybe it has to do with my cut on my right middle finger.. never point my middle finger so many times in a day before... hahaa..lunch was really quite ex.. almost 10 bucks for long john silvers... really wanted to eat kfc instead.. think shld have... cos not full...

wanyang, eileen, ps & hay all came t my place to watch dvd... initially we were watching "shaun of the dead" but all too tired to listen to the dum jokes... so we changed to "resident evil 2" instead.. idiot proof show.. killing from start to end that's all.. after the show wanyang and eileen left... lisi came to join us shortly after.. she has compeition at SBH @ 930pm.. we decided to go see her play... we went the SBH about 830pm.. there were lots of interesting matches... Lisi's match somehow got delayed till 1030pm den start... her match VS chinese taipei.. quite disppointing.. but she say is play for fun one, and her partner also 1st time playing on this stage.. that's why like cannot catch up with the pace... realised Lisi's quite a household name there.. a lot of ppl know her... impressive...

i was superman today.. why?? cos i never sleep last nite... was configuring all the files that i copied from kaiyu's comp... so din sleep.. by the time i was done.. it was already time to go for bball... went fengshan to play bball again.. saw my airforce buddy, adrian there. still as rough as ever.. see him for 5mins and he's always all over his opponents.. scary!! vincent join us for bball along with zhangjun & some others... we played aginst these group of ppl who were also there... they are fast... and their shooting was damn accurate... just kept losing to them... quite buay song... wanted to challenge them more.. but we left the place to play else where cos we have too many ppl liaozZ... oh yah.. my shooting was spot on today, felt good...

went to yanli's place after bball... den we took a bus down to ikea.. shopping!! bought 2 new cushions... & some other stuff.. wanted to buy a display cabinet too... but wasnt sure of the size.. now i know there is definitely enough space.. i'll be poping down ikea again some time soon...

my greatest achievement of the day... my room is pracitcally packed and ready liaozZ... most stuff are neat liaozZ.. i combined 2 single mattresses to form my queen size bed... network is up.. time to enjoy!! hahaa... oh yah.. i'm getting more broke den ever... any jobs to intro??

came to kaiyu's place early today at 3pm... suppose to help out with his bbq.. but when i reach here... there's no one!! but his sis & dog.. super irritating dog.. keeps biting me.. although it doesnt hurt at all... but the saliva is super irritating!!! are dogs really men's best fren?? i think the rabbit yesterday much more fun... hahaa... okay.. back to the bbq... not much food to bbq.. cos most of it are cooked... quite a spread actually... got cake also.. i got my hand cut while trying to drag the bbq pit.. newly assembled pit(i did the assembly too)... not too deep lar... maybe abt 1 cm wide... but right at the joint.. so dun think will heal so fast lor... din really eat too much i think... most of the time cooking.. i think that's the best way to lost weight... when i cook i dun like to eat.. cos i want ppl to enjoy wat i cook.. i eat my myself for wat?? haha... i not trying to say i'm a wonderful cook.. but not too bad lar... i'm still in my fren's house, kaiyu's house.. gonna stay here tonight... he drove me home to pick up some stuff and get a quick bath... den later 9am go play basketball @ fengshan cc.. quite a long day.... *yawnzZ*

just got back to old house... spend the evening at esther place.. vball bbq... wasnt really as fun as i expected.. end up i was quite bored... dun really have anyone talking to me... seems to be the case most of the time... so gotta entertain myself most of the time... brought yanli along initially, but she felt left out also.. cos not really anyone to talk to her also... like so sad rite?? i spend most of the time at the bbq pit.. like i always do at bbqs... accompany yanli to the bus-stop after a while... since she was bored, best was for her to go home and rest... no point wasting time... yah.. grateful of her understanding... but in the end i stayed also not much achieved..

initially in esther's place still quite okay.. played her their rabbit... very cute... kept playing with it until it went back into it's cage.. after that i ended up on the mahjong table... played quite well actually... won a bit.. but not playing my money that's why can win... if it were my own money sure lost one.. i'm cursed... after mahjong most pple left... awhile later i realised i was the only left other den lihui.. actually i wanted to stay one... wanted to chat with my mei... but no one else but lihui stayed... didnt seem alrite for me to stay.. so i left...

so now i'm in my oldhouse again... tml gotta pack new house.. den afternoon going kaiyu's place for bbq again.. haha... exciting!! :P

just came back from boat quay... went to a ktv pub there.. drink were okay.. beer & cocktail... songs were quite new but the system hang.. den wasted quite a bit of time there lor... the reason we went there was actually one of my cchs classmates, diane works there... haven seen her for years.. still as lian-ish as ever but much much slimmer.. great to see her... quite a few other classmates came... like a small gathering lor.. best thing was she din really remember who i was until she saw me... tsk tsk tsk.. disappointing... huifen & ruobin was there too.. they having good life, plump liaozZ.. hahaa.. nvm.. they wun see this... overall it was quite fun.. sang a few songs only though... oh yah... realised that diane has a beautiful voice too.. so there are so many singers in my class.. hidden dragon crouching tiger... hahaha...

never went vball this morning.. so today quite slack.. just now cycled back to old house... nothing much to do here actually.. just come back to play some games and reply mails... but now since i already setup the network at new house... like no purpose... i'm gonna move my comp there bit by bit... unpacked half of the boxes in new house liaozZ... but everything's still lying aorund on the floor.. and i really htink my room a bit too small.. not much place for me to put stuff... gotta be more compacted... okie lar... off to games again... hehee

finally my wireless network is up

so actually i'm not superman.. why?? cos i didnt make it for training this morning.. overslept.. din go back to new house last nite either.. slept in old house... funny when u move to a place so near.. just cycle here and there can liaozZ.. hahaa..

Muahahaa.. my wireless network is finally up.. soon i'll be moving my old pc here.. and get a new pc for myself... hahaa... me now using my mum's mini sony vaio.. so small.. so hard to used!! haha.. but anyway.. i can use com liaozZ... so now.. my job will be to go pack my, i mean unpack my room... hope cen unpack everything so that i can make space for my new com...

i had a nice dream last nite... hehee...

received 2 calls from job agencies this morning.. seems like a good start to a day... and it kindda was.. one was a customer service @ a call centre, the other is a webpage management one... the webpage one seems more interesting and the other one has kindda rejected me cos it was a perm job not a temp one i was looking for... but at least i got calls... seems like a good start...

meet up with eil & her bro, fung & PS @ bugis where we took bus to JB... went to holiday plaza do get some dvds, shld be able to watch them on friday @ esther's place.. PS & i decided we will not be getting anything for e Xmas Party.. so we'll just go empty handed... suppose to meet esther for dinner one,... but the queue at the customs was horrible when we went there @ 7pm. so we went for dinner in jb instead... after dinner the crowd has clear and traffic was getting smooth...

back in sg, i called esther and met up with her... and along with PS we walked to suntec with the intention of galare waffles... but when we reached there it was already too late.. and since esther wasnt really hungry.. we went home.. i sent esther back to her place.. and she showed me where the pit would be on friday... it was a really nice place lor.. getting more & more envious of her place... if only my place was that big and pretty... hahaa...

i'm back in my old house again... later cycling back to new house to unpack also... hehe... i'm superman!!! going for vball in 8 hrs time!!!

YES!! FInally!! I've moved my stuff to my new house... thanks to vincent & kaiyu... they help me moved my heavy stuff and lent me the van... my mattress, 12 huge boxes, my commissioning sword, fan, etc... all in new house now.. so wat's left in the old house.. my comp... so i'm here in old house again.. just to use the com... haha... the connnection in my new house dunno got wat problem also... just cant seem to get it sorted out... nvm.. for now i'll use my com in the old house.. hehe... wait till i sort out the connection den i'll move the com over...

SUNDAY!! went down to fengshan cc in the morning to play bball with my 06/99 and some others... very energised game... super shagged after playing.. but it was a good workout... played with some of the other players there... my shooting was good.. dribblilng was never good... rebounding was good... overall... i think i has a good game... sweat a hell lot also... hahaa... dun feel so sianzZ liaozZ...

e rest of the day was rather boring... did a little packing... vince is gonna help me move stuff tml with his van... gonna get kaiyu down to help to maybe...

today's not a very good day either... everything started off last nite... i was suppose to pack my room... but i was too tired... and also too sianzZ about failing my driving... i slept... i slept till the next morning.. the movers came in the morning... and i haven packed much... so my mum came nagging at me 1st thing in the morning... asking me to pack pack pack... aarrgghhh!! i was tired and sianzZ... din want to continue packing... needed a good sleep... so me went back sleeping... when i woke up at noon.... my house was pretty much empty less my room... so me gonna move my stuff on my own... luckily i got vincent to help me with his dad's van on tue... so i'll be moving my stuff den... yah.. so no worries about that for now...

i was slowly packing my old stuff... going to throw away lots of stuff this time... the last time i moved i brought all my old stuff.. primary sch... a lot lar... but i also keep a few sentimental items too... like my primary school autograph book... i looked through the entries and noticed something i never knew... all along i thot i was quite close with the gals in my primary school... i read through some of the comments they left.. den i realised... i wasnt really well-liked... infact.. i was quite hated... i was irritating, bad-tempered, small-gased, violent, keeping calling them funny names... and keeping knocking their heads... seems like none really liked me... wat a revelation...

went for jc 06/99 gathering... bbq... went there to claim the spot as main chef.. haha.. like i always do at any bbq... there's always this satisfaction to be able to handle the heat, preparing food and making sure they turn out just nice & not burnt... feels good.. esp when pple recognises my abillity and look forward to taste my cooking.. hahaa.. one of my 06/99 classmate was my primary sch classmate also... so i asked him if i was really that bad those days... even he agrees i was real naughty back den... haizZ...

that kindda sums up my day.. nothing really good happening to me... i wonder how pple think about me now??

hey WPS frens out there!! Am I still that irritating brat??

i really didnt mean to be nasty or mean or even irritating... i guess i was just trying to gain some attention...

does anyone still think i'm irritating?? perhaps this is a good chance to ask for testimonials in my frenster... so ppl.. know wat u could do for my fragile heart??

horrible day...

FAIL!! FAIL!! FAIL!!

so disappointed in myself... the tester and the traffic!! irritating yellow box... lost my license to a freaking yellow box!! did my ciruit okay.. strike kerb once.. but that's only 10pts.. on the road almost halfway through the route.. i got into the yellow box... that's it... suxX!!! now i gotta wait until 20 Jan for my re-test... there goes my dream of driving on Xmas eve... haizZ...

volleyball camp is officially over... quite sad... really like the feeling to wake up... to a full day of vball... is that the life of a pro-vballer?? love that kind of life... train train train.... eat & sleep... that's a good life to me... dun wanna worry about job.. just play vball whole day...

Overall this camp was fun... training and frenlies were good... quite productive i would say.. saw a lot of improvement in alison's game... eileen slowly getting back her setter touch... rachel's spiking getting more power-packed.. zhuanzhen's stoning less... lisi's getting real steady... hahaa.. everyone's good... me?? me getting fatter!! whahaa...

Moving house tomolo... Hello!! GEYLANG!! and goodbye... Balam Road...

2nd nite of camp liaozZ... very tired and quite wasted... play until cramp... jump very hard... but haizZ... 1st right leg cramp... den left leg cramp... in the end.. kena sustituted... haizZ... but before that we the old bird played 2 matches against the Sheares Hall 2nd strong team... we played very well... morale was sky high... and I came up with a new cheer... " T J lim jiu" which means T J drink wine.. cos all of us in that team was at least 18... followed by all the "Ois" we were loud... morale was high and we trashed them... although they were =2nd string team.. the team was not bad...yah... so it was very fun... especially to win them...

also when for my last revision today... tomolo's the real thing liaozZ!! i believe i'll be able to do well... as long as i can pay more attention to the situation on the road and those pesky pedestrians crossing the road... hate jaywalkers... now i know how drivers feel when i cross the road with them zooming pass... SCARY!! but i still jaywalk... hahaa...

pray for me pple!! wish that i will not freak out during the test... wish that i remain calm throughout the whole test period...

suppose to pack my room yesterday nite.. but i was too tired somehow... and i just fell asleep on the bed... so in the end din pack anything... sianzZ.. got a lot of packing to do on the 10th liaozZ... pack everything within 1 day!! arrgghh... jiayou!!

1st day of training camp... really tired now... hands and legs aching.. worst till... i have very serious abrasion on my arms and legs... even have difficulty walking... it's only first day lor... but it was an exciting day... so many pple around during training... great to see everyone... temasek hall was here for frenlies,,, they were good... we werent bad... bad first ball really let us down... i think i had quite a good game... tip top on my services... but setting was really 2nd grade.. really hate the abrasion... only means that my legs are too fat!! keep rubbing against each other... sianzZ... fat... only ate lunch & dinner.. i wonder if i lost any weight... hahhaa...

bought bacardi peach for the kids to drink.. haha... bad example.. but i have to agree that's it's quite a nice drink... hahaa... high liaoZZ!! think i better have a good rest... tml will be another long day... somemore gotta go for driving revision... better do well.. friday's the actual thing liaozZ..

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

was suppose to go JB this morning... but decided not to... cos no one going... remember wat i said about lack of support.. this was one of them... no one going... really wanted to go buy some dvds one... esp get some for viewing during vball camp... but nvm..

changed my plan to KTV instead.. i knew it was last min so i din expect too many ppl to show up... so in the end there was only me, yanli, kaiyu and lisi... lisi came really late.. cos she was stuck at jb.. yah.. she went to get dvds... singing was quite shuang.. sang a lot of songs until voice kindda hoarse liaozZ den lisi showed up.. haha... but i have to admit, lisi had a very nice & strong voice... lot's of power.. and sounds like sun yan zi... so u can imagine how powerful she was... impressive gal...

tml vball camp.. i just hope i wun be there with only me who wants to stayover... wat kind of camp would it be if no one stays over rite?? but this is the impression i'm getting from ppl when i asked who's staying in MSN... it really suxX lor... these kids dun know how to enjoy camping life... it's about the company...

quite proud with something i did last nite... well more of wanted to do lar... it was gradnite for the yr2s esther was out till... real late... so me agreed to pick her up if needed.. although i couldnt drive yet, i could take a cab down to fetch her home... din really stay a wake whole nite lar... but i told myself to sleep as lightly as possible so that as long as i hear a msg coming in i could wake up and go pick her... yah.. that wat i did... just trying to be a good brother for her...

now i suddenly think of commentting on 1 thing... i have 6 sisters in total, well 5 godsis & 1 real sis from 88... 1 for each yr in between... i'm from 82...

a sis from 83... gotta know her from irc a long long time back when i was in cchs... she's one of the 1st few ppl i gotta know online... she's qiwei aka babyg.. kindda lost touch with her after i quit irc but somehow found her again in friendster and now back on msn... yeah!

a sis from 84... wenyi... my vball junior in cchs.. a very nice gal... tall yet gentle... always give me the impression that she's getting bullied... maybe that's why i wanna be her kor... was hoping she would confide in me whenever she has any problems... so that i could help her.. recent yrs she was really quite messed up with her relationship probs.. but now it's all cleared and finally she seems happy again... jiayou ba!! realised recently she has a few other kors.. i was quite jealous initially... but come to think of it... i got even more meis... hehee.. :)

a sis from 85... shuling... felt really quite sad about this relationship... back in cchs, we were really close... we could talk on the phone almost everynite... really fun back den... but since i first had a gerfren... the calls stop.. and contact really became very very seldom... quite depressing...

a sis from 86... esther... one of my recent adoptions hehe... tj vball junior.. real nice gal... with an amazing appetite... really pretty too.. e best part... she makes me feel really worthwhile being her brother... she makes me feeled noticed...

a sis from 87... alison... also tj vballer,, but she used to play basketball back in secondary school... improved quite a lot since joining... tough gal who looks kindda delicate & spoilt brat... hahaa... haven really called me kor since e nite i adopted her... yah... but nonetheless.. she will still be my mei... :)

although i have so many meis.. i try my best to care for everyone... as long as they are willing to share watever problems they have... i would willingly do anything i could to help... the last thing that i wanna see is for them to drop a tear... sometimes when i couldnt do anything... it really breaks my heart... really love them all...

i cut my hair today... real short now... no more irritating fringe that stubs into my eyes all the time... yah.. so now i'm clean.. haha... can concentrate on the vball more... hope to play better also... there's this trend.. i usually lose weight faster with my hair short... long hair makes my weight gain faster... so hope can lose soem weight and look better also... haha... dun wann be in a santa costume during x'mas...

spent the rest of day at new house... my new tv is here... and it's huge!! plasma somemore... impressed with my mum... always say no money.. and yet... whaahaa!! always must buy the branded and expensive stuff... and i've decided wat to do with my plain room... i'm gonna buy posters... many posters... and fill up the walls... hahahaa... movie world!! here i come... gonna visit m'sia someday to buy them... posters in sg are too disgustingly expensive...

starting to get sick of being the one who is asking pple out... response is seldom very encouraging... asked till quite sianzZ... but if i dun do the job.. den no one do.. den nothing gets done... that's somehting i learnt in the army... the only way to get things done is to start doing it urself... that's why after Ns, or rather since OCS i was doing such stuff very actively... get pple together... go out... sometimes when response is good... it really brings up ur morale... that's why i'm still doing it..

so pple out there!! gimme ya support!! VOTE FOR ME!!

had a fun drive in the carpark today again... initially quite challenging cos got a lot of pple cleaming the carpark.. den gotta siam them and their ladders as i drive around... yah.. practised my parallel parking in my carpark too... not bad lar... more practise is always good.... gonna have soem really driving training tml... better do well... hope i do well... jiayou jiayou!!

spent almost the whole day at my new house... doing wat?? practically nothing.. move some of my army stuff there in the morning.. den spend the rest of the day there on my new sofa.. watching dvd... the new sofa wasnt really that comfortable somemore... din know why my mum chose that fabric.. feels exaxtly like sitting on my bath towel... and it collects lot of dust... e only good thing about it is that it's really huge... hehe... big enough for me to lie on... that's big...

highlight of the day was when mummy told me to go warm-up my uncle's car which is in our carpark... haha... that meant... hahaa.. i took it for a drive in a carpark... haha... very shuang... the car very smooth.. very nice to drive.. yah.. me went a few round in the carpark.. did some practices on my parking... and quite happy with my results... hahaa... oh yah... this shld stay only in my blog.. hehee...

planning to go to jb for dvds & dinner on tuesday... anyone interested to go.. just drop me an sms...

3 more days to vball camp & 5 more days to driving test... JIAYOU!!

boring saturday

did a little packing of my room yesterday, realised i have lots of stuff from my primary school days still around... time to chuck them aside... anyone noes wat paint is best for repainting my discolored trophies??

went out shopping for X'mas stuff today... did really get anything that i wanted... but got something to start with.. just for fun.. dun even know if it would work out in the end... well... we shall see...

for now.. i'm lazing away again....

WOULD MONEY JUST START FALLING UPON ME??

Aarrgghh my back...

Went for volleyball this morning despite a very very painful back... din regret going but i felt i was kindda useless... could do much... cant really jump... timing totally off if i were to try to spike the ball... in a nutshell.. it suxX... gotta lose some weight.. fast... or else this problem is gonna come back and haunt me again... my back better heal fast or next week i'll be a cripple at the vball camp... hate that... luckily i can still drive...

went for lunch with dear, esther, jass, lihui & yinglan at yoshinoya... very long never eat that liaozZ... very nice... love the rice.. love the beef.. love the teriyaki chicken... love the chilli pepper too... haha.. we were at a 3 by 3 table.. i sat at 1 corner.. dear was opp, lihui to my left, opp her was jass, left of lihui was esther den finally yinglan opp her.. during the meal i would reach across lihui's bowl for the chilli pepper... den after a while esther would reach across lihui's bowl also for the chilli pepper.. haha.. so funny.. den lihui was like.. "the chilli very nice meh??" hahaa...

stay at home all day... so sianzZ.. no one... just computer & me... dear went dinner with her uni frens... no one cook or buy dinner for me... haizZ.. why so ke lian... dunno why also... nvm lar... skip dinner tonite... haha...

tomolo going to go look for some christmas pressie for gathering at esther's place on the 17th... i hope i can make it so everyone has something.. or maybe just the gals... i have to confess.. i am biased.. hahaa

guess wat?? i woke up late again... hahaa.. cos no one gave me morning call... i sleep real early the day before... but dunno why cannot wake up in time.. so i was late for training... today only exactly enough guys to play 2 teams... very fast paced and attacking... exciting... but very very tiring.. now i cant even extend my back backwards... wonder tomolo cant still play or not... or maybe i was too tired after yesterday's training... cos cant jump jigh at all... cant spike a single ball.. lucky i was the setter...

after vball was driving again!! 8 more days before i take the deciding drive... today was quite smooth going... stall a few times... and some stupid lapse in concentration here and there... but overall still alrite...

my back still hurts!! argh!!

i've been trying to get together a tj alumni vball team... the main idea is actually to get guys together to play this game that we all love... response hasnt been all that encouraging... excuses here and there... haizZ... just make some time... come on down... how difficult is that??

i woke up early today... went for vball at tj... ON TIME!! hahaa... so long never on time liaozZ... yah... have great fun playing vball today... very long never see so many people liaozZ... exams over for almost everyone... so today there were pple who just finished O's, A's, Uni exams... overcrowded in fact... but it was great to see everyone back.. if only this would continue longer... TJVB would definitely be very very strong...

went to sign up for wireless broadband today... will be able to use it soon after i mov to my new house.. meanwhile.. still have to endure this dum dum slow comp... hope my buddie, silie get free soon... den he can help me assemble a new comp!! hahahaa.. new house.. new room... new wireless... new comp!! so exciting!! whahahaa.... but i still broke!! this is CRAP!!

laziness

Laziness is something in-born to everyone. I believe everyone is lazy in one way or another. Me? I'm plain lazy,

lazy to study, but i'll do my work if i have to...
lazy to exercise, unless i'm forced to...
lazy to look for job, even though i know i seriously need one now...

laziness is not an illness, it's a mental weakness. which means i'm mentally weak, which is quite true. i can seldom tell myself to work against my body. which explains why i'm so lazy to exercise. Even if i tell myself now that i will not be lazy anymore, when i wake up tml.. i'm just too lazy...

Although lazy, but there are things that i'll do... like eat.. no matter how lazy i get.. i'll still eat & drink and sleep.. but can u believe there are ppl out there who are lazy to eat, drink or sleep!! WACKY WORLD!!

i woke up late today again... woke up @ almost 10am... so decided not to go vball... so went back to sleep... and just concentrate on driving later... driving was good today.. got a sleeping instructor... sleep all the way.. hahaa... like driving on my own.. yah... sometimes gotta drive a bit jerky at the junctions to wake him up.. haha... but overall i'm quite happy with my driving today... not much problem... other den i think i drive too slowly... even van and buses can overtake me.. haha...

i'm back from KL.. KL was rather boring actually... why?? cos after a high note in hongkong / taiwan.. how fun can KL be rite?? no shopping cos all was already done... and also i'm quite broke... so wat did i do there?? hmmm.. eat.. walk around.. eat... walk around till tired... go for massage.. eat again... that's basically it... oh yah.. i took a day at genting too... but also quite sianzZ.. cos i could not go in.. but not cos i was underage.. but cos i wasnt wearing a collared shirt.. lame.. worst.. they dun allow me to carry bags in.. duhzZ.. DO I LOOK LIKE OSAMA!??

went to my new house to wait for my cabinets to arrive... not really too excited about the finishing.. cos things dun look as good as i thot... although not bad lar... gotta make do with watever little space i have in my puny little room... maybe next week i'll post a pic of my room here...

overall quite a boring and waste money weekend... but on the bright side.. i did spend some good time with yanli.. and my cchs buddies during the trip to KL... well that's the silver lining.. hahaa..

KL going to KL

i'm quite happy with wat i did with this site yesterday.. at least now it has the bare minimum to look more like a blog that i want.. with the links and tagboard... yupzZ... that's good... let me promote again... go see my pictures... i have lots of pics there... haha... just for fun lar...

tonite, 11pm , i'll be going to KL... really sounds quite lame... yah.. rachel reminded me abt this... :P i believe i'll be quite broke when i get back on sunday... hahaa... i'm still living off my savings... spent 2 yrs to save $4800... but i finishing it in 2 months... sounds so not worth it... hahaa...

I, Me, Myself...

i think i'm a very fickle minded person, i can never make up my mind... but yet... i can control my desires quite well... why do i say that?? because if i'm at dilemma, i can simply tell myself to take which option... and i have learnt no to regret the decision that i make... sometimes we just have to learn that some decisions will only show if they are rite after some time.... initially it may seem wonderful, but as time unfolds we may find out that things will turn out just fine.... so maybe i'm just a born gambler... just try my luck.. things might turn out fine...

i have always been a very lucky person... many decisions that i made, turn out to be very good ones... for example, i have a wonderful girlfriend who really really cares for me and pamper me... i am nice boyfriend too mind you! haha... my academic results have been quite good all the while.. and my NS life... was simply heavenly... the best life a person can get for those 2.5 yrs... aircon room everyday... non-physical... so good that i wanted to sign-on... but ultimately i failed to do so... perhaps there's just something better install for me out there...

i am now fat... i like to eat... this is something i hate to control... yes i can control it.. and i did before... but i was happy about it other den i look better den before... i wanna eat!! i dun like to waste food and really find uncleared plates a serious eye-sore.. so i gotta finish them no matter wat... i eat and drink a lot... i guess many of my frens shld know by now...

i like to play sports.... badminton.. basketball... bowling.. volleyball... i can last very long playing games... but if u ask me to run... after 10mins... i'll be totally sick of it... not tired of it... so ppl out there... ask me out for sports k!! not running!! :P

i seldom dare to talk to strangers,, sometimes i will pro-actively talk to ppl... i dunno where i get that courage from... but yah.. sometimes only... sometimes i talk because i wanna get some attention on me, cos most ppl wun automatically ask about me or get interested in my life... whereas i like to know all about my frens... i try to remember everything they tell me... but forgive me.. my memory fails me quite often...

i like to think i have lots of frens... lots of ppl i can look for when i need help... but the truth is there aint many and quite often i feel depress cos of that... i'd like to have pple care for me... wanna help me when i look weird... cos that would be the things i'd do for others... but i know i cant ask ppl to do that... but if they ever do.. i'll be so glad... sometimes when i get depressed... i tend to forget... thru all these time... there was always someone who will be there for me... yanli... i just love her... she's wonderful... although sometimes she also need hints to tell her i'm in a not so good mood...

guess that's about it for my first entry... so until next time when i find something interesting to add... that shld take too long...