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This shld be considered a backdated post.. i just wanna share what i have done for yanli for this year's X'mas... so now let the pictures do the talking... :P

10 Habits for a successful KELUN in 2007

It's the time of the year when ppl start thinking about new year resolutions again. time and time again, i've set out tasks for myself to achieve.

these are my resolutions for this year:

1. lose weight
2. pass IPPT
3. CAP > 3.5
4. be nice to yanli
5. make some frens

out of which, i only achieved being slightly nicer to yanli, and that's only my opinion. the rest of my tasks i failed terribly. perhaps i was setting my goals a little to high. i shld be looking at the smaller steps first. so these will be my 10 things to remind myself for 2007

1. ask for less carbs in my meals(ie. less rice/noodles). reducing diet slowly, make myself eat less, even when i'm very tired after workout.
2. spend at max $3 meal, especially when in school.
3. buffets only happen once a month, so does pig trotters.
4. visit my swimming pool at least twice a week, at least 45mins each time. anyone who wanna join me please do so by informing me at least a day prior.
5. max of 2hrs of tv+games+ each weekday. 6hrs on weekends.
6. at least 3hrs each day on concentrated studying(excluding lesson hrs). to achieve this i'll have to spend time before/in between/after lessons in school cos to home just doesnt work.
7. dun put on a glum face for anyone, try to smile more, even for strangers, but especially for people i know
8. be nicer to people around me, dun reject helping just because i'm lazy(as long as i rethink why i reject helping ppl, most of the time is cos i'm lazy. but if u ask me at that pt, i just come up with some lame reason.)
9. at least 6 hrs of continuous sleep each day, (ie. sleep by 1am)
10. finally make sure i stick to all my above rules. people around me who see me, please help me by reminding me. thanks!!!

so that's it, i believe these 10 habits will help me make 2007 a successful year for myself and the people around me.

Results

I've gotten my results for last sem yesterday, it was rather disappointing actually, 3 sems into NUS, and my best grade is only a B+, and that was in my 1st sem. Anyway, this sem alone, my CAP was 3.2, last sem was 2.0, first sem was 3.3. All in all, a pretty discouraging CAP of 2.76, but it was some improvement.

next sem, i'm going to challenge myself. i'm going to take 6 modules, 4 core, 1 yr 1 module(retaking cos got F), and 1 Sg studies module. well that's not the challenge, it's studies plus vball.. i'm going to participate in IVP and also coach back in TJ.. i think this really sounds challenging. time is of the essence. no time to waste at all. must keep working non-stop. no more watching cable, playing games.

Now, all i really need is a transport. if only i could afford my own car, a small one will do... :P

Boxing Day

Christmas is over and it's boxing day, a day when all presents will be unwrapped. this shld be the happiest day of the holiday season for most kids. alas, i'm no longer a kid, so this day doesnt seem to hold much meaning for me. ya, that's cos i dun have any presents to unwrap. :(

i guess this yr's christmas is one of the most uneventful one i've ever spent. literally did almost nothing except eat and sleep through the day. but the weirdest part is still this feeling of depression which sort of engulfed me, from the moment i woke up. from that point on, i had a frowning, sulking face hanging for the rest of the day. i think that kindda spoilt yanli's christmas too. i'm sorry. i tried to explain to myself why i would feel so down. but as i look for answers i found TOO many, that kindda made me felt worst.

so i have so many things to feel down about? exam results, sch reopening, coaching, packing up my stuff.

i was still alrite on christmas eve, was still sending everyone "merry X'mas" messages.. was watching "A night in the museum", i think i started becoming quiet during the show, everyone was laughing away, while i was giving only a quiet grin. i din know wat was going thru my head then... but i guess i know now, cos there seems to be endless stuff for me to do and time seems to be slowly creeping away from me. and this sucks, i guess...

supposed to have volleyball training this morning, but i have been coughing the whole day since yesterday, so i gave it a miss. i wanted to go for training, cos i thought i would make me feel better, forget abt all the down stuff. but the coughing was really killing me.. *cough* Cough*

exam results will be out tml... *fingers crossed*

1st Test Of Skills

this morning tj gals got their first taste of somewhat competitive volleyball. they had a frenly match with cchs. physically the cchs gals seem rather tall, though they were only 14/15 yr olds. the results turned out to be rather disappointing, tj lost 4-1. cchs wasn't considered a strong opponent, but basics wise they have a much stronger background compared to our gals. it was a matchup that was decided on who made the most mistakes. successful attack were far and few. what's encouraging was that most of the players in the courts were not the strongest we have. i would say that our key players would be yumei, shiyun & vanessa. among them, yumei and vanessa only play one set, and shiyun was still in thailand. the team was made of of quite a few beginners like yanting and alicia, both played pretty well. i hope that this match has given them a glimpse of the arduous task they have ahead of them. it's an uphill battle, but they have to understand they are not alone.

oh yah, meiyan - thanks for the socks. haha..

Busy Day

it's been a long long week. there was quite a few unusual things had happened in this short span of 5 days. mainly related to volleyball training. but i felt the most disappointing thing with regards to training is their attendance. compared to the beginning when i took over, the attendance this week was pathetic, yesterday only 4 guys turns up for training, plus one more whose appeal to tj was rejected, so 5 guys. i was having a huge headache as to wat drill to conduct, if i were to do PT instead, it would be double strenuous for a small group. really headache. gals attendance still not to bad, the least was 8, but that's like half the original number of them. sometimes i wonder, if it's me coaching them, that's y they feel that training is not as impt, that would have been very very depressing for me.

there were also incidents with a player struggling to cope with progress in training, which led to the involvement of tj's 2 VPs to talk to me. well, i thought i would have been able to handle them well, and i thought i did. but when wanyang spoke to them, i realise the way i spoke was rather, kiddish. anyway, the matter was somewat resolved. all in all i am confident in my responsibilities, i know wat are the personalities and intricacies i shld take note of, i believe i did not fail.

yesterday's the last training for this holiday. training will only resume after school reopens, which is only like less than 2 weeks later, at the same time, my school term will start too, and IVP will also kick into action. I have a huge question mark now, as to how i'm suppose to juggle all these stuff happening at the same time. but these will be my priority list:

1. school
2. tj coaching
3. IVP

this will be a test for me, in the past i've turn away many times when faced with time issues. next sem i would really have to juggle my time carefully, cos i wun have much or even any to spare.

there's 2 gatherings going on yesterday, one at kaiyu's place, the other at esther's place. i decided to go to kaiyu's place first to grab some food before going to esther's it turn out to be a rather wrong choice. wasted quite a lot time at esther's place rotting away. i left kaiyu's place too early, so din take photo with them. quite sad abt that cos alot of ppl from our class turn up. but i did take some photos over at esther's place, quite happy about that, but pity ZZ left too early, she was in such a persistant mood to leave. none of us could stop her. duhzZ...

anyway, the photos will be uploaded into the fotopic site very soon. just remember to check the side bar for updates.

Here comes Week 2

I'm looking forward to my 2nd week in charge of the tj vball teams. I need to instill more discipline and self-responsibility in the players. after a week, i can tell that some are commited to learning the game. while some simply are there just to waste time, both mine and theres. thankfully, i see hope. cos most of them listen and has shown progress and changes in attitude. let's see if i'm really cut out to be a coach in the coming week.

At the same time, NUS will be coming down to tj for their trainings. It's gonna be taxing for me.. coachings monday to friday, plus nus trainings tues and thurs. woah.. time to get fit fit fit..

Coaching is Fun yet Taxing

Today i have a break from having to coach everyday, cos badminton's having camp in school today, so guys training was actually brought forward to yesterday.

Finally, i'm getting a hang of the traits of coaching. it's not as easy as it looks. but once put your mind too it, it's not that hard. as long as u think on the line of improving your players potentials, life becomes much easier as long as you know what to be done. the initial stages is the toughest cos i'm not familiar with them yet, nor do i know wat their strengths and weaknesses are. but i believe as training progresses, i'll be able to understand them better and coaching will become more effective.

End of Training Week 1

today i had my 1st solo training session, had to lead the tj guys through training.. having a solo makes me understand the difficulties in being a coach. when there's a another coach around, all i had to do was follow instructions, carry out the training drills, pick out their mistakes and correct them. when i lead, i have to so all of the above and decide what drills to carry out and sometimes, not all drills are effective. sometimes the effectiveness is not there, depending on the mentality of the players. that's another huge thing to deal with, the personalities of all these players, some have huge egos, others seem as if they are autistic.

basically, it's a difficult task handling training. it makes me appreciate coaches and other teammates who make the effort to conduct trainings. luckily wanyang came down today to help out in training. otherwise i would be quite lost.

there's just one other irritating thing about going back to tj, u have to face the brainless OM idiot.. and some dumb security guards.. picks on me for wearing slippers into school and not signing in.. one of the guards recognises me, so it's usually fine for me to just go in.. but when that dumb OM is around he bitches about slippers.. and this morning.. i waved at the security guard, he smiled back at me, and i just walking in, but there this other one who seem quite lost.. and apparently he when to report to OM abt me not signing in.. WAT an Asshole.. den OM came to find me at the court and KPKB.. saying he can call police.. blah blah blah... in a nutshell.. a waste of my time.. almost spolit my day...

It's the End.. It has COME!!

hehee.. exams are finally over.. although i dun think i'll get fantastic results.. but i think i wun fail any.. yah.. time to have fun for the rest of the holidays.. oh yah.. my holdays have started.. hahaha...

next up will be a month filled with volleyball trainings. both being trained and training others... first official stint as a trainer... time to gain experience for future development...

Day 3 - 2nd Last Day!!

3rd paper of the exams is over.. seemed do-able.. but that's not a good sign for us.. esp when there's plenty of foreigners in our cohort.. i just hope they dun all get full marks.. that would totally destroy my chance of getting a good result.. anyway... i felt more confident after doing this paper comapred to the last 2.. simply cost i was able to answer more qns.. just for the sake of ppl who dun know my exam format.. for all my papers this semester.. there's only 4 qns, each worth 25 marks... maybe it's coincidence.. maybe not..

went to eat ma la huo guo again for a 2nd time this week.. quite shiok.. haha.. this stall that i go to doesnt make my ass burn the next day.. so it's good.. :P i'll do a small write up soon at my food site.. stay tuned yah??

oh yah.. most imptly.. 2nd last day of exams.. tml is last paper.. and it's open book!! yeah!!

End of Exam Day 2

Day 2 has ended.. i'm half way thru the exams.. and i'm pretty depressed about my progress so far... i know i wun be able to get any As from the last 2 papers.. and i doubt i'll be getting any from the next 2 papers as well..

depressing sums up my feelings for this examination till now..

the bravest man, recovers from defeat and strive into victory..

well, i'm the laziest brave man, and the dummest too.. why??

cos i always recover from defeats, and strive to work harder, but i always lose steam in the end, just cos i was too lazy to carry on.. and why am i e dummest... cos i will repeat the whole procedure again very very soon... it's worst than a vicious cycle, it's a vicious cycle that i cant escape from...

Examinations - Day 1

it's really really hard to concentrate on studying.. esp when it seem there's so many other things better to do.. i only just finished my helpsheet for today's paper a while ago.. paper's at 1pm... gonna take a nap now... it's gonna be a grueling 4 days...

An Old friend

Just came back after meeting up with a very old fren.. not that she's old.. it just i havent seen her in like 8 yrs.. yup.. that's abt it.. haven seen her since secondary school.. basically she went canada after O lvl's, the last time she came back it was 5 yrs ago. i was in army then, so i didnt get the chance to meet up with her.

so yah, she's back for a fren's wedding.. and we took the chance to meet up with her.. kaiyu, tenghui, silie and i, we met up with her at bugis and brought her along to tong shui.. it was kindda hard getting her out initially, tried a few weekends but she was always flying somewhere else.. cos she was busy with lots of other stuff.. somehow got her out today.. only to realise she's leaving next week.. that's so soon.. maybe the next time we meet, it will be me visiting her in canada..

not seeing her for so long made me almost forgot about her existence... meeting up with her brought back tons of memories.. i guess i was quite short of words just now, din really know wat to say or ask her.. just some crap talking in the end.. i guess i was overwhelmed by all the images coming back from memory lane.. still thinking about the past, and suddenly remembering all the nooks and crannies.. quite amazing actually how much i have in my memory, stuff which i din even know i remembered... but apparent i remembered quite alot abt her.. that's the fun part abt see someone u haven seen in a very very long time..

Exams and holidays

Lessons are over for now.. no more lectures and tutorials.. it's now time for revision and more revision.. exams will be starting next week.. ending next week too.. 4 days of exams.. 4 papers... all in the afternoon.. just hope i can do well.. i really need the good results to pull up my grades.. let's see how well i can do..

been back to tj for training/coaching.. guys only barely enough ppl, and they are not very good either.. dun have a convincing team to put up... as for the gals.. they have plenty of people as usual.. but the interesting thing i realised is that almost all of them are from TA.. that means 15/16 year olds.. very small.. that explain why their skills are still quite amaturish.. but the good thing is there's still time to train.. and i hop ei can make something out of it...

schedule recently is quite packed.. and i'm really trying to get enough rest.. i'm so so so drained now.. there's supposed to be training at 730am tml.. but i told fung i'm going to skip it.. cant take it.. need more rest.. and i have to study... will be back on the court on thurs...

孤军作战

歌曲名：孤军作战 (小孩不笨2电影主题曲)
所属专辑：独角兽
演唱：洪俊扬
曲-杨波 词-梁智强

我们肆无忌惮
我们成群结党
我们目无尊长
对什么事都不满
看著我们的成长
只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处看你又能怎样
我们don't give a damn
那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是
我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会
渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙
学校老师束手无策
父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了
我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书
就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们
就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们
为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁崽嫖颐窍胂?BR>苹果为何会变烂
其实我们也曾努力
要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟
给了我们多少希望
泪水已经流干
前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂
我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望


I like this song... :P

Change of Tides

after today, there will be no more tests left.. wat's left ahead is just the exams... no more rushing to mug for a test.. wat's left is just week long muggings for a full paper... has anything changed?? plenty have changed.. and plenty remains the same..

how am i to keep on going in this boring and tiresome lifestyle? how shld i motivate myself to keep moving while everyday i'm losing a few paces, lagging a little more.. I must not give up yet.. lagging i may be.. but at long as i keep moving on.. there will be a chance of catching up..

**Euphoria** :)

I'm so happy that the perhaps the toughest friday of the semester is now over.. i'm done with the assignments for this week and also the test.. it turns out that the test was pretty easy... and i'm glad i spent the previous nite completing my assignments.. now i can relax a little this weekend..

i'm so so tired when i finished the test.. my stomach was growling like mad.. can feel my stomach turning inside out.. ouch.. it kindda started hurting.. but i drank some water and slept it away on the bus home.. and i thought to myself.. i think i shld eat something, like a reward for myself for completing my work and surviving thru it, even if it's for now.. so i ate chicken cutlet at a coffeeshop near my place.. the food was not bad.. but i seriously have never seen a thinner looking piece of chicken.. amazingly thin.. anyway after food i went home and totally knocked out in front of my TV...

i only woke up around 10plus, just in time for my online meeting at 11pm.. hahaa.. wonderful mental clock.. sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt... haha..

anyway i JUST came back from some supper with tenghui and silie.. and tenghui has more and more to talk about his business idea.. which is still very very vague to me.. and pretty much unrealistic.. but i shall not write him off yet.. cos sometimes u need such ppl to spark a wonderful idea.. so yah.. keep on disillusioning.. hehe...

Zombified

It's been a very long time since i used this word. But this word totally describe me today. I'm like a walking corpse, with totally no knowledge of anything happening around me. yupzZ.. that's zombified.. reached school at just after 8am to do my com lab report... manage to finish 95% in like 5hrs... but i kept dozing off.. really had to struggle to keep myself awake..

after which i was just drifting around classes till now.. totally have no will to say anything or give any expression other den my zombied look.. some ppl did notice i was looking damn tired.. which i really was...

still have volleyball training later on.. i'm really wondering if i can keep this up.. huge test on friday which i haven studied.. and 2 assignments also due on friday, which i coincidentally also haven started doing.. yah.. that's e problem..

i'm feeling so zombified... i cant think...

Period Of Absence & Delirium

i've been MIA'd from blogging for sometime.. pretty much longer den usual i would say.. it's not that i dun have anything to say.. it just i feel so tired.. so so tired.. just din have e energy to load the webpage and talk about my day or past few days..

it's the period of the semester when all datelines and exams are converging together.. and that creates trememdous amount of stress.. however i've been able to hang on.. for now.. but this has taken a toll on me.. my body is no longer used to long hrs of studying.. plus vball training.. plus housework.. yah.. it just seems there's not enough time.. not enough energy..

it has come to the point that my mind is kind of saturated.. it's taking me more and more effort to understand anything.. i just cant seem to think properly anymore.. cant seem to think straight.. my whole strain of thought seems to be screwed up... so is right, wrong? or wrong, rite? wat's rite?? wat's wrong??

How Impt is Work? More work = less time.

Just how important is your work? Does your life depend on it? Will you die without it? Or will u just not feel right without doing it? People view and value their work differently. The level of responsibility and commitment differs on an extensive range.

Personally i feel work should belong only in the workplace and only during the specified workhours which was agreed upon when the job is promised. I understand that this is sometimes not possible, therefore i can accept overtimes perhaps at a rate of 10-15%. I feel beyond that is plainly overcommitment which will mean overnegligence in many other aspects in life. Life is not just about work, work is essential as it give us the experience and money to self-sustain. If the job is also a personal interest, it just make the job slightly easier.

But when the job becomes over-consuming, we have to think through our processes and priorities. We have to ask why are things progressing so slowly, what's wrong with the process and immediately make changes to it so that things can get back on track asap. Plainly trying to put more hours into the work and not solving the root which is causing the problem will not help get the job done faster. It will only cause more problems to surface as you carry on. It like a leak in a dam, if all you try to do is to patch up the leak and not think about releasing the pressure from behind, all you get will be more leaks spring up as you try to patch up more cracks. It a vicious cycle, and it just keeps on spiraling until you feel that it's normal.

No, it's not normal at all. It's a very big problem waiting to explode. Sometimes while you are involved, immersed in the situation, you don't see the big picture. You just get so engross about solving your little part of the problem and hope everything else will just go well and fall into place. This is when you need someone to tell you that, there's a problem. And the problem is not on the surface, but right at the roots. And this is when, you face a very very tough decision. Often we will not have the resources to solve the problem at both ends, i.e. patch the cracks and relieve the dam pressure at the same time. And just as often, the root requires much more effort and time to solve as compared to surface problem. That's why most people choose to constantly patch up the crack.

Like I just said, it's a tough decision facing a snowballing issue. But when sometimes you just have to make the TOUGH choice. Relieve the dam pressure, although it's gonna take a while and most likely a few areas are going to get flooded due to the cracks not being repaired. But it is the tough choice, you lose some areas at first, but you save even more from the fate of a dam burst. And that's the big picture. So what's the rationale in working overtime almost everyday, when the only problem you are trying to solve, doesnt really solve the problem?

When leaks appear, it's never without reason. Please look at the root of the problem at the larger scale and stop wasting time patcing up holes here and there. Utimately you could have spent 40hrs patching up 40 holes while you could have just spend 36hrs diverting some of the dam water to another river.

Sometimes it's just your attitude, come on and toughen up against the problem. It's like making another tough decision, even though you personally have chosen to solve the problem at the root. You'll just have learn when to stop patching up cracks only, and start addressing the real problem. There will always be people who may not see your point, and people who will be at the receiving ends of the unpatched leaks. You have to brave through those people and make the correct decision, some people just have to wake up their ideas and they won't know pain until it really hurts. Some people will just have to be sacrificed for the greater good...

Monitored LIfe

I suddenly have some IDEAS in my head and I din want it to be together with the last post cos it's totally irrelevant, i think.

It's about monitors.. Firstly, what are monitors? they are just like windows, but they are windows that show us images BEYOND reality. The first monitor that enter the life of the human race is the Redifusion, or simply the black & white TVs.. yupzZ.. that's the generation one of the little black box..

the little black box has totally chaged the world.. the TV has becomed from a pure form of entertainment & pasttime to an addiction, turning everyone of us into lifeless zombies(in nicer words coach potato, technically they are very much the same). the little black box has enable people to receive knowledge about the entire world by just a flick of a button.. Maybe if u weren't that obsessed with that black box, you would really lead a much more meaningful,eventful,fruitful life..

dun believe me?? dun think people are obsessed?? just look back.. since when is a drama series a must do thing in our life? remember how depressed you would become if u missed the last episode?? how about being so engrossed watching vcd/dvd until eat and sleep becomes unimportant?? or being totally oblivious to ur family calling at you while u watch ur fav comedy?? "knowledge cravings", when one shows ends, u switch channels and look for something else to dwell ur mind into... that's obsessed..

however TV is evil no.2 nowadays.. now's the IT age.. and the number 1 EVIL goes to... *drumroll*... the computer monitor. Everyday, almost everyone would face a computer monitor.. it's no longer just wat the tv decides to show you, the computer and the internet give u the power and control to chosoe watever, whenever you wanna see... it has becomed a way of life.. it's not just entertainment like TV.. it's much more den that.. it's work,communication and many more..

see how the monitors are appearing everywhere and taking over our lifes.. and how i can i leave out the latest doll of the IT industry since the late 90s?? the HandPhone.. dun forget the screen u have on ur HP.. it's a monitor too!! now everyone has a portable monitor.. when was the last time u ever get onto a public transport which has NOONE using a HP?? not in the last 20 yrs i tell you...

have u ever wondered.. as we look into the monitor and see an image.. there might be someone staring right back at us and we dun even know it.. better still.. that someone is telling us to do things right now.. which we dun even realise.. aint that scary?? not possible?? well i seriously believe it is possible.. just that no one is crazy enough to try it out yet.. just imagine planting messages into the computer images which isonly recognisable by the brain and not the eye... or radio frequencies in the sub-audible ranges... i could be telling to transfer all ur $$ into my account this very moment..

anyway.. dun worry just yet.. i'm just in the mood to tell stories.. k back to my main point.. Our lifes are so filled with monitors and maybe cameras.. everything we do is being scrutinised and watched.. pretty much like the events in the move "enemy of the state".. no wonder more and more ppl are running back into the woods..

one day monitors will become non-physcial.. like the holographic stuff we see in sci-fi movies.. yupzZ.. that's the future for monitors and e future for us.. We are not living in the age of computer or IT.. We are living in the age of MONITORS...

A Week On

it's been a week since my last post and YET i have nothing much to say.. i haven done anything much in school this week.. felt really like shit for e past few days... maybe it's my PMS (Personal Mental Syndrome) kicking in.. it's just the time of the month when i start feeling low esteemed and super discourage about everything and a severe lack of motivation to do anything..

but i hope it's getting better, cos i'm finally starting to do some work.. been in front of the comp doing work for the past 5 hrs or so.. so yah.. perhaps the engine is re-starting again.. but i have stuff to catch up this time... i'm no longer ahead of time like i was in the past few weeks.. just a few days of slacking and now i'm behind time.. that's how fast-Paced uni is..

well.. today in gonna be a long long day in school.. 9am to 4pm.. after which there's IFG vball.. shld i go down for IFG or shld i just hide somewhere and study/do tutorials?? perhaps i'll do both..

seriously, life is definitely not just about studying.. NOR is it only about playing Games...

Tough Week

it's been a tough start to the week.. physically.. IVP training on monday, and that almost killed me totally... the training was slightly for physical den normal.. and i was totally drained.. even now my back and chest are stil aching.. really unfit..

fell really sick yesterday.. think it was my lunch.. contaminated food which i made i guess.. i heated up the food which was in the fridge for like, 1 week.. yah.. my stomach just couldnt hack it.. and i felt like shit the whole nite.. vomited late at nite.. guess wat came out.. it was my lunch.. it was still intact.. so wat's e cause of my weak stomach?? and this morning too i felt like shit.. but i still dragged myself to school.. cos i really felt i would be lost if i din attend the tutorials.. esp when my group mates aint the type who pay attention.. anyway i'm feeling better now.. and it time to head back to the books...

oh yah.. i would be going back to tj to help in coaching.. that's so exciting..

Sunday Blues

it's sunday, and it's giving me pre-monday blues.. why?? cos tml got test, which i haven study for.. mum's not around cos she went cruise.. din go for basketball this morning cos there was poor attendance.. due to even poorer PSI index...

It's a blue blue day.. heh...

Tiring Week

It's been a long long week.. tiring week.. din have much sleep at all.. cos slow work rate and study rate.. so stayed up most of the nites.. played game online too.. been playing this online game Reincarnation for a long time.. u just get hooked onto it.. why?? cos there's so much to learnt in this game.. how to defend, attack, build and many other aspect of e game.. if this were a course in NUS.. it would take plenty of modules.. hahaa.. anyway i'm going to put a link to the game here.. for MY easy access.. ppl interested can go take a look too.. but let me know if u are going to play k.. i dun mind more allies... hehe..

just now went to huiting's "surprise" birthday party.. which wasnt really a surprise.. thanks to her boyfriend's not too good planning.. hahaa.. but ok lar... got frens down.. talk talk, eat eat, play play lor.. usual stuff.. and of cos alcohol.. boring rite?? but yah.. that's the way things goes in this part of the globe.. duhzZ...

looking forward to a weekend of good rest.. still got test on monday..

How small things can affect u greatly, a.k.a. the Butterly Effect

How big a thing is printing alot of notes.. say like 200 pages of it.. on 2 sides.. that makes it like 100 pieces of paper.. for me , it took me almost 3 hrs just to complete that task.. i bought a laser printer to make my notes printing faster.. but it can only print 1 sided.. 2 sided printings have to be flipped manually for printing.. i could have just reduced the page size and just print 2 pages on one side.. but for the sake of readability.. i did the flipping.. and stupid me.. lost so many hrs of sleep cos of that.. esp after a long day in school and vball training..

so 3.30am was the time i finally can pack up.. omg.. by the time i woke up.. it's 10am!! and i was suppose to go to 8am.. 2 hrs late, lucky for me lessons only start at 10am.. well yah.. at least i din miss too much.. just one lecture... managed to reach school in time for my 2nd lesson.. but that cost me $12 in taxi fare.. and i was really struggling to stay awake.. tough man...

lessons ended quite early today.. by 1pm it's end of day.. went to buy a textbook which costs $35 bucks... luckily a fren is going to buy it frm me.. and i'll just photocopy the whole book.. heh.. save a bit of $$, btw my daily budget is only $10.. just one taxi ride has already landed me in deficit.. suckzZ man.. so in order to photocopy the book.. i gave up plans to stay in school to study.. when to katong shopping centre instead.. took 10 from outside HMK..

along the way there was this irriting uncle, whose phone was ringing away and he just refuses to pick up the call.. at first i was thinking if he was just interesting in listening to is monotonic ringtone.. den i realise he's avoiding the calls.. after the stupid song was played like 4 times.. i was on the verge of going up to him and tell him to turn of the ring tone and switch it to silent.. BUT, this indian guy sitting behind me got to him first.. and he was frenly at all.. yell at the man to turn of his phone, saying he was disturbing his sleep, blah blah blah.. heated argument.. but the uncle's phone just went on ringing.. but he got off the next stop.. they even exchange middle fingers as the bus went pass him.. damn comical.. i think i would handled things in a totally different way.. i think...
hahaa..

anyway, he was really disturbing our sleep.. i fell asleep soon after.. and zZzZzzZz.. i overslept.. only woke up at siglap.. so i had to alight and take a bus back to Katong.. still gotta climb overhead bridge.. sianzZ.. but the lucky ting is that i found a shop that manage to get the photocopying done by tml morning.. so i can collect tml.. that's good..

Ever imagine how different this day could be if the notes din take me so long?? A hell load different i tell u.. that's why when i see time travel movies.. sometimes u know it's just now realistic.. cos if ever someone manages to get back in time.. everything little thing he does will just create not just a small change but a whole new different alternate universe... SCARY!!

Starlight Cinema

It 's almost the end of the week long break.. it seem as if it hasnt begun.. why?? cos it felt as if i have not done anything during this week.. neither entertainment nor work.. it felt as if the week has just disappear.. however.. tonight's my last nite of fun.. well thursday shld have been my last day of fun.. somehow it dragged... after tonite.. actually after bball tml morning.. i'll mug.. mug like hell cos i got loads of stuff to do.. SHIT..

anyway back to the point.. it's the highlight of the week.. had a surprise for yanli tonite.. wat is it?? this..

she totally doesnt know anything about it.. well. neither do i.. except i hear on the radio quite often.. and this poster i pass by everyday at aljunied mrt.. so i planned this surprise for her..

starlight cinema = outdoor movie screening.. so i chose tonight... 2 movies.. MI2 & MI3.. and also prepared a lot of food for a picnic.. and i have a new dessert.. it's creme caramel.. pretty good.. looks quite posh.. but real easy to make, although a bit time consuming.. really quite shiok except the sitting on the ground kindda gave me a backache... some vip actually got air beds in the middle of the field.. that's shiok.. i'm gonna find out how to become VIP.. and next yr i'll be shiok too.. hahaha.. anyway.. we had a lot of food and fun.. cos this event is sponsored by Nokia, so they had ppl going around with the new N93 & N73 taking photos and videos for us.. den we'll get to see ourselves on the big screen and also free photo developing done.. heh..

then there was this couple from NUS in front of us.. OMG.. cam whoring.. hahaa.. see their face so so many times.. they must have gone to every sales person.. crazy.. anyway... we took quite a bit of photos ourselves... it's up at my foto site.. go see...

Meeting up with my sis

Met up with my closest sis to date.. spent quite a lot fo time talking to her today.. i wonder if she enjoyed my company.. cos i enjoyed having her around listening to me rattling on and on, on god knows wat.. haha.. sometimes even I have difficulty understanding myself.. we talked about our lives recently, updated about the ppl around us, our love life & future, our recent entertainment, mooncakes tasting, dressing sense well her bf's dressing sense.. yupzZ.. the list goes on.. after finding out more abt her and her bf, i really think she's gonna get married before me.. haha... all in all.. i enjoyed myself with her company..

Thanks Mei, for being my sis, being a patient listener to endure my crapping.

Settler's Cafe

It was suppose to be a class outing, but due to poor response and most of the classmates being busy with one thing or another.. the turn out was poor.. perhaps it's just my poor choice of date.. but luckily few still managed to turn up..

so i would like to say thanks to james, zhangjun, zip and gf for turning up.. otherwise it could have just been me trying to join in the table of nerds next to us.. yuckzZ.. i can imagine that.. the table next to us really very very very veryVERY nerdy...

anyway.. we had fun.. really fun.. we all wished we could stay longer even though we already over-stayed without xtra charge for quite a while.. we stayed till the shop closed.. that's like 11pm.. so i shld say those who din come.. really missed out.. nvm.. there will always be a next time.. and i hope the turnout would be better..

we did take some photos and they have been uploaded at my fotopic.. just follow this link..

Settler's Cafe

Quite Boring Day

the date has been pretty boring till now.. nothing interesting going on.. when for lunch downstairs with yanli and her sis.. and that's like the most exciting thing i did till now for today.. other boring stuff included stuff like sweeping the floor, cleaning up my room, sms-ing and organising 06/99 outing.. but the worst part is still knowing 12/00 bbq was cancelled due to poor response.. that's so sad..

TGIO

New term i heard today and i was passing by KR, it's TGIO.. and it means thank goodness it's over.. interesting although not really 100% accurate.. they had a band preparing to party tonite i think.. but the sem is not OVER!! it's only halfway thru.. next week may be a break.. but!! it's meant for studying and catching up and preparing for the post midterm quizzes.. but watever it is.. it's time for a short short break.. yeah!! anyone wanna go out next week?? i got 06/99 to come out on tuesdays liaozZ.. anyone else wanna fill up my week?? heh..

F sucks

After almost half a year, and ending up in Civil. I shld have accepted my fate, accepted my F in computing. I have been mugging for the past few days.. catching up on my work.. here i am alone in one of the tutorial rooms trying to do some more tutorial.. my only consolation:- i'm getting work done, while i see many ppl losing pace.. Maybe cos i'm damn bored now, getting sianzZ about working through all those senseless questions. so often the reason why i dunno how to do a question is because i dun understand the question, i dunno what it's asking for. if u think arts have essays with hidden meaning, engineering have questions that have hidden theories, equations, numbers, U name it!!

Anyway, the thought and regret of getting an F drifted it's way back into my head... not sure from where.. but it's there.. and it sucks.. suddenly there's so many options, so many different things i could have done in order to not get an F.. but at that period of time, it just din occur to me..

perhaps this is a part of my character, once i start, i wun stop even if i'm failing.. i'll just follow thru in the failure and wallow in self-misery until i suddenly enlighten myself there's other stuff to do.. a slow and painful process..

Pretty good Day

It's a pretty good day today, although it started off pretty late.. like 4plus 5 in the afternoon.. before that i was just lazing away in my bed.. hahaa... that's life.. anyway.. went yumcha for dinner.. the dim dum is still pretty good.. so not bad... eat until quite shuang.. cos go with elders can always just order & order & order.. hahaa..

den later at night went videoEZ to rent vcd with yanli.. she took 2 shows.. i took one.. wanna watch the dorm.. heh... den went bowling with 4e ppl.. that's almost 11pm liaozZ... play 2 games only.. but results not bad.. hahaa.. quite shuang.. just re-motivated myself to buy my own bowling ball.. hahaha..

den finally.. supper at joo chiat.. roti prata.. kindda pissed with the service.. maybe cos no competitors nearby, so they quite yaya-papaya... but the prata was quite good.. crispy.. heh...

as for now.. it's time to sleep or maybe some tv first.. haha..

CG 12/00 Outing

Just now went out with 12/00 ppl.. went to this ktv in chinatown.. it has a very lame name.. ten dollar family ktv... lame rite?? we paid around $12 for 3hrs ktv & a bowl of "sharks fin" hahaa.. not too bad lar.. & 2 drinks too.. the song are also quite updated.. overall.. not bad lar.. as for the singing.. xinwei still the most powerful of all.. impressive.. he makes those songs seem so easy..

after ktv, i managed to psycho them to go Tung Shui.. hahaa.. made them eat the thick toast.. i think i really made quite a bit of business for them recently.. we stayed there for a long long time.. only just got home not long ago..

trying to upload e photos now.. they will be at my fotopic very soon.. go see see k..

Kitty Sleep

That's a very very good example of wat i see during lecture..

Frustrating Weekend

It's been a super unproductive weekend for myself... haven done any of the work i told myself to do.. like readings which i have missed for a long long time.. i need to do my readings... and also my tutorial which i have done halfway on friday.. i wanted to finish them off over the weekend.. but i wasnt able to.. so wat happen?? well... i think i spent most of saturday at home sleeping.. that's y.. as for sunday.. it's more meaningful.. i played basketball in the moring.. and went to fix up yanli's place in the afternoon.. did some drilling.. and mind u.. drilling is very strenuous on e back.. esp when it's drilling on the ceiling... super shagged after the drilling.. back still aching.. i guess i could say that's what keeping me from going to school.. haha... lame excuse.. but yah.. that's the truth.. i personally extended my weekend to monday, as well as the UNPRODUCTIVITY... yah.. tml will be tues.. and i'm expecting better productivity... HAIL self-studying...

I've Decided

I've DECIDED!! after much consideration.. i'm not going for lecture later.. i'm going to stay in the library.. and do some work.. lectures are getting too boring.. the lecturers are all singing.. lullabies!!

time to experience the life of UNI.. life of self-study..

First Day oF the Week

today's my first day in school for this week.. yes i know it's a tuesday.. yes i know i pontang'd yesterday.. yes i remember telling myself not to miss any lessons this semester... but no, i'm not really guilty.. i did manage to conjure up a pretty extensive report for my hydraulics lab which is due today.. yupzZ.. quite happy about that.. although i only started on it like 7pm yesterday.. hahaa.. but the key is i finished it...

it's gonna be a very long day in school today.. espcially cos i haven slept.. spent most of the time in front of tv after finishing my work... guess i'll have to rest well tonite.. cos i have plenty of readings to do...

Plane Day

it's another of those weird days whereby everything seems to go against u.. let's just start from the moment i wake up.. i woke up late.. my alarm was suppose to go off at 7am, but the clocked stopped at 6.45am.. den i only woke up at 8am.. my lesson was at 9am.. so i quickly washed up and packed my stuff.. and rush to catch a cab.. somehow i went to a spot where there's totally no empty cab.. i usually wouldnt go there.. someting must be wrong with me today..

e rest of the day was kindda ok.. till vball training.. i find out i was left out of the IVP team again.. although i knew i wasnt the best.. and i've already told myself a long time ago that i wasnt in the best shape to compete.. but somehow to know that i was left out of the team just doesnt feel good at all.. kindda suxX actually...

after training.. was supposed to meet yanli for dinner. she was suppose to come to NUS to find me.. after training i rushed to bath afraid that she was waiting for me.. but after bathing den i saw her msg saying she's just left her house.. i was super sad.. was hoping to see her immediately after vball esp how sucky i felt after not making the cut for the team... i felt so abandoned.. so i became pissed and called her.. told her off.. and asked her to meet me at my place instead.. i dun want to wait for an hr alone in sch for her to come.. the original plan was for me to meet her after vball.. eat dinner.. den mummy would come pick us up after her lesson at SIM..

and mummy called me as i was on my way to MRT.. i tot she had finished her lesson.. and could come pick me so i told her i was at Bouna Vista Mrt.. but she was like why was i at MRT.. den ask me if still want her to pick me or not.. i mean if she done with her lessons at SIM wy not rite?? den she told me she was at home.. she din go for lesson.. aarrgghhh.. waste my time.. never tell me earlier also.. aarrgghhh.. why is everything going against me...

Last Day of August

does anyone what does the last day of august signifies for a UNI student in singapore?? it means orientation period is over.. tutorials are piling up and work is snowballing.. time to switch into the next gear or else you will be left behind again.. this is the crucial period which we cannot slow down.. if we slow down here, we wun be able to pick up in the final third..

yupzZ.. so i'm off to do some work.. muahahaaa...

The Silent Whisperer

today i had my first tutorial and lab of the semester.. and they happened to be the same module.. and same tutor.. BUT.. this tutor has a HUGE problem.. a very very quiet problem.. remember the silent whisperer from SG idols?? yah?? now imagine the indian version.. that's my tutor.. OMG!! very painful sitting at the last row.. i'm practising lip-reading thru-out the lessons.. moreoever, he talks a lot.. and the best part? his voice is uni-directional, somehow it's polarise or focused, however u many wanna put it.. as long as he is not facing u.. u cant hear a word.. he's that good.. he explains quite a lot of stuff during his lessons.. but he is WAY too soft.. someone in the class already told him that.. but.. it seems like that's his maxed.. i cant's even see before his teeth.. not even the gums are visible. that's how big he opens his mouth.. and i think he's an indian scholar, and there's this other indian in the class, who seems to hear him pretty well, cos he's the one answering most of his questions... but i think i'm gonna hate him.. why?? cos he "diao" me when i asked the tutor to repeat wat he just said.. wat's wrong with asking qns.. i belief wat i'm asking is relevant to everyone else.. cos they also cant hear.. he thinks he's SO smart.. stupid indian scholar, come spoil market only...

Tiredness Lingers...

being tired is not something that happens suddenly, you dun suddenly get very very tired.. nope.. it's a built-up from past activities.. very often mental activities make u tired faster den physical.. and actually physical training helps to keep u awake longer and better...

now here's my problem.. i'm so so tired.. i feel very zombie-fied... why?? cos i rushed my tutorials yesterday.. although not really everything was done.. but did quite a lot to my standards.. i seriously do not like to do my work on weekends... weekends are supposed to be spent sleeping, enjoying, couching.. yah.. stuff liddat..

i slept thru most of today's lectures.. i was struggling to stay awake.. but too bad.. it din work.. the zZzzZZz monster has reappeared... i'm now rotting in the study room in YIH.. later still got trainin i wonder how i'm gonna do anything tonight.. no time.. no strength.. is this when or why ppl turn to god?? hmmm...

Supper @ TSC

met up with some of the 4e guys just now.. went for supper at TSC.. i was trying to introduce this cafe to them.. i think the thick toasts really got to them.. and we tried the D24 durian one.. that was really fulfilling.. we also tried the coconut floss one.. for ppl who like coconut floss, the taste is very rich too.. and i realised something.. the cafe has live EPL matches on matchdays.. cool.. that's y it was quite crowded just now.. anyway.. i only manage to salvage some shots before they finished everything.. hahaa.. look at the durian..

Yummy Food Fiesta

Had dinner with yanli at the foodcourt @ Millenia Walk.. There's this korean stall which i had mention before, quite some time back i think.. It sells pretty tasty Korean fare, although the dishes look pretty much similar to other Korean stalls in other foodcourts, but it's not... It tastes much much better, and the reason behind it? that's b'cos it's a branch of a very very nice and a little expensive Korean restaurant called MANNA.. no, it's not country Manna, totally nothing to do with it.. anyway, the restaurant is @ Telok Ayer St.. the food is nice.. but not cheap. the place gives u a feeling of modern korea, and there are always korean speaking ppl there..

ok ok.. back to the foodcourt stall.. this stall is my fav place for cheap and tasty bulgogi, saba, kimchi soup & bibimbaps.. there's also cold noodles, which i have yet to try.. maybe next time.. just take a look at the mouth watering food..


aftermath..

went to watch Jennifer Aniston's "Break up".. it was supposed to be some super hilarious movie.. but it turned out rather disappointing.. turned out like some romantic drama instead.. yah.. so din really enjoyed the show.. so went for supper after that.. hahaa..

Supper was at Tong Shui, or TSC which means tong shui cafe.. haha.. i had my 1st try in this shop at the shop opp great world city.. this place is famous for it's Super Thick Toasts and desserts.. but many ppl order a maggi-lookalike-tastealike ramen.. haha.. anyway.. it's a good place for supper.. it opens from 12pm till 6am.. there's scv too.. haha.. we visited the new opened branch at liang seah st.. somehow the business here looks poor.. perhaps it's still un-noticed..

the decor is pretty nostalgic.. and the staff's uniform, traditional too.. haha.. but the main attraction is still the food.. not exactly coffee shop price.. more like a chinese style starbucks.. but the food is GOOD.. just look at the dripping peanut butter...



just click the photos for more..

Results of IT Security Quest

Recently i ttok part in a NUS IT Security Quest.. I dragged one of my fren to join me.. so we went to look for ans but in the end.. most of the ans were found by me.. and we submitted wat we tot was the most correct answers.. anyway.. the results were out and i got nothing.. but my fren got 2nd.. kaozZ.. i'm so so not lucky.. this is the prize.. good rite.. better luck next time.. but he was nice enough to give me $60 out of $100 NTUC voucher which was also part of the prize..

Fantasy Weekend

it's been a very different weekend for me.. why? cos it's was very exciting yet very boring... there were numerous exciting swordfights, great scenaries, impressive characters, fate which draws the envy of many men.. yet i stayed at home for most of the time.. in fact i was in my room for almost 24hrs.. why?? i was watching VCD.. i rented the whole set of "天龙八部" it's the china 2003 edition.. it's actually being shown on SCV currently but the showtimes are too lousy, maybe cos it's rerun.. i missed the 1st run quite some time back.. watched only bits & pieces.. somehow it seems i was captivated by the showwhen i watched the 1st few episodes 2 weeks ago.. with tutorials and labs starting soon.. i doubt i would have the time to watch the re-run.. so i rented the whole set on saturday.. 27 discs in total, only $10, this tells u it's a 2003 show.. hahaa.. anyway.. i'm done with the show.. i finished abt 21 discs in a weekend... i dun think i've ever done that b4..

it's quite fantastic that i finished everything in one weekend.. with the whole set in my hands.. i just din want to stop for too long to know what happens in the next disc.. and finally it's over.. with a weekend totally filled with "天龙八部", now i feel kindda empty.. alittle lost.. seems a lot like a withdrawal symptom.. a lot like the feeling when i finished watching my "倚天屠龙记" and "宝莲灯"... and i think this feeling will still last for a while.. so ppl if u see me feeling or looking a little lost for the next few days.. u know why..

i always wonder why i like watching such dramas.. my conclusion is i would always immerse myself in the show to an extent of putting myself into the shoes of the characters.. feel what they feel, do what they do.. it's a great feeling, to have great abilities to do great things.. maybe that's wat intrigues me, and have me watch them over & over again...

well den.. that's my exciting weekend activity.. it's over for now.. and maybe it shld stay less exciting till this sem is over.. it's time to study real hard.. hahaa..

A Proud Moment

I'm suddenly so proud of myself, why? cos i spoke up during lecture today. actually it was a built-up to the event.. the previous lecturer already had me on the verge of shouting out.. but someone else did it first... although i din think his solution was good at all.. anyway... this lecturer was telling us that he's starting lab sessions next week and tutorial the week after next... when we have not gotten our groupings.. cos he DOESNT know we have got our groupings.. and i'm so pissed that no one bothered to voice out to him abt out situation.. and so i did...

i raised my hand and told him straight that we cant have our labs next week, cos our lab and tutorial groupings will not be confirm until the end of next week.. and FINALLY he understood our situation.. i'm so proud of myself.. and when he asked if the whole lecture group has the same problem.. everyone ECHOED "YEESSS".. omg.. that's recognition man.. hahaa... only 1 word.. shiok!!!

oh yah... i managed to sell one of my books.. for $20.. but i'm only getting $17 back.. haha... and i totally dun rmember how much i got the book for.. must be ex.. hahaa..

i finally bought my toner but not in NUS.. cos they jacked up the price to $130.. so duhzZ... i bought it for $115 at Harvey Norman.. stupid NUS.. waste my time..

i also brought some books to sell at buybackasia.. i wonder if anyone would buy those textbooks.. i hope they do..

Burning holes in my Pocket

i bought 2 textbooks today... one on probability and another on fluid mechanics.. and it's almost $80.. adn tml still gotta buy toner which costs abt $120... omg.. i'm so broke... trying to stick to $2-$3 on meals to save $$... i sound so so broke..

1st Day of School again

It's back to school after a long 3 mths break.. kindda dragged myself out of bed.. out of the house and to school... it's quite a torturous first day actually... 6hrs of lecture.. but 1 fren had 8hrs.. hah.. that's y i din take a 6th module.. i dun want to go home at 8pm everyday..

surprisingly i managed to stay awake for at least 3/4 of the lectures.. but there's this one china lecturer.. really put me to sleep.. actually it's quite intimidating for a 1st day.. alot of things to absorb,remember and plan for.. it's only going to get worst when the tutorial starts..

recap a little stuff abt yesterday.. had my final game for the vball open.. think it's one of my better performances.. but still lost.. took some photos after the match.. just follow the links on the left... went to watch the philips cup after that.. quite exciting.. i gave up taking pictures cos not very nice.. so i just kept my camera and enjoy the match instead.. hahaa..

A day of taxi

I started off the day taking cab to indoor stadium to catch the opening match of the philips cup. It's a basketball cup organised by SSC, got 8 teams, Argentina, Serbia & montenegro, Slovenia, Spain, Melbourne Tigers, Taiwan's Yulong Club, Sg allstars and M'sia allstars. The match i watched was Yulong VS Sg, and to my horror, the SG allstars consists of 6 locals and 6 foreign imports.. this suck big time.. esp when most of the time, all of the 5 in the court are foreigners.. evening though SG won the game i still think it's a disgrace..

Actually after 3/4 of the 1st match, i left, i had to rush down to hougang for vball.. and it was another disappointing day.. yet i still had to force myself to enjoy the game.. well.. it's hard.. to know more abt this go check my tjvb page..

went back to indoor stadium for the 3rd match in cab again.. spain vs slovenia.. quite exciting.. the europeans are all so huge.. yet they are still quite fast.. amazing.. no pictures today.. but tml i'll bring my camera in and try to take some exciting photos..

Happy National Day Singapore!!

Not a very eventful day, today.. stayed at home... and watch tv for most of the time.. hahaa.. managed to catch some of the action going on at the stadium from my window..

apparently ppl are asking me where i was to watch the fireworks.. so i marked my spot with a star on the map.. just beside ECP on the open grass patch.. it's directly infront of the firesite.. the firesite is actually by the coast of that grass patch.. directly opposite esplanade..

how to get there?? i drove to the seafood centre there and parked.. den walk by the coast all the way to ecp.. very fast 15min only...

After a rather disappointing performance in the opening match of Pesta Sukan, I was utterly disappointed with myself.. the most IMMOBILE libero around.. hahaa.. but den again.. i dun think i was ever very mobile.. it's just that my anticipation now just suxX.. i'm always going in the wrong direction, always wrong footed, always caught rooted to the ground. and all this boils down to?? an extreme lack of match exposure.. it's as simple as that.. i'm defending badminton style.. hands only.. with 1 step radius, nothing more.

anyway, that's history.. went out for dinner with yanli and watch the fireworks festival opening from marina south.. it's my first time watching fireworks form such close range.. the explosions are happening literally overhead.. and many a times the buring magnesium almost reached us.. a few spots of the grasspatch in front of us caught fire though.. it's was simply amazing to see.. ppl out there who haven done it?? there's a few more shows left.. catch it before it's too late.. i've uploaded the photos to my fotopic website, just follow my links on the left column.. or the picture below.

i finally placed a bid for my core modules.. yah.. a huge burden finally taken off my chest..

recently, there seems to be alot of ppl falling sick.. going to hospital and stuff.. hey ppl!! take care of urself!! first grandma fell down went hospital, den mum's husband kena stomach virus, den grandma go hospital like some stomach virus too, den mum yesterday got very red spots all over her body... eeuuww...

yah.. it's the 7th already, and there will be twice the horror.. many places gives me the creeps and shivers.. but yah.. i believe i'll survive.. actually i think more ppl die during 7th month den any other time of the year.. why? cos their relatives whom passed on came to bring them away? i dunno.. but that's wat i feel since i was a kid.. i always felt there seems to be more funerals happening during this month.. or maybe it's just me be cranky..

volleyball training today actually not very meaningful.. last training before our first match but many ppl still din turn up.. quite disappointed.. i cant force them to come.. we shall see wat happens during the tournament..

i made some lasagna yesterday, and i think it really tastes damn good.. hahaa.. just look at the mouthwatering food..

never thought that my failure in one module can cause so much problem... cos of the F.. it means i've only earned 34 MCs.. for promotion to 2nd yr we need to achieve 23% of graduation req which is 160, so i need 36MCs.. so yah.. cos of this.. my CORS still show my status as yr 1.. so i wasnt able to see any 2nd yr modules for me to bid.. so i'm like a sitting duck.. nothing else i could do until they add the module in manually for me.. which is gonna take a few days according to them which feels like shit, this waiting..

i think i'm getting good at this...

yesterday's vball training quite shiong.. but managed to get some touch back.. still receiving alot of balls to close to the net.. which is quite bad.. better improve more by the next training..

i made laksa for breakfast today.. i tell u, primataste does very good gravy mix for local food.. i tested the mee rebus a few days ago.. and this morning i tried the laksa.. both tastes very authentic.. very good.. see for yourself.. dun u think it's look very pro.. i made 5 portions for my family.. and it's all gone by the time i came back from basketball.. fantastic.. hahaa...

went to play basketball this morning.. it's almost 3 weeks since i last played.. i miss the last 2 session mainly cos i was dead tired.. perhaps it's going back for vball training on saturdays.. it's been so long since i had training.. still feel super exhausted and totally out of breath.. very very unfit... hope can survive the grueling 5 set matches in the open..

quite bored at home today.. so cooked lunch.. yupzZ.. it's my usual duty to clear the frigde of perishables.. otherwise.. the fridge will smell like a dump in no time.. hahaa... so yah.. whipped up some "mee tai bak" and some leftover black sauce chicken.. tastes pretty good.. haha..

but actually i think yesterday's breakfast is more exciting.. cos that date when i went buying groceries with my mu i bought this singaporean food thingy.. it's easy to cook.. the sauces are pretty much pre-mixed, just add water, noodles and other ingredients to get the meal done.. so yah.. that's yesterday's breakfast below.. mee rebus... and it tastes just like the one at parkway.. it's that good.. haha.. or maybe it depends on the cook also.. hahaaa..

made cheeesecake before going training today.. and now it's ready.. and it tastes pretty good.. haha... actually i made some the day before too.. but that din turn out too well.. made some mistake with the proportions.. tastes quite bad... anyway.. after some amendments.. this tastes pretty standard.. except for it's height.. seems alittle flat.. hahaa.. quite easy to make actually...

My new TOY...

went parkway yesterday with mum & sis.. bought almost $300 worth of groceries.. and guess what, most of the stuff there werent only meant for a few days.. quite incredible.. anyway.. the biggest buy of the day was actually this...



hahaa.. my very own ISqueeze.. shiok...

I'm lost in the woods of NUS Civil Engineering...

i logged into my CORS acc to check if i have any modules allocated to me by the system.. this would save me tons of trouble trying to bid for modules.. however, there was nothing in the system for me.. I wonder!?? does that mean i have to bid for all my modules or is the system not updated yet??

and so i email the helpdesk, asking them abt my dilemma.. i also asked some of my fellow CE mates aka my critical thinking mates.. none of them know either... hahaa.. and also mr tth.. who has not reply till now.. i think he must be lost too.. why dun any of know anything.. this is so scary..

anyway.. it for sure school starts on the 14th.. for now it's only the advance bidding stage.. real bidding only starts next monday.. so yah.. there is still time...

"Spikefire" the Beginning...

Spikefire has been my preferred nickname for a very very long time... when did it first start?? i guess it would be far far back in seconday school days... when MIRC and ICQ was the in thing..

yupzZ.. those were the days... think that's when i started using this nick.. so why this nick.. hmmm... cos i am a volleyball player.. and i used to fantasized about having super powerful spikes..

and there was this jap cartoon during that time.. i think it's soccer/basketball cant remember exactly.. but the pt is.. they players have like special strengths and the balls always glow in red or burst into flames when it a very powerful shot.. yup.. that became my fantasy.. to spike the ball so fast and hard it bursts in flame..

i wanted to create a picture to show my fantasy.. and i searched for a suitable volleyball pic.. and i found this.. after some playing around with photoshop and countless try & errors.. i finally got my favourite product.. that's the picture up there.. though it still looks a little fake.. it does look sort of like a meteor..

The Consequences of Lack Of Conditioning... No not the Hair...

training yesterday was actually quite tough... short training only but.. my body is so unconditioned.. almost cannot take it.. u know the extent whereby, ur mind and ur body separates and move in opposite directions?? yah.. multiply that 10 times.. that's the state i was in.. confusion.. however i think it was good to go through that all over again.. it helps to condition urself.. but for now.. my back really aches like hell.. i think it's over extension again... been having that problem since a long long time ago... whenever the pain kicks in.. that only means one thing.. my body stucture is rejecting the weight i'm carrying.. not extra weightes, just my own weight.. been trying to cut down on food.. but it never works... one meal less.. next meal more.. it's a vicious cycle..

lack of creativity and inspiration... so only can do such simple stuff... duhzZ...

this is wat i did today..

there i was.. being bored again.. and i did these.. quite nice i would say... heh..

I was a little bored and i happened to see this in my mail.. so yah.. enjoy it.. i think it holds SOME truth... just SOME...

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Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighbouring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death.

The question?....What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.

Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer.

But the price would be high; as the witch was famous throughout the Kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first.

The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend!

Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life.

He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden; but Lancelot, learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur.

He said nothing was too big a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table.

Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and the witch answered Arthur's question thus:

What a woman really wants, she answered....is to be in charge of her own life.

Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared.

And so it was, the neighbouring monarch granted Arthur his freedom and Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.

The honeymoon hour approached and Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed. The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened.

The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth, be her horrible deformed self only half the time and the beautiful maiden the other half.

Which would he prefer? Beautiful during the day....or night?

Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch? Or, would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day, but by night, a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous intimate moments?

What would YOU do?

What Lancelot chose is below. BUT....make YOUR choice before you scroll down below. OKAY?

















Noble Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself.

Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.

Now....what is the moral to this story?
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The moral is.....
If you don't let a woman have her own way....
Things are going to get ugly

it's a tiring weekend.. and an expensive one too.. i'm so over budget...

went back tj for training today... it's been a very very long time since i had any sort of training.. it feels great to be back on the court.. however, i've seemed to have lost a lot in the past months.. lost my touch, my footing.. felt kindda lost on the court.. and my legs .. i finally truely understand how it feels when ppl say their legs dun belong to them..

but anyway.. this is a start.. i need to persevere.. and get back a more healthy and fitter me... and this will be my first step to jumping and and flying a round the court again.. i truely hope it doesnt take too long..

i think i gotta rephrase wat i mean below, abt making choices.. hahaa.. it just doesnt really sound rite.. wat i meant was... there are many times when i made choices to do certain things.. like wanting to sign on, moe, computer engine.. stuff liddat... although it turn out that i wasnt able to get wat i wanted.. and i thought life was just liddat, things never happened my way.. however, after sometime, things would turn out just fine for me.. and so that's why i shld let things just take it's course.. dun get too depressed with disappointments..

sad things happen for a reason.. and that's to give space and allow better things to happen...

finally done something more meaningful for the past couple of days... met up with esther just now.. haha.. that's meaningful.. haven seen her for a long time.. and it's fun to catch up with her.. showed her the photos i took in taiwan.. got to know more abt her life recently.. yah.. stuff liddat.. but i just think it's much better den boringly staying at home and be a WONDERFUL supporter of SCV.. haha.. anyway... SCV dulls in choices as compared to the cable in taiwan and perhaps many other countries.. well.. i guess we dun have much to choose from, do we??

i understood something abt myself today.. i am a person who totally sucks at making choices.. why?? most choices that i have made, dun turn out as expected, worst still they make me miserable... instead, when i just let nature takes it's course, and let things happen for me.. most things just fall in place.. yupzZ... that's my destiny..

i have to learn to like wat is given to me... like wat course i'm allocated, the people i'm with... yah.. stuff liddat.. maybe my life will be a little more meaningful..

i'm back from taiwan yesterday.. it's been a very very long time since i last went overseas with my relatives.. and maybe cos it's with relatives, arguments break out easier.. with strangers, we tend to just let things be... but overall i would say it's a good trip.. perhaps still too rushing.. and not really enough time to enjoy.. yah... and i'm totally disappointed in dynasty travel.. yah.. it's free and easy or some other agency the next time.. taiwan photos will be up in a while.. so do drop by my fotopic...

half way thru my trip in taiwan... it's quite rushing... and i du really like the tour guide much.. so yah.. not really the best trip i ever experience lor... yah.. i prefer shanghai i guess..

i'm at changi airport again.. haha... this time i'm going taiwan.. with my parents and relatives... i just wonder will there be any new places which they will bring me to.. otherwise.. i can be tour guide liaozZ...

time to go... plane taking off loh..

went out with a few 12/00 guys... and came back to my hse for ger vs arg... and i won.. cos they drew... now i want ita va ukr to draw too.. whahaaa...



and very soon i'll be off to taiwan.. NARUWAN!! hahaa.. i'll be back.. soon..

I felt bored today... as i have for the past few months.. yupzZ.. i'm boring.. but i did these.. it's fun to explore photoshop...

almost 10 days since my last update.. nothing much have been done.. personally i think there isnt much to be done.. well.. i always think there isnt much to do.. anyway.. i only did stuff like cleaning the house a little.. folded my clothes and packed them.. but the pile of clothes is re-appearing again.. need to clean my room again.. it get sticky after a very short time.. cos i sweat too much.. even in my sleep.. and i dun wanna sleep in aircon too often.. so yah... clean it again..

as for my simple betting.. not too much good news.. have been losing quite alot.. hmmm... barely lasting to the last group match... hmmm... a bit sianzZ... but then... i think it's still under control...

i'm feeling damn emotional today.. tears fell while watching tv during few touching scenes.. one's abt a autistic high school baller in US... in the last match of the season.. the coach allows him to play the last 15 mins.. his team already led by 20 pts though.. yah.. and his 1st shot missed terribly.. but after that.. he just sparked off.. shots after shots just went in.. he made 8 out of 13 shots.. all of which are 3pointers... 24 pts.. top scorer of the match.. emotional man...

den just now spoke to yanli.. telling her the taiwan trip can confirm already... on the 1st of jul.. yet she told me she couldnt get leave... i was so pissed.. so angry.. yet i couldnt say anything.. all i knew at that point in time.. i was very very very very very VERY pissed off... but now.. i'm more lost den pissed.. i dunno wat to do... i arranged the tour for 10 pax.. yanli doesnt go make 9.. if she doesnt go.. i dun wanna go.. i'm going only cos she has been there.. i want to accompany her.. and yet... aarrgghhh... me and my aunt tried to ask other ppl to go.. but to no avail.. and i call the agency.. abt reducing the size to 8.. the outcome.. there will be adjustments to the price.. upward adjustments.. 10 pax implies group bookings.. which makes things cheaper.. less than that.. it's like ordering ala carte instead of set meal.. aarrgghhh... irritating... it's only $1232 for 7 days in taiwan.. fly SIA.. stay 5*.. eat 5*... kaozZ... but it's not possible for me to force her to get leave.. how?? threaten to quit if she dun get it?? no... it's not being able to get it.. it abt how to distribute her work... WHY!!! why must her workload increase now??

wat have i been doing lately??

a simple simple part time job.. wat is it??

betting on world cup.. the method??

$100 capital.. lose all stop.. no big bets.. the outcome??

looking for a mth long of excitement... the match just seems tons more exciting when $$ is involved.. even though not much.. currently.. my capital is still intact.. hahaa...

i want brazil/germany to win.. i think england sucks cos of peter crouch... he is a wimp in attack and a burden in defence.. kudos for the young guns of england though.. i've always favoured aaron lennon and stewart downing in my CM4 hahaa...

other den that.. i'm busy discussing business... wat kind of business?? business with dynasty travel.. i'm trying to give them business and yet they are taking pretty long to get me a quotation for taiwan.. duhzZ.. gopt $$ dun wanna take.. duhzZ x 2...

streaming results are out.. adn thanks to my 2.53 CAp.. i'm posted to the dumpping grd of engine students... civil engine.. but it's fine.. i'll just take any course.. there's still a long long way for me..

meanwhile during this holiday... me and yanli came up with an "investment" plan for world cup.. hahaa... still growing for now.. hahaa..

and for july.. i may be going on a trip to taiwan with my family... yeah.. more holidays...

i successfully bake bread today.. and it was good.. hahaa.. at least that's wat my mum and yanli said after trying it.. haha... that's so comforting to hear after failing so badly the first time.. haha.. can u understand the excitement when u see the dough rise and expands cos the yeast is finally working?? hahaa... shiok!!


it's been a very long time since i met up with carlin, so i met up with her today for dinner and to pass her some of the cake i made.. yupzZ... it was fun to see her after so long.. sometimes u need to see a fren just once in a while so that there will be sufficient stuff to talk abt.. haha... however it seems today i just could not stop talking.. or rather, interrupting.. it felt good catching up with her...

super tired.. cos of the birthday gathering... i personally think for once things had gone well.. most of the food was gone.. which meant wat yanli & i whipped up was acceptable.. hahaa... for those who din come.. this was what u missed..



there's tempura, breaded chicken strips & salmon, chicken soup, boiled chicken, baked pork with potato & pear, salad and apple pies.. and not to forget the cakes, there was mango cake in the pic.. carrot & banana cake was give as door gift.. hehee.. really enjoyed myself in all that cooking..

i'm really grateful for all those who turn up.. u guys really made my day.. i enjoy watching ppl enjoy there food.. although there was some indication that the greatest attraction was the TV and not my food but at least most of the food was gone.. that was my consolation.. haha...

i think my greatest disappointment was fm my cchs batch vballers.. in the end only andre turned up.. i was disappointed cos andre was here alone.. that made him so awkward and me so awkward too.. but sometimes things are liddat.. but i was still
glad andre made it.. thanks bro..



for the rest of the photos just click the picture below..



once again... great thanks to all who came and thanks for the presents.. haha..

i'm 24 today.. how do i feel?? nothing special... it's just another in my life.. hahaa... ppl who are coming to visit me tml, see ya!!

my birthday's this saturday.. and i'm having a small gathering on sunday for dinner at my house.. anyone interested in coming.. sms me k...

failed my ippt today.. actually could have tried for partial pass.. but nah... too lazy to do that.. too long never run also.. dun think i'll pass anyway.. so yah.. i've clocked my ippt attempt..

I've got my horrendous results for this semester.. it's a horrible.. 2.5, although it was not really surprising to see that.. but i was still expecting a little more.. at least from my accounting.. in the end only got B-... quite disappointed in that... well there's nothing i can do abt the results now.. i just wonder where they will post me to.. hmm.. civil or just engineering science... maybe i'll just quit... see how first...

it's my birthday next week... and i'm think if i could get a small celebration up.. hmmm... some ppl go KTV... some come my house for lunch/dinner.. shld be something liddat... discuss with mummy tml...

did some baking for the past few days... and the most important reason for doing so?? the flour in my house is expiring.. in fact they expired last week.. but i'm still trying to make the most out of it.. i'm not expecting much from the recipes.. cos i made some changes..

so yah.. the result was that.. bread became hard like scones.. and my scones look just like muffins.. but they taste not bad though.. hahaa.. and now.. my lastest batch of white bread is resting in the oven just to grow.. the yeast in my house doesnt seem to work.. maybe it's wet... hmmm.. not too sure.. my only aim is to make sure the bread looks like and taste like bread this time.. and not scones..

hahaa..

just finished watching my Bao Lian Deng DVD.. I like this show very much... hahahaa... i think it's all her fault..



and i search online for info on her.. and guess wat.. she's only 19 this yr... from china, beijing and has already acted in many serials... oh yah.. her name's SHU CHANG.. she's an orphan.. nonetheless a beautiful and talented actress..