quiz is over and i'm at suntec now.. just now went to eat lunch with dear at shaw towers... at this vegetarian restaurant... the baked rice quite nice... it's all vege... but cant tell one.. haha...

now at suntec mac waiting for dear.. she's gone shopping.. i dun wanna shop... so wait for her here... she say 1 hr will come find me... times up and shes not here yet... women never keep time when they are shopping... sianzZ...

the quiz.. it was not too difficult... i think i knew how to do... although i scribbled alot and cancelled alot too.. so my paper was practically in a mess... luckily they dun mark for tidiness... mine was like shit lar... not too sure if my ans were rite... but i believe wun get zero... not asking for much...

i have a statics and mechanics quiz in 10 hrs time... zZzzZZz.... it has been a relaxing week...

i'm sunburnt again... yesterday play bball and for too long again.. so i'm red again.. and i sprained my ankle... but somehow i play better after getting the sprain.. but now i'm paying the price... cos it hurts now!!! argghh.. cannot go vball training liaozZ...

i feel much better now... mentally... somehow... i've done everything i need to do for today liaozZ.. which is very very rare... it's hasnt happen for yrs.. hahaa... so i'm feeling great.. and dun feel lousy like shit anymore... hahaa... amazing how a change in mindset can happen so spontaneously?? and wat it can do for you?? suddenly tutorials dun look as tough... and brain seem to be working a bit more.. hahaa... just only realised today that this saturday have statics and mechanics quiz.. totally forgot abt it until lecture today... heng i go lecture if not i sure forget.. hahaa...

this section goes out to all the hermit crabbies ard>>
if u dun wanna play with ur crab anymore.. pls give them to me before they die... i wanna have more in my tank... i think my 2 are bored.. hahaa... all they do is climb to the top of a "tree" den fall back down again... hahaa.. so yah.. gimme your crabbies!! hahaa

I've decided, I've choosen my path for the next 6 mths... I choose to stay in sheares for next sem too.. but i have to do the following things which i have not done this sem...

Things to be done...

NEW HAIRCUT, SHORT SHORT HAIR
STUDY!! STUDY ALOT...
PLAY VBALL..
GO JOGGING...
MIX ARD MORE IN HALL...

wish me luck... hehee

it's been sometime since i blog... many a times i wanted to leave something on my blog.. but i've been turning away everytime i come to the new-post webpage... why?? maybe cos i'm feeling guilty that i shld be studying instead of blogging.. dunno leh... whenever i think of that everything which was initially suppose to go onto my blog just disappeared... sianzZ...

life has been boring lately... not the type of lifestyle i want... but.... guess u know wat i wanna say... too lazy... uuurrggghhh...

biggest question in my head now...

SHLD I STAY IN SHEARES FOR ANOTHER SEM OR NOT???

no :
save money
waste money on the meal plans which i seldom eat
dun really interact
not involved in hall activities

yes :
nearer to school
got bed to sleep
got supper
wanna try to make frens

hiyoh... how leh?? stay or dun stay??? gotta make up my mind before 28th oct... aarrgghhh... how?? exams coming soon... duhzZ.....

had my first supper at sheares tonite... the chicken naan is really nice... not exagerating... it's really nice.. i bought 2 chicken naan and 1 cheese fries.. $5++ not too ex lar.. since can really fill my stomach.. hehee... din eat dinner... and vball training only ended almost 11pm... yah... lucky got supper.. hehe..

nothing will be said about school work... cos... it's boring and unentertaining.. and i've not been doing much hw... tml gotta do physics tut... haven done.... hmmm... later going home... to watch tv awhile den come back schoool... hohoohooo...

a weekend has passed... i'm glad to say at least some work had been done.. although not substantial but at least some... i'm back in my room... no more lessons for the rest of the day... only left with IVP training in the evening... now... i have 2 things to do...

1. do my physics online tut
2. sleep

i guess i'll sleep first... i'm tired.... zZzZZzzz...

one of my Hermit Crab just shed it's shell...

i tot it died... but i saw something in the shell...

it's still alive... but i tot it's supposed to grow bigger after shedding the shell.. but it looks smaller den original now... hehee... anyway... my crabs are still alive...

finally completed my part for CTW, but i'm still up providing watever i could offer to my grpmate... yah... cos i kindda guilty for not writing much for my part... haha.. i really din know wat to write... my mind just din churn up any ideas for me.. so too bad... i could only give him my 5cents worth... and some scattered pts here and there.. and let him do the patching up and beautification.. haha..

today's kunqi's bday.. one of my old old fren... used to take to her on the phone long long ago.. i think it was back in my secondary school days... she's a fellow hainanese with the same surname.. she li kunqi & i'm li kelun... so yah.. felt extra qin qie.. haha.. used to speak to her in hainanese... come to think of it... think she one of the last person whom i had spent hrs talking on the phone with... yah.. happy memories...

back home again... i'm really wasting money with the hall's catering.. 2 meals a day... 12 meals a week... and i'm missing like all of them.. haha... either never eat or eating outside... super waste money...

just came back from vball training... super tiring... feel very weak... feel heavy and slow... quite sucky... dun think i'm progressing much... like stagnate for so many years liaozZ...

if people ask me wat i wanted to do with my life, a few years back i would say i dunno.. now... i still dunno... but the difference is that now, i'm afraid... i'm afraid for not knowing wat i wanna do in the future... but i'm even more afraid that i may never know wat i wanna do... some time back, i tot that i'll belong to the airforce... but no.. i tried the possibility of becoming a teacher... but it din work out either... now i'm in NUS studying engineering, is this wat i wanna do?? i dunno... i have a partial volleyball coaching cert... will i go into coaching in the future?? i dun have the answer to that too...

when?? when will i find the answer to my question??

---= ThE gReAtEsT PuRpOsE oF LiFe Is To FiNd ThE PuRPoSe Of OuR LiFe=---

5 days since my last entry... although work doen has not been substantial.. but i'm glad to say work is in progress... yanli accompanied me as i studied yesterday... it just feel so much better to be studying with her by my side... although she could help in my studying, but her presense just made it so much easier to study... yah... thank you dear...

many days since i blog.. dun feel like accounting for the days that i missed blogging... but it's quite simple... eat sleep play game... never study... die die die... the prefect brew for downfall in UNI... aarrgghhh... in just 5 weeks time... i'll be facing my 1st exam in NUS... and now... i'm still lost in the lectures... lost in the tutorials... wat the hell?? and the only thing which i think i'm doing okay is CTW... which is like ridiculous... maybe cos there's no mid-term test for CTW.. so i still have screw it up... hahaa... like is a joke... life is a chore... i think i suit better living in the woods.... sleep whole day... hungry den go hunt for food... hahaa.... aaaarrrggghhh....

my right shoulder is painful again... after so many yrs... it's back again... aarrgghhh pain pain pain... fat fat fat... dum dum dum... stupid stupid stupid... lazy lazy lazy... eat eat eat... sleep sleep sleep... aarrgghhh..

bad bad news for my physics paper... i only got 4 out of 15 for physics... kaozZ.. that's like the lowest i ever got for any mcq... i think i really getting dumber and dumber... dun even know why i got those ans wrong...

den today got for statics tutorial... i totally cannot understand the solutions which were given by the tutor... a lot of ppl were asking questions... i dun think i'm alone.. but i really dunno anyone in that class to ask... super sianzZ now...

later no vball training.. but i dunno if i shld be going home... got alot of maths and physics lectures to catch up with.. sianzZ sianzZ sianzZ.........

shld not have stayed in singapore to study... shld have gone elsewhere where ppl are dumber.. and the pace is slower... aaarrrgghhh.... now... i'm so slow... so behind.. so stupid.... aarrrggghhhh.......

just came back from IVP training... very tired... first official formal training... micheal ong came down today... the supposed coach din come today... so micheal come and stand in for him... very tired... very long never had formal training... struggle to keep pace... but i survived!!

mid-term is officially over since monday... seems like i had quite a bit of good luck for my maths... the questions which i tikam-ed, i put Bs.. den 4 out of 5 ARE Bs.. hehee!!! so heng right... but!! the 7 qns which i did myself and tot was right... only 3 correct... so back to square one... 7 out of 12.. haha.. at least pass.. dunno about the other 2 paper how... hoping to pass well... pass well... not just pass... this sem i only have 4 modules... so i'm suppose to do well... if not next time how to coped??

tml no lessons again... seriously dun feel like engine student.. haha... YEAH!!! stay in hostel and watch webcast...

just realised i din do as well as i tot for my statics... by that, i meant i totally messed up the paper... die liaozZ... just now the lecturer went over the answers... den realised i did things SO wrongly... super demoralised.... not a good feeling to have.. esp when later still got 1 more last paper...

now me eating lunch... la bai cai mian... haha.. and i bought this sichuan pepper pickles from forum there... and added into the noodles... and wat do i get?? ma la huo guo... hot hot hot!!!!

spent the whole sunday in hall... first sunday in hall... call it a rest day.. hehe.. it was suppose to be a study day... but i was just too burnt to move around and get into studying... haha.. k.. if u know me well enough.. i'm just lazy... haha..

yanli came to pei me today... so nice of her... she brought aloe vera gel to sooth my burns... and yoko yoko & deep heat for my aching fats(dun wanna say muscles, say liao i feel paiseh... :P)haha... 1 new thing learnt today... there's tv for me to watch online.. NUS has TV-webcast!!! hehee... there goes my studying.. haha.. just now we watched The Apprentice on my laptop... so exciting.. haha...

tml.. 1 last paper... MA1505.. that's maths... i'm praying to god knows who for acceptable grades!! hehe... hmmm... actually that doesnt sound very safe.. wat if mr d*v*l answers my prayer... hmmm... there goes my soul... diaozZ... watever lar.. gdluck to myself... hahaha...

i think today's the best day for the past week... yah... most non-depressing... i had a great series of vball games in my inter-faculty games... we came in 2nd too... tough fight... great game... no regrets i guess... yah...

had statics paper today also... not as dead as yesterday's physics.. so i'm not that sad... although i still dun think i'll score well... but still feel better den yesterday....

one more paper on monday... and now i'm in hall.. suppose to be studying for it... but i'm gonna rest first... cos.. i'm CAO DA!! burnt again... played outdoor vball since morning to 5pm... kaozZ... red red red!!!

1 paper down... 1 paper dead... no good news... all news is bad news for now... no good mood.... all mood is bad mood... super sianzZ... feeling super stupid... stupid china ppl... can say the paper so easy... kaozZ.... think they are e only ones who are happy to talk abt their papers... e rest... like me.. all came out of the hall with heads hanging down... 15 mcq... 1 hr... i did only 8... e rest... anyhow shade... hoping luck is still with me.. haizZ.... this is bad... last time.. i will finish everything... check a few times... den just hope luck will have me not miss out anything... now... luck plays a much bigger part... not good.. not good at all... why is studying so torturous?? because i dun have anyone to share the pain with me... unlike back in JC days... i have my class to share... now... ppl i know dun study wat i study... so i cant relate... ppl in my class cant relate to me... studying becomes lonely... becomes a chore... becomes torturous... esp when u cant understand.... life is bad now... studying is bad now... engine is bad now... change?? archi?? art?? NTU ??

it's times like this that i really need someone by my side... but that someone may not be by my side now...