alot has happened in the past 10 days... the majority of the past week was spent studying.. mugging... why cos it's mid-term test week... 3 out of 6 papers are this week.. there will be 2 more after the mid-term break... so yah.. now's midterm break.. but my main itinerary for this short break is catch up.. lots of it... and the dummest thing i did this week is missing my programming midterm test.. why?? cos i din check my timetable earlier... all along i tot my paper was saturday afternoon... so when i checked for my sitting arrangement at noon.. i realised the paper was already over in the morning... my solution?? email the lecturer telling him i was sick in the morning... and so i had to spend $26 to go see a doctor and convince him i had diarrhea in the morning.. haha.. works all the time... the only problem now is that i dun even know if there would even be a retest for me.. sobzZ.. this actually gives me some time to study... i totally haven done anyting for programing..not even lectures or tutorials... HAH!!

valentine's was last tues.. the only day i din do mugging... yah... got a call from yanli in the morning.. cos she received the flowers i sent her.. hehh.. so happy.. cos she's happy... we went to night safari for dinner that night.. we went there for bongo burger... although it wasnt too disappointing but the menu has changed since the last time we went there.. so yah.. think that we would be the last time we are there... anyway there's carl's jr around now...

this weekend is simple enjoyment.. after some tests.. and missed 1 test.. it's time to waste money... saturday night we went to watch NTU's impresario... if u dunno wat's that.. Impresario is NTU's version of talentime.. it's a islandwide competition though.. the quality's better den superstar.. way better... Kelly poon was the guest artiste.. and junyang was her guest.. while me and yanli were sitting just beside junyang's fan club.. so pai seh.. they had luminated clubs.. and scream like there's no tml.. kaozZ... anyway.. the real highlight of the whole show was the performance by MOSAIC.. the winner of another NTU compeition FuXion.. they are not a singing group, they are music performers, unlike any we have seen... that performance simply blew the whole audience away.. it was simply just WOAH!!!!

today went shopping with yanli and spent quite a bit at marina square.. really went shopping.. quite shiok... hahaa.. ate at millenia walk's food court.. had my favourite korean food there.. yummy.. still good... den continued shopping... den bought more stuff.. den decided to watch movie.. so we bought the $48 dollars for 6 tickets package... so yah.. we are expecting a few more movies to come.. haha.. meanwhile before the show... we went to eat kaya fondue at glutton square.. yummy... i like the kaya there.. tastier den ya kun.. ya kun's one actually too sweet... yah.. nice... watch pink panther... it's a just for laughs show... very lame very funny... haha... but be warned.. not all jokes are obvious.. enjoyed myself very much today... gotta prepare myself for a week of catching up...

today the spector found a glimpse of a light... a ray of light which broke through the darkness after a night of grueling mugging... though it was just a glimpse... but it gave me tons of hope.. and satisfaction.. only a single word descrbes my feelings now...

SHIOK!!!

a drifting spector needs a light.. a leading light.. a source of encouragement.. an understanding heart.. and tons of patience...

i still have not found my direction.. i'm now just going straight.. straight ahead cos i have no idea where to turn... it's like walking in the dark.. afraid to turn left or right.. even afraid of taking the next step.. for fear i may end up in the abyss..

but isnt life about taking risks?? every step we take is a gamble.. be it big or small.. without risks.. life is a plain piece of paper... so we be afraid of taking risks?? i guess not.. but if u have gambled many a times... and lost the bet just as many... perhaps u would be somewhat like me.. afraid to take the next step...

i waited and she finally came for me.. for a moment i thought all was lost.. and i was left alone.. in the fire..

the thought of being alone on a deserted island may be scary to some... but i think that's not the worst.. cos u know that that is the situation and things are fixed at the state... after some time u will get used to it...

but now.. imagine u being in the crowded place... there are many ppl around.. having fun.. making noise.. but.. here's the irony.. u are alone.. ppl walk past u as if u werent there.. u become a drifting spector in the crowded.. that sort of loneliness, i feel is many times more horrifying and unbearable compared to the one above...

i feel like i'm trapped in a ring of fire.. and the only person who can save me.. dun wanna come.. should i just jump out of the ring at all cost or should i juat stay here and wait... i chose to wait..

just to continue the last post... sheares won the IHG vball.. again.. though i see everyone celebrating.. cheering.. it means almost nothing to me.. my heart was for the game.. not the result.. while ppl were cheering and chatting after the game... i'm just glad that yanli was around, to pei me and quietly walk away... some were emails sent out expressing their gratitude in everyone's commitment to the trainings and games and blah blah blah... well... i was mention in the emails appropriately as the runaway sons, rather apt i feel.. so was jeremy.. same situation as me i guess.. but sorry to say.. i'm bent on not carrying on my stay next sem.. currently i'm comtemplating whether or not to continue staying this sem.. i've send and enquiry to the OSA, asking for options.. we shall see...

this week was suppose to be a heavy week.. but somehow i reduce my lessons on my own accord.. 8 hrs became 2.. 6 hrs become 1... haha... not good.. maybe cos of my late nights spent at ECP mac.. that was my studying haunt for the past few days.. spent the nites there with yanli... i studied while she played "ming xing san que yi".. though she was playing.. she was really tired.. and i'm really grateful that she spent all that time with me.. esp when she had to work the next day.. she also helped me a lot with my financial accounting.. after missing the previous lesson... she really gave me tuition in the tutorials... and i was able to complete them to great accuracy... all thanks to her...

yesterday i realised i missed the deadline for my physics online assignment.. i din even know it was already up in the web... suckzZ.. so i got zero for my first webassign.. last sem i think i got zerp also.. but that was because i din know how to do.. not din do.. i was having a bad headache most of yesterday.. it was very uncomfortable.. made me nauseaus most of the time... uuurgghh...

today... wat day is today.. today is friday.. today's IHG vball finals, gonna play against eusoff.. today i supposedly had 3 classes.. but i skipped one and another was cancelled so i only had 1 hr of lessons today... today i filled up all the blanks in my FNA notes... today i catched up on my maths lectures, while chatting on MSN, also lazing in my B412 aka hostel room... today i did my maths lab quiz 1... today i had lunch alone again.. that's about it for today for now...

weekends are supposedly my free time... but i dun think i can keep them free of schoool work anymore... cos i just aint doing enough during the weekdays.. so yah... self-declared xtra classes for myself.. going to mac to study again... mid-term tests are coming.. less den 10 days time.. UNI works in hyper-drive... lazy bums watch out!!

2nd day of CNY.. things were better after eve.. nose and throat were slightly better... got quite a few ang baos.. and cos travel around to "bai nian" i incur very little personal expenses.. that's good.. considering i'm very poor now.. yesterday had dinner at spageddies@paragon.. first time eating there.. was expecting cartel-like food.. but i was wrong.. it was much better and and much more worth it... fulfilling dinner.. yesterday we were at cineleisure watching .. tonite we were there again but this time it's a huge family-matter.. although it's only like half of my maternal relatives, we had 20 tickets watching .. WOAH!! first time watch movie with so many relatives... interesting... hahaa.. think CNY is the only time i can mix better with my cousins..

today also went around visiting with my 4e khakis... it's been a yearly custom for us for years.. it's amazing how long this has been going on.. since we graduated.. or rather ever since CCHS we have been doing this.. in the early years.. we would take bus together from one house to another for CNY visiting... it's was fun taking a bus with a bunch of classmates.. years have past.. many things have changed.. but some things still seem the same.. or rather we have grown accustom to each others habits.. nowadays.. we drive around in a few cars... the bus crowd and evolved into a caravan of cars.. haha.. although the amount in the ang pao $$ hasnt really increased over the years.. but that was way besides the point.. haha..

Happy LUNAR NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE...

it's a lousy new year's eve for me... i'm sick!! flu.. coughing like mad.. and i feeling very very lethargic... for the pass few days.. it's just getting worst... this sucks... stayed at home after like 8plus... din go anywhere... not chinatown.. not marina... just at home.. so sianzZ.. so boring.. so irritating.. i'm SICK and BORED!!! this sucks... and i'm not getting and care and tenderness frm the only person that matters... this sucks even more... SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

end of the week again... only a few things worth mentioning since my last entry.. wednesday.. sheares won RH and is thru the next friday's finals.. i play my first game for sheares... seriously... i dun see the need for such hunger in such a game... my mentality for the game still stands... just play as u are happy... no point over-stressing... over-exerting.. over-reacting... after all it's a game.. at the end of the day it's suppose to make u happy...

thursday was a short day.. short short day... dear came to NUS to find me for lunch.. her CNY hols started since weds afternoon... shiok rite? yah... we went for lunch at engine canteen... after that we went shopping at orchard... the original plan was actually to go sing KTV... but both not feeling well.. so din go.. went shopping at world of sports.. got 40% off.. oh yah.. almost forgot to mention.. dear bought me a pair of new courts shoes... cos my old one stinks.. haha.. so nice of her rite??

today... we went orchard again... dear wanted to buy a pair of shoes which she din buy on thursday... but somehow.. there was only e display set left at paragon.. after checking, the salesgal told us.. it's a vailable at bugis.. so we rushed down.. in the end... we realise the bugis one not on offer.. so end up din buy... poor ger... we ate billy bombers for dinner.. very very long din eat liaozZ.. still taste quite good.. but dear order some CNY special.. not too nice.. den went chinatown shopping for clothes... i bought a shirt.. finally... but dear couldnt find anything she likes.. she is so so suay today... so kelian...

it's gonna be a busy CNY.. so many places to go... public holiday like no holiday... duhzZ... lagging behind in schoolwork too..

it's been more den a week since my last entry... this week starts tutorials... it's a disaster.. i missed my first accounting tutorial.. not by choice... but cos of my sleep-like-a-pigness.. anyway... it's really a disaster for now... cos i really dunno wat's going on in my tutorials... dunno how to do... i tot i understand the lectures.. but... well.. yah.. duhzZ...

i think i shld be frantically trying to keep up pace with the things happening around me... but.. aiyah... let things take it's course... shun qi zi ran lor...

just now went to watch the semis... NUS lost to SP after a seriously lack lustre performance.. seriously poor.. think that's the best description i can think of.. ppl ask me why i like so happy they lost... well the truth is.. i dun think they deserve to reach the semis in the first place..

yanli's gonna have a long long holiday for the festive season... and i'm gonna make her spend more time with me.. instead of her charis agatha lum "chai tou".. hahaa i'm so jealous of her newborn niece.. taking up all her time.. sobzZ.. hahaa.. time for me to fight back... come dear.. come... hahaha...

i went down to tp to watch vball today.. was suppose to be supporting NUS.. but they din really play well.. lost one set to Ngee Ann poly.. no wonder they lost 3-0 to SIM.. i was expecting NUS to at least take one set from SIM... surprising.. but the main attraction for me today is to watch NTU vs SIM.. NTU won 3-0 and won convincingly.. 2 factors won them the match.. all out defending.. and a magical setter... for non-volleyballers who were standing around me as i watched.. they were saying "wow, NTU's attacking is so strong.. SIM couldnt black any of their spikes.." but with a few years of volleyball experience and knowledge... one would easily realised it's the setter who controlled the match... NTU's setter in this case.. his deception in his setting, made almost every spike for his players an easy spike.. most of the time with only 1 blocker.. and even when there's 2 blockers, they wouldnt have enough time the close in in the bloack.. leaving a space in the middle of the blockers.. it's been a long time since i've seen such remarkable setting.. reminds me of the time i wanted to mimic his moves and deception... the result.. a clown act.. hahaa..

play badminton today.. yanli's improving with every game... maybe one day we can go enter some competition for fun.. hahaa... playing badminton quite often recently... esp cos now got yanli to play with me.. and she is good... heh..

tml.. morning basketball.. evening go back hall... ballot for tut.. and read up some lectures..

back in room again... 1st IHG match is officially over.. won EH quite convincingly.. i din get to play.. this makes me rethink my purpose.. my loyalty to the hall.. etc.. conclusion... this will be my last sem in hall... next sem onwards... HElloOO MRT... i have no believe in hall culture.. it was suppose to excite me... but somehow i've become inert to the hoo haa... i'm just a slient non-existent ninja.. living in huge almighty sheares hall.. hahaa.. and i'm okay with it... because not many ppl knows me.. i have the freedom to do watever i want..

i'm going home for the weekend now... zZzzZZzz...

back in hall.. back in school.. but that's only cos tonight got volleyball match.. not really excited about it... if i get to play den play... if dun have den so be it..

just now went to buy the rest of my textbooks... and so the total amount i spent on 5 irritatingly cheapskate looking textbook is $150.. kaozZ... never buy any book so expensive before... uni is expensive...

din go to school today... wanted to watch lectures online.. but somehow cannot load... but somehow.. i found a way to watch today's lecture... haven watch though... not purposely dun want to go school one... tml no lectures... so no go school...

school has finally started.. 6 modules for me this semester.. only just moved my stuff into hall.. personnally.. i'm still at home... not moving myself in yet... perhaps friday den move... haha..

i'm looking forward to chinese new year... and also the long long mid-yr break.. hahahaa..

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.. 2006 is here... and i wonder if it will be a good year for me.. i sure hope it will be a good year for myself.. but... we shall see how things turn out for myself...

i'll be taking 6 modules for the comming semester.. last sem i only took 4.. very soon.. IHG will be starting.. IVP will be starting even sooner, but i still wonder if i'm taking part in it or not. hahaa... i'm the laziest person around...

i regret to say my last year's resolution of losing weight did not materialise... although halfway thru there seemed to be signs of getting lighter.. but nope.. it was not to be.. the mass just bounce back like it never left.. hahaa... and it brought frends along.. duhzZ duhzZ.. i'm now above 100kg.. a historic milestone.. duhzZ even more..

so these will be my resolutions for the new year...

1. lose weight
2. pass IPPT
3. CAP > 3.5
4. be nice to yanli
5. make some frens

yah.. think that's about it for me.. the only thing i'm proud of achieving for this hols is that i revamp my room a little... shifted my cabinets ard... manage to create a little more space... wile the rest of the time was simply donated to the wonderful invention of the little box below my big black box ( SCV decoder below TV).. hahahaaa.......

it's been more den a week since i last blog... haven really been having a lot of thoughts in my mind... suddenly i seem to have quite a few ideas in my head... first was my exam results... seriously i'm quite surprised with my result... i din do exceptionally well... nor did i do very badly to my standards... but considering the amount of effort i put in for the last semester... i believe that this result is pretty much a miracle... i've got a B B+ and 2 B- and pretty respectable CAP of 3.33. yah... i was very surprised...

christmas was nothing really special... just spend some time with dear... think that's the best part of all lor... maybe it may seem selfish if i put it this way, but as long as she's around me... anyone else doesnt really mattered..

very soon new year's coming.. just a few days away... just like X'mas.. i still have not a single clue how to spent it... but i'm quite sure i wanna spent it with her.. hehee...

i have only one hermit crab left... the other one has been murdered too.. same murderer.. guess it's survival of the fittest... so much for hermit crabs being groupies... duhzZ....