fulfilling... gained a lot of knowledge today... though i'm still sratching only the tip of the iceberg...

by the way i did not manage to do any of the things i stated in my previous entry..

this sucks.. the little tennis ball has accumulated to become a huge snowball.. and it's rolling right towards me... aarrr!!!

I'm going to CHINA!! May 5th.. it's been 10 yrs since going back to the "motherland".. well... now i have something to look forward to.. but i have many many hurdles before that... homework, tests, tutorials, revision, ippt, exams, practical exams... aarrgghhh... the list goes on and on...

it's time... time to turn on hyperdrive..

~warning~

"speeding kills"

i'm so lame...

Next up... accounting project.. physics assignment.. maths webcast lectures followed by tutorials..

din go school today... 3 reasons... not feeling well... damn tired.. and dun wanna face CS1101 tutorials...

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i'm a steam roller baby...
that's roll'n down the street..
i'm a steam roller baby...
that's roll'n down the street..

so u better get out of my way now,
or i'll roll all over u..
so u better get out of my way now,
or i'll roll all over u..

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too bad studying is not an obstacle u can just roll over... duhzZ...

haha.. i'm now in olive cove.. lazing on a couch.. using comp... no one would believe i'm in sch.. hahaa...

my qoute of the day..

"simply ignore everything u have to do today, everything can be done tml, den u'll be happy today."

p.s. when tml comes, apply the above quote again.. hahahaa.... if only life is this great..

spend so much time doing my financial accounting presentation.. initially quite happy and confident about it.. but in the end.. almost every single like kena corrected by the tutor.. so sianzZ, so "throw face", aarrgghhh...

final midterm test is over... only worry is for sociology.. see how.. still lagging like mad on lesson pace... need more haste.. but more haste less speed.. and study stamina is dying..

headache, dizzy,sweating like hell, shivering in cold, stomach pain.. that's wat i felt on my way to school... someone should start sounding out to SBS that making buses too cold aint comfort.. it's torture... esp when entering the bus from a warm place.. sudden change in temperatures cause headache, coupled with the jerky bus movements.. really felt like vomiting!!!!!!!! i'm gonna complain to SBS.. NOW!!

i'm a tenth of a ton.. i'm aching everywhere.. my brain is 386..

rhumatism... ouch...

hungry...

alot has happened in the past 10 days... the majority of the past week was spent studying.. mugging... why cos it's mid-term test week... 3 out of 6 papers are this week.. there will be 2 more after the mid-term break... so yah.. now's midterm break.. but my main itinerary for this short break is catch up.. lots of it... and the dummest thing i did this week is missing my programming midterm test.. why?? cos i din check my timetable earlier... all along i tot my paper was saturday afternoon... so when i checked for my sitting arrangement at noon.. i realised the paper was already over in the morning... my solution?? email the lecturer telling him i was sick in the morning... and so i had to spend $26 to go see a doctor and convince him i had diarrhea in the morning.. haha.. works all the time... the only problem now is that i dun even know if there would even be a retest for me.. sobzZ.. this actually gives me some time to study... i totally haven done anyting for programing..not even lectures or tutorials... HAH!!

valentine's was last tues.. the only day i din do mugging... yah... got a call from yanli in the morning.. cos she received the flowers i sent her.. hehh.. so happy.. cos she's happy... we went to night safari for dinner that night.. we went there for bongo burger... although it wasnt too disappointing but the menu has changed since the last time we went there.. so yah.. think that we would be the last time we are there... anyway there's carl's jr around now...

this weekend is simple enjoyment.. after some tests.. and missed 1 test.. it's time to waste money... saturday night we went to watch NTU's impresario... if u dunno wat's that.. Impresario is NTU's version of talentime.. it's a islandwide competition though.. the quality's better den superstar.. way better... Kelly poon was the guest artiste.. and junyang was her guest.. while me and yanli were sitting just beside junyang's fan club.. so pai seh.. they had luminated clubs.. and scream like there's no tml.. kaozZ... anyway.. the real highlight of the whole show was the performance by MOSAIC.. the winner of another NTU compeition FuXion.. they are not a singing group, they are music performers, unlike any we have seen... that performance simply blew the whole audience away.. it was simply just WOAH!!!!

today went shopping with yanli and spent quite a bit at marina square.. really went shopping.. quite shiok... hahaa.. ate at millenia walk's food court.. had my favourite korean food there.. yummy.. still good... den continued shopping... den bought more stuff.. den decided to watch movie.. so we bought the $48 dollars for 6 tickets package... so yah.. we are expecting a few more movies to come.. haha.. meanwhile before the show... we went to eat kaya fondue at glutton square.. yummy... i like the kaya there.. tastier den ya kun.. ya kun's one actually too sweet... yah.. nice... watch pink panther... it's a just for laughs show... very lame very funny... haha... but be warned.. not all jokes are obvious.. enjoyed myself very much today... gotta prepare myself for a week of catching up...

today the spector found a glimpse of a light... a ray of light which broke through the darkness after a night of grueling mugging... though it was just a glimpse... but it gave me tons of hope.. and satisfaction.. only a single word descrbes my feelings now...

SHIOK!!!

a drifting spector needs a light.. a leading light.. a source of encouragement.. an understanding heart.. and tons of patience...

i still have not found my direction.. i'm now just going straight.. straight ahead cos i have no idea where to turn... it's like walking in the dark.. afraid to turn left or right.. even afraid of taking the next step.. for fear i may end up in the abyss..

but isnt life about taking risks?? every step we take is a gamble.. be it big or small.. without risks.. life is a plain piece of paper... so we be afraid of taking risks?? i guess not.. but if u have gambled many a times... and lost the bet just as many... perhaps u would be somewhat like me.. afraid to take the next step...

i waited and she finally came for me.. for a moment i thought all was lost.. and i was left alone.. in the fire..

the thought of being alone on a deserted island may be scary to some... but i think that's not the worst.. cos u know that that is the situation and things are fixed at the state... after some time u will get used to it...

but now.. imagine u being in the crowded place... there are many ppl around.. having fun.. making noise.. but.. here's the irony.. u are alone.. ppl walk past u as if u werent there.. u become a drifting spector in the crowded.. that sort of loneliness, i feel is many times more horrifying and unbearable compared to the one above...

i feel like i'm trapped in a ring of fire.. and the only person who can save me.. dun wanna come.. should i just jump out of the ring at all cost or should i juat stay here and wait... i chose to wait..

just to continue the last post... sheares won the IHG vball.. again.. though i see everyone celebrating.. cheering.. it means almost nothing to me.. my heart was for the game.. not the result.. while ppl were cheering and chatting after the game... i'm just glad that yanli was around, to pei me and quietly walk away... some were emails sent out expressing their gratitude in everyone's commitment to the trainings and games and blah blah blah... well... i was mention in the emails appropriately as the runaway sons, rather apt i feel.. so was jeremy.. same situation as me i guess.. but sorry to say.. i'm bent on not carrying on my stay next sem.. currently i'm comtemplating whether or not to continue staying this sem.. i've send and enquiry to the OSA, asking for options.. we shall see...

this week was suppose to be a heavy week.. but somehow i reduce my lessons on my own accord.. 8 hrs became 2.. 6 hrs become 1... haha... not good.. maybe cos of my late nights spent at ECP mac.. that was my studying haunt for the past few days.. spent the nites there with yanli... i studied while she played "ming xing san que yi".. though she was playing.. she was really tired.. and i'm really grateful that she spent all that time with me.. esp when she had to work the next day.. she also helped me a lot with my financial accounting.. after missing the previous lesson... she really gave me tuition in the tutorials... and i was able to complete them to great accuracy... all thanks to her...

yesterday i realised i missed the deadline for my physics online assignment.. i din even know it was already up in the web... suckzZ.. so i got zero for my first webassign.. last sem i think i got zerp also.. but that was because i din know how to do.. not din do.. i was having a bad headache most of yesterday.. it was very uncomfortable.. made me nauseaus most of the time... uuurgghh...

today... wat day is today.. today is friday.. today's IHG vball finals, gonna play against eusoff.. today i supposedly had 3 classes.. but i skipped one and another was cancelled so i only had 1 hr of lessons today... today i filled up all the blanks in my FNA notes... today i catched up on my maths lectures, while chatting on MSN, also lazing in my B412 aka hostel room... today i did my maths lab quiz 1... today i had lunch alone again.. that's about it for today for now...

weekends are supposedly my free time... but i dun think i can keep them free of schoool work anymore... cos i just aint doing enough during the weekdays.. so yah... self-declared xtra classes for myself.. going to mac to study again... mid-term tests are coming.. less den 10 days time.. UNI works in hyper-drive... lazy bums watch out!!

2nd day of CNY.. things were better after eve.. nose and throat were slightly better... got quite a few ang baos.. and cos travel around to "bai nian" i incur very little personal expenses.. that's good.. considering i'm very poor now.. yesterday had dinner at spageddies@paragon.. first time eating there.. was expecting cartel-like food.. but i was wrong.. it was much better and and much more worth it... fulfilling dinner.. yesterday we were at cineleisure watching .. tonite we were there again but this time it's a huge family-matter.. although it's only like half of my maternal relatives, we had 20 tickets watching .. WOAH!! first time watch movie with so many relatives... interesting... hahaa.. think CNY is the only time i can mix better with my cousins..

today also went around visiting with my 4e khakis... it's been a yearly custom for us for years.. it's amazing how long this has been going on.. since we graduated.. or rather ever since CCHS we have been doing this.. in the early years.. we would take bus together from one house to another for CNY visiting... it's was fun taking a bus with a bunch of classmates.. years have past.. many things have changed.. but some things still seem the same.. or rather we have grown accustom to each others habits.. nowadays.. we drive around in a few cars... the bus crowd and evolved into a caravan of cars.. haha.. although the amount in the ang pao $$ hasnt really increased over the years.. but that was way besides the point.. haha..

Happy LUNAR NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE...

it's a lousy new year's eve for me... i'm sick!! flu.. coughing like mad.. and i feeling very very lethargic... for the pass few days.. it's just getting worst... this sucks... stayed at home after like 8plus... din go anywhere... not chinatown.. not marina... just at home.. so sianzZ.. so boring.. so irritating.. i'm SICK and BORED!!! this sucks... and i'm not getting and care and tenderness frm the only person that matters... this sucks even more... SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!