failed my ippt today.. actually could have tried for partial pass.. but nah... too lazy to do that.. too long never run also.. dun think i'll pass anyway.. so yah.. i've clocked my ippt attempt..

I've got my horrendous results for this semester.. it's a horrible.. 2.5, although it was not really surprising to see that.. but i was still expecting a little more.. at least from my accounting.. in the end only got B-... quite disappointed in that... well there's nothing i can do abt the results now.. i just wonder where they will post me to.. hmm.. civil or just engineering science... maybe i'll just quit... see how first...

it's my birthday next week... and i'm think if i could get a small celebration up.. hmmm... some ppl go KTV... some come my house for lunch/dinner.. shld be something liddat... discuss with mummy tml...

did some baking for the past few days... and the most important reason for doing so?? the flour in my house is expiring.. in fact they expired last week.. but i'm still trying to make the most out of it.. i'm not expecting much from the recipes.. cos i made some changes..

so yah.. the result was that.. bread became hard like scones.. and my scones look just like muffins.. but they taste not bad though.. hahaa.. and now.. my lastest batch of white bread is resting in the oven just to grow.. the yeast in my house doesnt seem to work.. maybe it's wet... hmmm.. not too sure.. my only aim is to make sure the bread looks like and taste like bread this time.. and not scones..

hahaa..

just finished watching my Bao Lian Deng DVD.. I like this show very much... hahahaa... i think it's all her fault..



and i search online for info on her.. and guess wat.. she's only 19 this yr... from china, beijing and has already acted in many serials... oh yah.. her name's SHU CHANG.. she's an orphan.. nonetheless a beautiful and talented actress..

went to watch the first a div vball match of the season.. and it's also the last one.. it's the finals.. tj guys are in the finals again with a perfect record.. even beating on the way.. and they now face ajc once again.. pictures i took at the game are already up at my fotopic website.. just follow the link..

finals 2006

and the result.. tj lost 3-2.. a result in no way expected nor one-sided.. perhaps the game was lost on physical disadvantage.. but even so.. they had a real chance of winning..

it's a pity not to win.. but definitely not a shame to have lost..

It's been awhile. I wonder if anyone missed me. Well, I just got back from my China trip a few days ago. it's an extremely enjoyable trip. It's been 10 yrs since the last time i was in china and that was with cchs ppl.. long long time ago.. this time it's just me and yanli. we joined a tour grp, so there's actually lots of company. we were lucky that the company was really fun. mostly uncles and aunties, but they were very fun, very active, very funny.. really spark the whole trip.. so i would say we were very lucky..

8 days in china, started off getting to shanghai. took SIA for e first time.. at least for what i remember.. my mum keeps insisting i had take SIA b4, but i totally dun remember anything.. hahaa.. the trip there was worth the extra $100 for choosing SQ.. but it was fun.. lots of food.. movies.. games.. shiok.. 5hrs of flight literally just flew by.. haha.. but there were consequences, we were so tired after the flight.. and we were only just starting on our grueling schedule.. hahaa...

we didnt stay in shanghai for long, after a few stopovers, we were off to suzhou for the night, followed by hangzhou the next afternoon, nanjing on the next, den wuxi, and finally back to shanghai on the 5 day.. tight schedules.. china is just too big with too much to see.. half the time was spent on coach and hotels.. tiring.. but it was fun and quite fufilling.. cos this is one of the furthest trip in the past few years.. or rather past decade..

i think i'll pass on the trip desciption.. i'll let the pictures do the talking.. just follow the link below..

ChInA fOtOs

I'm going to china now.. muahahaaa.... and yanli is hungry.. hahaa.. time to go look for food in T2... T2 is a 24h shopping centre..

i may have to regret not studying for the past semester... i may have to pay for it by getting throw into civil engine.. well.. i'll leave it to fate now... cos i dunno how badly i'll do... luck may be smiling at me once again.. or maybe not.. watever the case.. it's over and there's nothing i can do about it.. so for now.. i'll forward... i have 2 thing sto look forward to.. one is i'm going china for a week this friday.. gonnna have fun with yanli there... yeah!! 2nd... i'm gonna take my ippt soon.. looking forward to it.. ha!!

life shld really be easy...

exams are officially over.. my short term aim is to get into mechanical engine... i just hope i can get in.. cos my resutls totally sucks..

one last paper to go...

1 paper down.. 1 paper gone case... 4 more to go..

~Kelun's Qoute of the day~

When they set the paper at this standard, it doesnt matter if u study or not.. the paper is still blank.

there's always a first time for everything ppl say... today i experience my first.. first time submitting nothing for a major paper... yah.. that's my great achievement today... it's computing... stupid programming... cant understand anything.. cant do anything.. and so i made history today... blank submission.. hahahaa... duhzZ...

haven been going to school lately... i have by my own officially declared study period.. but the catch is i am not studying yet... i'm just piling a very very big snowball now... and i wonder how it will collapse in a few weeks time..

anyway.. i have been doing nothing... i actually done something.. i have more or less completed my part of the finanacial accounting project... wat's left is only compilation and some editing.. yah...

next week will be my biggest hurdle before the exams... i have programing practical exam.. having not written a single program during the whole term... the mention of programing scares the wits out of me.. i really wonder how i am going to even hope to pass that module... we shall see...

life is never easy... why cant it be... some people seem to get a very difficult start in life... but somehow things turn out excellent for them... that's wat a third party will think... wat they dun see is that... when things get difficult.. they work harder...

whereas my case may jus tbe the exact opposite... life started out pretty nicely... i do well in almost everything.. but as the going get tough... i crumble.. is it because.. my initial road was too smooth.. so now i couldnt take any hardship? i hope not.. or maybe i just have more optimism in life... and that everything no matter wat will just turn out fine... I hope so... really hope so... recently.. i'm a loafer.. i do nothing.. although not literally nothing.. but practically it's nothing meaningful...

recently, the greeting phrase i get most often is "hey, where have u been? i haven seen u in a long time"... this made me realised something.. the way i have lived for the past few months.. in almost total isolation from outside world with the exception of yanli and my family... almost no contact with other frens... it actually sounds rather sad when i heard that phrase... it makes me wonder.. how much i have missed.. how much of the life of ppl around me i have missed.. not that it's really impt.. but.. it suppose to make our lives more meaningful..

if this period of isolation was actually well spent burying myself in the stacks of notes and tutorials... i would say it's really time well spent.. but that was not the case... that WAS the initial aim.. but... like wat u shld have realised by now... i haven really been able to reach any of my targets or aims...

tenghui ask me a question today... "wat is ur definition of success?" i told him i din know.. but i actually have quite a clear idea of wat a successful ME shld be... i would be rich.. wealthy.. powerful and well-liked... things around me are always well done... although i had an answer.. but i was ashamed to say it.. why ?? cos it seems wishful thinking.. very wishful.. anyway... he told me his definition... it would be "being able to achieve wat you set out to do" that would be a success... i almost laughed at myself... cos if u apply that to me... i would be very UNSUCCESSFUL now.. and i think i really am...

it's really been a very very long time since i last touched a volleyball.. i still love the game.. but i look at myself... i'm ashamed of my physical state... i'm a fat slob.. looking at the positive side... i may be the most agile and quickest person in the weight category.. but here's the problem... ppl in my weight category are sumo wrestlers.. HAhAhAAaaa...

have wrote so much in a long time... it seems i have more words to depress myself today... but anyway... i received a touching message today... from someone close to me.. tellimg me something that i din expect her to tell me on the day it happened.. so i'm really happy for that... little things make me feel that "I" matter.. thanks..

~crap of the day~
Mr A : Hi, I'm a representative from Singapore Toastmasters.
Mr B : Oh, hi. Are you the one selling toasters?? The Toastmaster 2006??

p.s. Toastmasters is an international association which specialises in public speaking.. just so u ppl know..

fulfilling... gained a lot of knowledge today... though i'm still sratching only the tip of the iceberg...

by the way i did not manage to do any of the things i stated in my previous entry..

this sucks.. the little tennis ball has accumulated to become a huge snowball.. and it's rolling right towards me... aarrr!!!

I'm going to CHINA!! May 5th.. it's been 10 yrs since going back to the "motherland".. well... now i have something to look forward to.. but i have many many hurdles before that... homework, tests, tutorials, revision, ippt, exams, practical exams... aarrgghhh... the list goes on and on...

it's time... time to turn on hyperdrive..

~warning~

"speeding kills"

i'm so lame...

Next up... accounting project.. physics assignment.. maths webcast lectures followed by tutorials..

din go school today... 3 reasons... not feeling well... damn tired.. and dun wanna face CS1101 tutorials...

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i'm a steam roller baby...
that's roll'n down the street..
i'm a steam roller baby...
that's roll'n down the street..

so u better get out of my way now,
or i'll roll all over u..
so u better get out of my way now,
or i'll roll all over u..

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too bad studying is not an obstacle u can just roll over... duhzZ...

haha.. i'm now in olive cove.. lazing on a couch.. using comp... no one would believe i'm in sch.. hahaa...

my qoute of the day..

"simply ignore everything u have to do today, everything can be done tml, den u'll be happy today."

p.s. when tml comes, apply the above quote again.. hahahaa.... if only life is this great..

spend so much time doing my financial accounting presentation.. initially quite happy and confident about it.. but in the end.. almost every single like kena corrected by the tutor.. so sianzZ, so "throw face", aarrgghhh...