Dark Friday

Drove home from CCAB with a passenger overload in my car. All was well and there werent any traffic police along the way. Way out of point, but the sky was looking damn gloomy, as if reflecting my mood. Was laughing and talking out loud with some of the guys at prata cafe but i felt like shit actually, just cant understand why the guys cant win. Or rather why cant they just put that extra pint of effort into their receiving, spiking and blockings. AJ is not a team with better players den we do, but yet they have a winning mentally which i'm seriously envious of since the times i was in JC. That was the mentality of their game, win, just whack fearlessly but with brains. I aim to be fearless like them, and be stronger than them one day. Perhaps today is not yet the day. We have different players coming in every year, yet the problem of mental weakness remains. Why? Why does this remain even with different batch of players leaving and coming in? My guess, physical weakness, physically we are not strong enough. We build up mental strength by perservering physically, by challenging our limits, we learn to go against the odds. But our training lacks this. I guess this will be the major change i'll bring about in training if I'm able to continue in TJ.