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This shld be considered a backdated post.. i just wanna share what i have done for yanli for this year's X'mas... so now let the pictures do the talking... :P

10 Habits for a successful KELUN in 2007

It's the time of the year when ppl start thinking about new year resolutions again. time and time again, i've set out tasks for myself to achieve.

these are my resolutions for this year:

1. lose weight
2. pass IPPT
3. CAP > 3.5
4. be nice to yanli
5. make some frens

out of which, i only achieved being slightly nicer to yanli, and that's only my opinion. the rest of my tasks i failed terribly. perhaps i was setting my goals a little to high. i shld be looking at the smaller steps first. so these will be my 10 things to remind myself for 2007

1. ask for less carbs in my meals(ie. less rice/noodles). reducing diet slowly, make myself eat less, even when i'm very tired after workout.
2. spend at max $3 meal, especially when in school.
3. buffets only happen once a month, so does pig trotters.
4. visit my swimming pool at least twice a week, at least 45mins each time. anyone who wanna join me please do so by informing me at least a day prior.
5. max of 2hrs of tv+games+ each weekday. 6hrs on weekends.
6. at least 3hrs each day on concentrated studying(excluding lesson hrs). to achieve this i'll have to spend time before/in between/after lessons in school cos to home just doesnt work.
7. dun put on a glum face for anyone, try to smile more, even for strangers, but especially for people i know
8. be nicer to people around me, dun reject helping just because i'm lazy(as long as i rethink why i reject helping ppl, most of the time is cos i'm lazy. but if u ask me at that pt, i just come up with some lame reason.)
9. at least 6 hrs of continuous sleep each day, (ie. sleep by 1am)
10. finally make sure i stick to all my above rules. people around me who see me, please help me by reminding me. thanks!!!

so that's it, i believe these 10 habits will help me make 2007 a successful year for myself and the people around me.

Results

I've gotten my results for last sem yesterday, it was rather disappointing actually, 3 sems into NUS, and my best grade is only a B+, and that was in my 1st sem. Anyway, this sem alone, my CAP was 3.2, last sem was 2.0, first sem was 3.3. All in all, a pretty discouraging CAP of 2.76, but it was some improvement.

next sem, i'm going to challenge myself. i'm going to take 6 modules, 4 core, 1 yr 1 module(retaking cos got F), and 1 Sg studies module. well that's not the challenge, it's studies plus vball.. i'm going to participate in IVP and also coach back in TJ.. i think this really sounds challenging. time is of the essence. no time to waste at all. must keep working non-stop. no more watching cable, playing games.

Now, all i really need is a transport. if only i could afford my own car, a small one will do... :P

Boxing Day

Christmas is over and it's boxing day, a day when all presents will be unwrapped. this shld be the happiest day of the holiday season for most kids. alas, i'm no longer a kid, so this day doesnt seem to hold much meaning for me. ya, that's cos i dun have any presents to unwrap. :(

i guess this yr's christmas is one of the most uneventful one i've ever spent. literally did almost nothing except eat and sleep through the day. but the weirdest part is still this feeling of depression which sort of engulfed me, from the moment i woke up. from that point on, i had a frowning, sulking face hanging for the rest of the day. i think that kindda spoilt yanli's christmas too. i'm sorry. i tried to explain to myself why i would feel so down. but as i look for answers i found TOO many, that kindda made me felt worst.

so i have so many things to feel down about? exam results, sch reopening, coaching, packing up my stuff.

i was still alrite on christmas eve, was still sending everyone "merry X'mas" messages.. was watching "A night in the museum", i think i started becoming quiet during the show, everyone was laughing away, while i was giving only a quiet grin. i din know wat was going thru my head then... but i guess i know now, cos there seems to be endless stuff for me to do and time seems to be slowly creeping away from me. and this sucks, i guess...

supposed to have volleyball training this morning, but i have been coughing the whole day since yesterday, so i gave it a miss. i wanted to go for training, cos i thought i would make me feel better, forget abt all the down stuff. but the coughing was really killing me.. *cough* Cough*

exam results will be out tml... *fingers crossed*

1st Test Of Skills

this morning tj gals got their first taste of somewhat competitive volleyball. they had a frenly match with cchs. physically the cchs gals seem rather tall, though they were only 14/15 yr olds. the results turned out to be rather disappointing, tj lost 4-1. cchs wasn't considered a strong opponent, but basics wise they have a much stronger background compared to our gals. it was a matchup that was decided on who made the most mistakes. successful attack were far and few. what's encouraging was that most of the players in the courts were not the strongest we have. i would say that our key players would be yumei, shiyun & vanessa. among them, yumei and vanessa only play one set, and shiyun was still in thailand. the team was made of of quite a few beginners like yanting and alicia, both played pretty well. i hope that this match has given them a glimpse of the arduous task they have ahead of them. it's an uphill battle, but they have to understand they are not alone.

oh yah, meiyan - thanks for the socks. haha..

Busy Day

it's been a long long week. there was quite a few unusual things had happened in this short span of 5 days. mainly related to volleyball training. but i felt the most disappointing thing with regards to training is their attendance. compared to the beginning when i took over, the attendance this week was pathetic, yesterday only 4 guys turns up for training, plus one more whose appeal to tj was rejected, so 5 guys. i was having a huge headache as to wat drill to conduct, if i were to do PT instead, it would be double strenuous for a small group. really headache. gals attendance still not to bad, the least was 8, but that's like half the original number of them. sometimes i wonder, if it's me coaching them, that's y they feel that training is not as impt, that would have been very very depressing for me.

there were also incidents with a player struggling to cope with progress in training, which led to the involvement of tj's 2 VPs to talk to me. well, i thought i would have been able to handle them well, and i thought i did. but when wanyang spoke to them, i realise the way i spoke was rather, kiddish. anyway, the matter was somewat resolved. all in all i am confident in my responsibilities, i know wat are the personalities and intricacies i shld take note of, i believe i did not fail.

yesterday's the last training for this holiday. training will only resume after school reopens, which is only like less than 2 weeks later, at the same time, my school term will start too, and IVP will also kick into action. I have a huge question mark now, as to how i'm suppose to juggle all these stuff happening at the same time. but these will be my priority list:

1. school
2. tj coaching
3. IVP

this will be a test for me, in the past i've turn away many times when faced with time issues. next sem i would really have to juggle my time carefully, cos i wun have much or even any to spare.

there's 2 gatherings going on yesterday, one at kaiyu's place, the other at esther's place. i decided to go to kaiyu's place first to grab some food before going to esther's it turn out to be a rather wrong choice. wasted quite a lot time at esther's place rotting away. i left kaiyu's place too early, so din take photo with them. quite sad abt that cos alot of ppl from our class turn up. but i did take some photos over at esther's place, quite happy about that, but pity ZZ left too early, she was in such a persistant mood to leave. none of us could stop her. duhzZ...

anyway, the photos will be uploaded into the fotopic site very soon. just remember to check the side bar for updates.

Here comes Week 2

I'm looking forward to my 2nd week in charge of the tj vball teams. I need to instill more discipline and self-responsibility in the players. after a week, i can tell that some are commited to learning the game. while some simply are there just to waste time, both mine and theres. thankfully, i see hope. cos most of them listen and has shown progress and changes in attitude. let's see if i'm really cut out to be a coach in the coming week.

At the same time, NUS will be coming down to tj for their trainings. It's gonna be taxing for me.. coachings monday to friday, plus nus trainings tues and thurs. woah.. time to get fit fit fit..

Coaching is Fun yet Taxing

Today i have a break from having to coach everyday, cos badminton's having camp in school today, so guys training was actually brought forward to yesterday.

Finally, i'm getting a hang of the traits of coaching. it's not as easy as it looks. but once put your mind too it, it's not that hard. as long as u think on the line of improving your players potentials, life becomes much easier as long as you know what to be done. the initial stages is the toughest cos i'm not familiar with them yet, nor do i know wat their strengths and weaknesses are. but i believe as training progresses, i'll be able to understand them better and coaching will become more effective.

End of Training Week 1

today i had my 1st solo training session, had to lead the tj guys through training.. having a solo makes me understand the difficulties in being a coach. when there's a another coach around, all i had to do was follow instructions, carry out the training drills, pick out their mistakes and correct them. when i lead, i have to so all of the above and decide what drills to carry out and sometimes, not all drills are effective. sometimes the effectiveness is not there, depending on the mentality of the players. that's another huge thing to deal with, the personalities of all these players, some have huge egos, others seem as if they are autistic.

basically, it's a difficult task handling training. it makes me appreciate coaches and other teammates who make the effort to conduct trainings. luckily wanyang came down today to help out in training. otherwise i would be quite lost.

there's just one other irritating thing about going back to tj, u have to face the brainless OM idiot.. and some dumb security guards.. picks on me for wearing slippers into school and not signing in.. one of the guards recognises me, so it's usually fine for me to just go in.. but when that dumb OM is around he bitches about slippers.. and this morning.. i waved at the security guard, he smiled back at me, and i just walking in, but there this other one who seem quite lost.. and apparently he when to report to OM abt me not signing in.. WAT an Asshole.. den OM came to find me at the court and KPKB.. saying he can call police.. blah blah blah... in a nutshell.. a waste of my time.. almost spolit my day...

It's the End.. It has COME!!

hehee.. exams are finally over.. although i dun think i'll get fantastic results.. but i think i wun fail any.. yah.. time to have fun for the rest of the holidays.. oh yah.. my holdays have started.. hahaha...

next up will be a month filled with volleyball trainings. both being trained and training others... first official stint as a trainer... time to gain experience for future development...

Day 3 - 2nd Last Day!!

3rd paper of the exams is over.. seemed do-able.. but that's not a good sign for us.. esp when there's plenty of foreigners in our cohort.. i just hope they dun all get full marks.. that would totally destroy my chance of getting a good result.. anyway... i felt more confident after doing this paper comapred to the last 2.. simply cost i was able to answer more qns.. just for the sake of ppl who dun know my exam format.. for all my papers this semester.. there's only 4 qns, each worth 25 marks... maybe it's coincidence.. maybe not..

went to eat ma la huo guo again for a 2nd time this week.. quite shiok.. haha.. this stall that i go to doesnt make my ass burn the next day.. so it's good.. :P i'll do a small write up soon at my food site.. stay tuned yah??

oh yah.. most imptly.. 2nd last day of exams.. tml is last paper.. and it's open book!! yeah!!

End of Exam Day 2

Day 2 has ended.. i'm half way thru the exams.. and i'm pretty depressed about my progress so far... i know i wun be able to get any As from the last 2 papers.. and i doubt i'll be getting any from the next 2 papers as well..

depressing sums up my feelings for this examination till now..

the bravest man, recovers from defeat and strive into victory..

well, i'm the laziest brave man, and the dummest too.. why??

cos i always recover from defeats, and strive to work harder, but i always lose steam in the end, just cos i was too lazy to carry on.. and why am i e dummest... cos i will repeat the whole procedure again very very soon... it's worst than a vicious cycle, it's a vicious cycle that i cant escape from...

Examinations - Day 1

it's really really hard to concentrate on studying.. esp when it seem there's so many other things better to do.. i only just finished my helpsheet for today's paper a while ago.. paper's at 1pm... gonna take a nap now... it's gonna be a grueling 4 days...

An Old friend

Just came back after meeting up with a very old fren.. not that she's old.. it just i havent seen her in like 8 yrs.. yup.. that's abt it.. haven seen her since secondary school.. basically she went canada after O lvl's, the last time she came back it was 5 yrs ago. i was in army then, so i didnt get the chance to meet up with her.

so yah, she's back for a fren's wedding.. and we took the chance to meet up with her.. kaiyu, tenghui, silie and i, we met up with her at bugis and brought her along to tong shui.. it was kindda hard getting her out initially, tried a few weekends but she was always flying somewhere else.. cos she was busy with lots of other stuff.. somehow got her out today.. only to realise she's leaving next week.. that's so soon.. maybe the next time we meet, it will be me visiting her in canada..

not seeing her for so long made me almost forgot about her existence... meeting up with her brought back tons of memories.. i guess i was quite short of words just now, din really know wat to say or ask her.. just some crap talking in the end.. i guess i was overwhelmed by all the images coming back from memory lane.. still thinking about the past, and suddenly remembering all the nooks and crannies.. quite amazing actually how much i have in my memory, stuff which i din even know i remembered... but apparent i remembered quite alot abt her.. that's the fun part abt see someone u haven seen in a very very long time..

Exams and holidays

Lessons are over for now.. no more lectures and tutorials.. it's now time for revision and more revision.. exams will be starting next week.. ending next week too.. 4 days of exams.. 4 papers... all in the afternoon.. just hope i can do well.. i really need the good results to pull up my grades.. let's see how well i can do..

been back to tj for training/coaching.. guys only barely enough ppl, and they are not very good either.. dun have a convincing team to put up... as for the gals.. they have plenty of people as usual.. but the interesting thing i realised is that almost all of them are from TA.. that means 15/16 year olds.. very small.. that explain why their skills are still quite amaturish.. but the good thing is there's still time to train.. and i hop ei can make something out of it...

schedule recently is quite packed.. and i'm really trying to get enough rest.. i'm so so so drained now.. there's supposed to be training at 730am tml.. but i told fung i'm going to skip it.. cant take it.. need more rest.. and i have to study... will be back on the court on thurs...

孤军作战

歌曲名：孤军作战 (小孩不笨2电影主题曲)
所属专辑：独角兽
演唱：洪俊扬
曲-杨波 词-梁智强

我们肆无忌惮
我们成群结党
我们目无尊长
对什么事都不满
看著我们的成长
只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处看你又能怎样
我们don't give a damn
那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是
我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会
渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙
学校老师束手无策
父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了
我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书
就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们
就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们
为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁崽嫖颐窍胂?BR>苹果为何会变烂
其实我们也曾努力
要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟
给了我们多少希望
泪水已经流干
前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂
我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望


I like this song... :P

Change of Tides

after today, there will be no more tests left.. wat's left ahead is just the exams... no more rushing to mug for a test.. wat's left is just week long muggings for a full paper... has anything changed?? plenty have changed.. and plenty remains the same..

how am i to keep on going in this boring and tiresome lifestyle? how shld i motivate myself to keep moving while everyday i'm losing a few paces, lagging a little more.. I must not give up yet.. lagging i may be.. but at long as i keep moving on.. there will be a chance of catching up..

**Euphoria** :)

I'm so happy that the perhaps the toughest friday of the semester is now over.. i'm done with the assignments for this week and also the test.. it turns out that the test was pretty easy... and i'm glad i spent the previous nite completing my assignments.. now i can relax a little this weekend..

i'm so so tired when i finished the test.. my stomach was growling like mad.. can feel my stomach turning inside out.. ouch.. it kindda started hurting.. but i drank some water and slept it away on the bus home.. and i thought to myself.. i think i shld eat something, like a reward for myself for completing my work and surviving thru it, even if it's for now.. so i ate chicken cutlet at a coffeeshop near my place.. the food was not bad.. but i seriously have never seen a thinner looking piece of chicken.. amazingly thin.. anyway after food i went home and totally knocked out in front of my TV...

i only woke up around 10plus, just in time for my online meeting at 11pm.. hahaa.. wonderful mental clock.. sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt... haha..

anyway i JUST came back from some supper with tenghui and silie.. and tenghui has more and more to talk about his business idea.. which is still very very vague to me.. and pretty much unrealistic.. but i shall not write him off yet.. cos sometimes u need such ppl to spark a wonderful idea.. so yah.. keep on disillusioning.. hehe...

Zombified

It's been a very long time since i used this word. But this word totally describe me today. I'm like a walking corpse, with totally no knowledge of anything happening around me. yupzZ.. that's zombified.. reached school at just after 8am to do my com lab report... manage to finish 95% in like 5hrs... but i kept dozing off.. really had to struggle to keep myself awake..

after which i was just drifting around classes till now.. totally have no will to say anything or give any expression other den my zombied look.. some ppl did notice i was looking damn tired.. which i really was...

still have volleyball training later on.. i'm really wondering if i can keep this up.. huge test on friday which i haven studied.. and 2 assignments also due on friday, which i coincidentally also haven started doing.. yah.. that's e problem..

i'm feeling so zombified... i cant think...

Period Of Absence & Delirium

i've been MIA'd from blogging for sometime.. pretty much longer den usual i would say.. it's not that i dun have anything to say.. it just i feel so tired.. so so tired.. just din have e energy to load the webpage and talk about my day or past few days..

it's the period of the semester when all datelines and exams are converging together.. and that creates trememdous amount of stress.. however i've been able to hang on.. for now.. but this has taken a toll on me.. my body is no longer used to long hrs of studying.. plus vball training.. plus housework.. yah.. it just seems there's not enough time.. not enough energy..

it has come to the point that my mind is kind of saturated.. it's taking me more and more effort to understand anything.. i just cant seem to think properly anymore.. cant seem to think straight.. my whole strain of thought seems to be screwed up... so is right, wrong? or wrong, rite? wat's rite?? wat's wrong??